Random Thoughts...

[Bloof]

Well I was going to wait until somebody else posted in this damn thread before I posted anything else, but I'm too fucking excited about this one. This time seven years ago I weighed 350 lb. 8 months ago I weighed 220 lb. 3 months ago I weighed 200 lb. And today...

Something to be very proud of. ::cool::

[Morningriser]

Something to be very proud of. ::cool::

Oh believe me darling, I am very proud! There's not a whole lot nowadays that brings me joy but this makes me feel like my hard work and determination, even if it did take 7 years, is really paying off. I mean this move to Vegas has helped me in so many damn ways. I'm getting physically healthier, mentally healthy or, getting the balls to start standing up for myself and trying to see things from a philosophical approach both inside and outside the box. Man I can't wait to start to college this fall.

Also, if anyone uses popcorn time or any other movie streaming or downloading services and doesn't use a proxy, watch out! I didn't think I would honestly need a proxy but I got an email this morning and apparently because I watched split the other day, I got a copyright warning and they said if it continues to happen my account will be suspended. I either need to get rid of that fucking program or figure out how to use a proxy. Just be careful guys.

[Sculpt]

Well I was going to wait until somebody else posted in this damn thread before I posted anything else, but I'm too fucking excited about this one. This time seven years ago I weighed 350 lb. 8 months ago I weighed 220 lb. 3 months ago I weighed 200 lb. And today...188lbs
Wow! Good job! How did you lose that first 100lbs from 350? Was that the most difficult part? How'd you lose this last 30lbs?

[Morningriser]

Wow! Good job! How did you lose that first 100lbs from 350? Was that the most difficult part? How'd you lose this last 30lbs?
Thanks bro!


I had gastric bypass back in 2012. I got down to around 215 pounds at one point but then during my breakup, being stressed as fuck, I started eating a lot more than I should have and it started stretching my stomach so I went back up to around 240 lb. Over long. Of just eating a lot less is how I got back down to 220 lb and then when I moved out here I continue my diet and I walk a lot. I was lifting weights but the gym has been closed since October because they are supposed to be completely remodeling the laundry room which is in the same building but yet still it's it's barely touched. It's really annoying because I was starting to build up muscle mass that was noticeable but now I'm just all saggy again hahaha

[Morningriser]

This truly disgusts me and really breaks my heart. For those of you who have seen the video of the Native American being harassed, all we saw was a very small portion and the kid who was in the natives face, was nothing compared to some Christians who were yelling and screaming at natives and telling them they had to give up their beliefs and had to become Christians and saying shit like their land was taken from them because they believe in everything but the one true God. How can such disgrace exist in this country when people are getting murdered left and right for nothing? I honestly couldn't watch much of this because that guy at the beginning really enraged me.

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[cheebacheeba]

Meh. Anyone that starts bangin' on about religion hits my auto-ignore button.

[Morningriser]

It's not necessarily about religion, it's about how a hateful racist group of people is systemically doing all they can to eradicate the poor and lower class citizens. That shit completely rubs me the wrong way and just downright sickens me, but duly noted.

[cheebacheeba]

Oh I didn't mean you, I meant them and the God stuff they were on about.

Tomorrow is "Australia Day", our 26th of January anyway.
It's become the funniest thing to see online kerfuffle about...There's a movement to cancel it and start referring to it as "Invasion Day".
The best part is?
It's mainly a total white person thing.
It's like, if you're that cut up about it, sign over everything you own to the Aboriginal community and you'd best be on your way back to the UK?
Just make sure to let everyone know on social media ::roll eyes::

[Sculpt]

This truly disgusts me and really breaks my heart. For those of you who have seen the video of the Native American being harassed, all we saw was a very small portion and the kid who was in the natives face, was nothing compared to some Christians who were yelling and screaming at natives and telling them they had to give up their beliefs and had to become Christians and saying shit like their land was taken from them because they believe in everything but the one true God. How can such disgrace exist in this country when people are getting murdered left and right for nothing? I honestly couldn't watch much of this because that guy at the beginning really enraged me.
Didn't you already see all the 'news sources' having to admit they got it wrong? Another video shows (what you see partly the in the vid you posted) the Native American dude walked a straight 20 yards right up into the faces of these high school kids, who are standing on those steps a long time before, beating his drum a literally two inches from the kid's face. The kid wasn't in the Native American's face, it was the exactly the opposite. How'd you like a stranger to walk up to you and keep beating his drum right in your face? Those kids didn't know what to do. Not much respect on anyone's part. The black dudes yelling on the soupbox are the Black Hebrew Israelites. But sure, just call them christians, they're all the same ::roll eyes::, we'll let god sort em out.

[Morningriser]

Nathan Phillips, the Native American's name, a Vietnam War veteran, was doing what he did as a sign that they were not backing down. They were trying to say that the natives were protecting the black radicals when all they were trying to do was prevent violence on all fronts. They weren't on any one side and they won't show the part of the video where the radicals were doing the exact same thing to them earlier so they can have a means to make the natives look bad in all of this. This is what media propaganda does, they deliberately turn people into the enemy so they can generate ratings, because life is not precious to them, drama and money is their God.

All the natives were trying to do was have a peaceful celebration and because of these extremists ruining it, they couldn't. And then when the teenagers, who wasn't even there for that demonstration, but just happened to be nearby, came over to actually support the natives and while there were some assholes being racist, for the most part they were dancing around and enjoying themselves. This whole thing has been blown out of and the media is telling everyone who they should support and who they should hate in all of this. The natives weren't trying to protect the religious fanatics over the teenagers. They were just trying to keep peace on both fronts. I mean yes they are showing this video of Nathan Phillips in the kids face. He was making eye contact with him the entire time and didn't touch him. How do we know there wasn't someone else with a drum in one of the black people's face trying to keep them back and give them a visual warning to stay back?

Like I said people are blowing this completely out of proportion and making everyone look a lot worse than they were. The kid that stood his ground, was practically doing the same thing Nathan Phillips was doing only he was being kind of a smart ass in doing so while his friends closest to him started doing the tomahawk chop and other racist gestures.

But it's like you said though sculpt, Karma will sort everything out as it's supposed to.

Actually one more thing I wanted to add, how convenient is it that now, after all of this uproar, they are showing the portions of the video that makes a natives look bad and the black people look bad? At first it was white people being made to look bad and now they're making them look like the only ones who weren't doing the wrong thing. How convenient...

[Bloof]

Oh I didn't mean you, I meant them and the God stuff they were on about.

Tomorrow is "Australia Day", our 26th of January anyway.
It's become the funniest thing to see online kerfuffle about...There's a movement to cancel it and start referring to it as "Invasion Day".
The best part is?
It's mainly a total white person thing.
It's like, if you're that cut up about it, sign over everything you own to the Aboriginal community and you'd best be on your way back to the UK?
Just make sure to let everyone know on social media ::roll eyes::

Excellent point.

[Sculpt]

Actually one more thing I wanted to add, how convenient is it that now, after all of this uproar, they are showing the portions of the video that makes a natives look bad and the black people look bad? At first it was white people being made to look bad and now they're making them look like the only ones who weren't doing the wrong thing. How convenient...
The part that bugs me is our culture is looking at them as groups, and this made up thing called 'races', instead of looking at each of these people as the individuals that they are. That's not good at all. Each of those folks has to own their own behavior. We shouldn't think of 'that group' doing this or that, as that just causes inner biases against groups, tribalism, and judging people based on their 'cover' rather than the content of their character, to quote Dr. MLK Jr.

At the very least, I would have hoped those HS kids showed more respect for their elder, Mr Phillips, gave him the benefit of the doubt and listened to him -- because he's their elder, not because he's 'native american', and see what his character is.

Tomorrow is "Australia Day", our 26th of January anyway.
It's become the funniest thing to see online kerfuffle about...There's a movement to cancel it and start referring to it as "Invasion Day".
The best part is?
It's mainly a total white person thing.
It's like, if you're that cut up about it, sign over everything you own to the Aboriginal community and you'd best be on your way back to the UK?
Just make sure to let everyone know on social media ::roll eyes::
I still really like the song "Beds Are Burning" by Midnight Oil. ::big grin::

Yeah, it's a tough thing. I know a little bit about Australia's history regarding the Aboriginals. I think it's good for the nation to do what the can, but leaving the country is a bit extreme. Peoples have moved around the globe, sometimes displacing, sometimes joining, the people who were already there. We don't have the records to 'go back to the 'real' original', but we can still acknowledge and debate history. Calling it Invasion Day doesn't seem particularly helpful, but I think people should be open to discussing solutions, reconciliation, and even recompense if appropriate and feasible.

[Morningriser]

But I don't understand what it is you think the Native Americans need to own up to. All they were trying to do was basically be a shield between the religious Fanatics and the kids. I realize the school kids were just being dumb kids and may not have even realized some of the things they were doing came off as racist as they were. I feel like the media is trying to completely turn everyone away from the fact that it was black religious extremists that instigated the entire thing. It is true that they have shown footage of them provoking the students, but they still refuse to show footage of them also provoking the Native Americans, because they want you to believe that the natives were defending the extremists, when they were defending both groups from each other. which is on purpose so that the natives and the black people will look just as bad now since they are putting white Trump supporters under fire and this is what they need to turn the attention away from them and onto the minorities. This whole fabrication of information is simply their way to turn it around and make the white people look correct and all of this. The whole thing about the kid in the Hat and the native was basically just a stand your ground thing where neither would back off from the other and perhaps Nathan Phillips did get a little carried away, but he wasn't violent, he didn't touch the guy, he didn't yell anything or say anything to him and he kept eye contact with him and even after the entire incident, he went on one of these morning shows to do an interview and said he is completely at peace with the situation and that he has been praying on the matter and that he has no hatred or animosity towards him or any of the students, but I do think since the kid, who was also interviewed, apologize for any racial Nu Windows he might have suggested, he did not apologize for standing his ground, and I feel like Nathan Phillips perhaps should have apologized for the way he reacted, but unfortunately he didn't take any responsibility for it, which I will say is kind of a douchebag thing to do. Like

I think all they were doing was trying to keep peace but everything just got completely thrown out of proportion. I don't feel like the natives or the high school students were really that damaging to one another nearly as much as the extremists were. The fact that they will not play the part of the video where the guy says their land was taken from them because they don't worship the correct God. I mean doesn't anybody find that alone to be far more threatening than anything that happened in that crowd? It all comes down to the media showing what they want so they can manipulate the viewers into believing one certain group of people were wrong while the other were right. This was all spearheaded by the media to begin with in the first place. They are the ones who are breaking apart the country. They are just as responsible for messing with the system as the government currently is and I'm afraid between the two things are going to get to the point where everyone says fuck it and picks up arms and begins using them.

Did anyone know that two children have both died from dehydration while under the custody of ice? Deliberate negligent is what led to their death but will anybody be held accountable for that? Probably not.

And even though the government shutdown just ended, it's coming back again in three weeks so that means more homeless people. Why doesn't anyone seem to care? Donald Trump's excuse for opening the government back up today was because of all the airports not running correctly to hide the fact that he knows his time is nearly up. This morning was also the arrest of one of his top guys, Rodger Stone. In order to distract everyone from that, which is only making him look worse and worse, he ended the shutdown. He is scared. He knows he will never get this racist Monument, not a wall, which he seems to think is going to be built out of invisible steel, his words not mine, and now he's going to do whatever he can to delay the process of him finally having to answer for all of his crimes of treason and with any luck he'll be put to death, if anything for what happened to those two children. If anyone can honestly say he doesn't deserve any less, then I think you should be considered hostile and dangerous and a threat to society just like him and the rest of his supporters. He is no longer a president, he is a dictator, a power-hungry dictator. Any leader with his kind of authority and power who puts his own selfish and personal wants before the safety and well-being of the a nation and the people he took an oath and swore to protect, that should speak volume.

[Morningriser]

Let's just change the subject guys. I'm sorry for bringing it up to begin with. I've been under a lot of stress the last couple of days and I actually completely deleted my Facebook account this morning because a lot of the stress has to do with logging on only to see people lashing out in such violent hate speech towards one another over issues just like this and I refuse to allow it to hurt me anymore and I refuse to contribute to a self-destructing genocidal zeitgeist. I am far too empathic for my own good.

I made my third and final attempt this morning to make some sort of peace or get closure with my grandfather and he yelled at the whole time and would speak over me when I was trying to ask him why he didn't tell me about my grandmother dying but told the other grandkids and his response was, "that's bullshit". He is my grandfather and rather than even trying to explain to me why he thinks I'm wrong or to put my mind at ease, which has been a fucking racehorse for the last few years, which him and the rest of the family know I have been extremely depressed and even suicidal at one time, but he doesn't even care. He really wasn't counting on me ever bringing that up I am sure but the mushrooms brought out all these repressed memories and feelings that I locked away because I couldn't deal with them at the time in knowing my grandfather was this perfect person I thought he was and since he refuses to even try to see things from my point of view and just wants the conversation over and done with, that to me proves that he knows I'm right. He told me this morning he doesn't want to talk to me ever again and that's fine. After my grandmother died the whole family showed their true colors and not one of them can even tell me what their problem is. I feel ashamed to come from a family of such pussies.

[Sculpt]

But I don't understand what it is you think the Native Americans need to own up to. All they were trying to do was basically be a shield between the religious Fanatics and the kids. ...

... I feel like Nathan Phillips perhaps should have apologized for the way he reacted, but unfortunately he didn't take any responsibility for it, which I will say is kind of a douchebag thing to do.
You've answered your own question. ::wink:: Really though, I didn't say Mr Phillips has to answer for anything, I just pointed out what he did. Let me just add, ask yourself, why was Phillips and his group there with drums at the monument? They were there to be seen and messages heard (same as BHI group). They got that beyond their wildest imagination. And that's fine; I fully support our Constitutional rights/principals of freedom of speech, assembly and petition/protest.

Like I think all they were doing was trying to keep peace but everything just got completely thrown out of proportion. I don't feel like the natives or the high school students were really that damaging to one another nearly as much as the extremists were. The fact that they will not play the part of the video where the guy says their land was taken from them because they don't worship the correct God. I mean doesn't anybody find that alone to be far more threatening than anything that happened in that crowd?
Nope, not really, you should have expected this (vid below). This media incident highlights not jumping to conclusions.

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And so what? Let everybody there speak their opinions and converse if they want. It's not 'threatening' as in physical violence, it's mentally confrontational... people have ideas, grievances, needs, etc, no need to get pissed off about it... we're not even there, they handled it themselves.

It all comes down to the media showing what they want so they can manipulate the viewers into believing one certain group of people were wrong while the other were right. This was all spearheaded by the media to begin with in the first place. They are the ones who are breaking apart the country. They are just as responsible for messing with the system as the government
Primarily media does this for money: viewership brings advertising dollars. At some point the individual interests of the individual media owners comes into play; and people can debate what those are. But I don't think anyone 'in the media' pre-planned this, it's possible, but I doubt it. Almost everyone with a cell phone is minorly 'in the media' now.

I'd just say people need to embrace listening, discussion, debate, respect for fellow human beings and finding common ground.

[Sculpt]

Let's just change the subject guys. I'm sorry for bringing it up to begin with. I've been under a lot of stress the last couple of days and I actually completely deleted my Facebook account this morning because a lot of the stress has to do with logging on only to see people lashing out in such violent hate speech towards one another over issues just like this and I refuse to allow it to hurt me anymore and I refuse to contribute to a self-destructing genocidal zeitgeist. I am far too empathic for my own good.

I made my third and final attempt this morning to make some sort of peace or get closure with my grandfather and he yelled at the whole time and would speak over me when I was trying to ask him why he didn't tell me about my grandmother dying but told the other grandkids and his response was, "that's bullshit". He is my grandfather and rather than even trying to explain to me why he thinks I'm wrong or to put my mind at ease, which has been a fucking racehorse for the last few years, which him and the rest of the family know I have been extremely depressed and even suicidal at one time, but he doesn't even care. He really wasn't counting on me ever bringing that up I am sure but the mushrooms brought out all these repressed memories and feelings that I locked away because I couldn't deal with them at the time in knowing my grandfather was this perfect person I thought he was and since he refuses to even try to see things from my point of view and just wants the conversation over and done with, that to me proves that he knows I'm right. He told me this morning he doesn't want to talk to me ever again and that's fine. After my grandmother died the whole family showed their true colors and not one of them can even tell me what their problem is. I feel ashamed to come from a family of such pussies.
Sorry to hear that about your grandfather, Morn. People get pissed and say things in the heat of emotion. Still, getting away from non-beneficial negativity and bickering can be good, such as Facebook or family bickering.

[Morningriser]

I never said that you said Nathan Phillips needed to take responsibility. I was pointing out that you said all three GROUPS need to take responsibility. The Native Americans did absolutely nothing wrong. The reason they were there, in full ceremonial clothing, playing drums, chanting and dancing was because it was a Native American peace rally. It was a gathering where the natives could come together and celebrate. It just happened to be in the nation's capital. They weren't there to spread any kind of awareness or their beliefs or to heckle and harass people, unlike the extremists who were only there to protest the Native Americans and basically persecuting them for their beliefs and belittling them because they didn't believe as they do. It sounds to me like you are trying to make all parties seem equally responsible when that is not the case at all! I'm not sure how familiar you are with Native American culture but when they gather like that, it's ceremonial.

If you would take the time to watch the video or at least skim through it, you could see things plain as day for yourself rather than taking what the media tells you as Church. The media realizes they fucked up when they put all the blame on the white people, who I have since came to the conclusion they did nothing wrong either other than just acted like teenagers, so they had to introduce this group of black radicals, whom despite all the terrible religious hate speech they were throwing at the natives at the very beginning of the video, were never even mentioned until it came time to take the blame away from the white people and put it on the minorities, but they knew putting sole blame on black people, whether if they were the only people at fault or not, would just cause a major backlash, so they only showed certain parts of the video to manipulate the people into believing what the media wanted them to and they did so in a way to make the Native Americans look just as bad as the extremists. The media played it off by saying they had new footage where they then show the extremists threatening the white kids and then they show the natives protecting the extremists. There is also footage where they were protecting the kids and when they were dancing and beating their drums and chanting, they were standing between the two groups. when it was a 2 hour long video. They had the footage the entire time, but saying we found new footage, is a blatant lie and their way of not having to admit they withheld this from you before to make one specific group of people look bad but since they are white and probably Trump supporters, blame these guys and while we're at it let's blame the natives as well so we can make the white people look even better,.They never showed the extremists persecuting the hell out of the natives at the very beginning of the video by telling them their land was taken from them because they don't believe in the Christian God. I consider that to be even worse than the very first initial clip of the kids and the natives or at the very least, important enough to show in their initial news reports, but rather than doing that and making the Native Americans look like the peacekeepers, which they were, which was why they were standing between the two groups, and Nathan Phillips did what he did, to keep the two groups separated. Then a day or two later they had Nathan Phillips on Good Morning America or one of those morning shows via satellite and was talking to him and they were only asking him about the students and never even mention the extremists. I wonder why... if people can seriously believe any of the media's bullshit, I genuinely pity them. There's no "all three are to blame" bullshit, responsibility needs to be taken instead of just trying to make all look equally responsible. That's what's wrong with this country, we are all a bunch of fat puffy pink pussies afraid to stand up for any Goddamn thing we believe in or to think for ourselves because being lazy and getting spoon-fed poison.

I'm so sick and tired of everyone believing everything the media tells them without doing their own research and developing their own opinions when all they are trying to do is keep the hate, violence, prejudice and all the other filth of the world swirling so they can have jobs. I feel like I have made my point and there is really nothing else to say. If you want to believe that all three groups were equally to blame, be my guest but unless you watch the video and made your own opinions, they are flawed because it sounds to me like you are strictly going by what the media is telling you that you should go by.

Now since considering yesterday after I made that post, you were on the message board several times and never felt the need to chime in then, but once I realize all I was doing was lighting a powder keg, I said let's change the subject, and I did. It's pretty convenient that you come and start this back up after I say that, isn't it? And before you say you just now saw it, I saw you viewing This Thread yesterday a few times after I made my post. If you want to keep on talking about it that's fine, but I'm done with it.

[Morningriser]

Now... Could somebody recommend a good free proxy program for me to download so I can use Popcorn Time safely?

[Sculpt]

Now since considering yesterday after I made that post, you were on the message board several times and never felt the need to chime in then, but once I realize all I was doing was lighting a powder keg, I said let's change the subject, and I did. It's pretty convenient that you come and start this back up after I say that, isn't it? And before you say you just now saw it, I saw you viewing This Thread yesterday a few times after I made my post. If you want to keep on talking about it that's fine, but I'm done with it.
I was only talking about it cause I wanted to conversate with you about it. It was interesting, but I'm spent on it too. Plus, look at the times of our posts: you posted 'let's change the subject' today at 11:27am, and my post today at 11:33am. If you think I could read, find/link that vid and write all that in less than 5 mins, than you give me too much credit. Na, I saw your post after I posted mine. But like you said, it doesn't deserve anymore of our attention.

Now... Could somebody recommend a good free proxy program for me to download so I can use Popcorn Time safely?
Sorry, can't hep ya there.

[Morningriser]

You're right man, I'm sorry. I was thinking I posted the thing about changing the subject last night. I just wanted to prove to you that not all groups were to blame, just the extremists to provoke everything. The media wants World War 3 or a Civil War at the very least. This is a sick sad time in reality to live. I did however post the video yesterday and you said you were going to watch it so I guess I assumed you did, but given what I had already said, I don't understand why you would say what you did thinking you knew the facts when you didn't. I'm not trying to be a dick or anything, but it's stuff like this why everyone believes the media, because they think because they say it's true when all you have to do is a little digging of your own to find out just what kind of monsters and internal terrorists they really are. Now since we are both in agreeance, let's just drop it.

[Morningriser]

I really like this and it's not because it's Rick and Morty related, but it is a very good think piece about people who are highly intelligent but otherwise have very lonely and miserable lives versus people who are oblivious to higher intelligence but they live life happy, a lot happier than someone who is a deep thinker. If you have a moment watch this because I would love to hear some opinions.

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I think the whole idea of who we are meant to be has to do with very early childhood development. Those are the years we learn the most and develop the biggest part of our personality. Those who grow up privileged being handed everything they want or having close family and a support system generally grow up a lot happier than the people who are surrounded by violence and neglect and a dark negative upbringing. It takes tragedy to make people think in new ways which allows them to evolve intellectually. The privileged people who don't have much to worry about never have a need to use these emotions or certain survival skills for a lack of a better term and they grow up to be more like Jerry while the people who have always had to stay ahead of the curb for whatever reason, exercise their brain much more thus unlocking more potential and discovering more about yourself which allows you to become more like Rick.

[Morningriser]

So I had previously spoken with someone on Facebook who lives here in Las Vegas about a retreat in Peru that does Ayahuasca ceremonies with shamans. I've read a lot about people going there and staying for a week or two and coming back a completely different person. I am very curious about this and very interested. I had made a new Facebook account since my other one was suspended for getting reported for arguing with someone, I shouldn't have I know, and I met this guy on that specific account and now I can't remember his name but I did find a website for a group here in Las Vegas that is involved with the Peruvian shamans. Apparently to go down there for a week, I'm assuming this includes travel, is $1,250. It would take me a while to save that up but it would be a goal I can save for and it will give me an excuse to finally get a passport as I have been wanting to start trying to put money back and travel little by little when I can. I can't help but feel like this would be a life-changing and much-needed experience for me.

[cheebacheeba]

AhaaHaa watch it

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[Morningriser]

AhaaHaa watch it

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3:19 Face ::big grin::


Shit like this genuinely and truly disgusts me to the Core. In my opinion (because I know the difference between opinions and facts unlike useless fucks like this tranny), this "person" is no different than those fucking black extremists assholes that instigated all that shit at the Washington Monument. In my opinion they have absolutely no fucking place in society and if Donald Trump honestly wants to eradicate this country of problems, why not eradicate this country of problematic and potentially dangerous people who feel the self-entitlement to take it upon themselves to lash out in such belligerence at people? There's going to be a time when people start fighting back because they can't take people getting in their faces and screaming at them and imposing their own will and opinions on them anymore and it's all going to be because people feel the need to exploit shit like this or refuse to step in and do anything. That guy was sitting there filming this while that person was yelling and screaming and trying to hit the guy. He was also laughing about it. It's nice to know people let shit like this happen and exploit it in order to get popularity on YouTube. This country fucking sucks and this world fucking sucks. Nobody gives a shit anymore about hate raping everyone with their ideas and morals and if you don't agree with them the slightest you might as well die the most painful way imaginable because it's not going to affect the instigators in the least bit and their sadistic sexual desires long for the Everlasting and most extreme suffering possible.

It's time people stop smiling and turning the other cheek and start making examples out of people like this. I'm not a fan of violence but nobody is going to stop until they realize that no one is going to ignore anymore. I'm tired of everyone throwing around the word stereotype or they just aren't all there in the head. Obviously they aren't all there in the head so we are just going to let them wander around and do what they want to people and pretend like it's okay like they are mentally handicapped children and we are supposed to bend over backwards to every fucking thing they do? No... these people need to learn some goddamn respect and how it feels to be ridiculed and put on the spot and have people screaming in their faces just because they don't like something they are doing whether if it's affecting them or not. This summer when I'm out and about more I dare anybody to get in my face like that. I don't care what color they are, if they act like they are whacked out on some kind of drug or mentally handicapped or what they claim to have in their backpack. I have my fists and I have the strong will to shut somebody up even if it means making them choke to death on their own teeth.

[Morningriser]

I feel so hurt and angry today. I talked to my grandfather last night and he went from telling me he was never going to apologize to me for anything and then last night told me he was sorry if I felt like he did anything wrong which he knows he did but yet his pride won't allow him to give me closure because that's far more important to him then actually even admitting he knows what I'm talking about. Next week I'm going to trip again and take my feelings there and see if I can put it behind me once and for all.

[cheebacheeba]

I have kind of scanned over a lot of your family related posts...and while some would have a conflicting way to go about handling this, let me say as a person who has walked away from two of his (not just any) immediate family - I've never felt so unburdened, happy, better about myself and had so little stress since doing so.

The fucked up thing is you sometimes don't even realise HOW bad it is while experiencing it, frog in hot water etc.
There are people that say things to family that they never should.
There are fucking reptiles in this world that have no respect or regard for their own no matter what you've been through or how much you've given them of your love, your effort, your soul.
Sometimes there is no solution but to walk the other way...you never know man...people who let themselves go past a point with this might not ever come back, one way or another.

Someone told me that it's actually ok, and a person ought to consider removal of toxins as a good thing, no matter what hurdles, adjustments and emotional turmoil you have to go through to do it. Whoever those toxins may be.
I don't know what their family background was to have arrived at that place, or even if it was based on their own personal experience...but they spoke the truth.



I'll be clear on this, while you might get that I'm more than a little biased. I think it's perfectly ok to say "fuck family".
Just don't come to the decision lightly, and stay true to whatever it is.
Person can only do so much before whatever damage being done sticks.
People value you, or they don't. Act accordingly. It's for your own good.

[Morningriser]

Thank you for that Cheeba, I really appreciate it. I feel like so many people can't even begin to understand what I'm going through because either they can't relate or don't realize there are people in this world that are so sensitive that it is nearly impossible to let go of certain things on their own and it has so many people looking at me like I'm feeling sorry for myself and maybe I am. That was always my grandfather's go to no matter what the situation whether if that's saying with applied or not because he never allowed himself, or wanted to think any further than that because that's the extent of what my problems meant to him.

I know people are stubborn and set in their ways and people like my Grandpa would rather take his pride to his grave knowing it is intact and he doesn't have to admit to what he really is, a reptile, like you said. It's funny, because that was the exact word I was thinking about him and these other people who have always operated under the radar because they knew I was unable to see what they were doing through years of careful manipulation and using the fact that they were family and I never thought someone like him could do something like that to me but just like with Angela, my ex, everything just punched me right in the head all at once. I was able to see everything he has done to me over the years when my grandmother was alive and after she died. Everything before she died was just smoke and mirrors. I don't know if him and the rest of the family were jealous because my grandmother and I had a special bond, or so I thought, that she didn't have with anyone else, including her own husband, or just the fact that they never could stand that my mother married a cokehead rapist and I was the result of that. They always needed their Whipping Boy and before my mother died it was her. Everyone knew she was an alcoholic and she was just like me, or I was just like her, had little to no tolerance for people that are being assholes to our faces and neither of us have much of a filter. So they, my family, would be at my grandmother's house every year on Christmas Eve with my aunt bragging about buying her underage step kids alcohol and getting them drunk only to have my grandparents laugh about but then would get so enraged at my mother for showing up drunk, never mind the fact that my father completely destroyed her before he died, but that doesn't matter when the public image of the family is at stake. Anytime I would get ready to defend her or myself or come back at something they say, my grandmother would shake her head no at me to silence me while letting the rest of the family say whatever they wanted. And the fact that my grandmother told me I was a disgrace to the family for laying on a damn bed of nails at a family arcade where a two-year-old could do it if they wanted to really hurt me. Maybe none of them where ever genuine, I don't know, but I also realize just because they are family it doesn't mean they have to be good people or that they are good people. I just find it quite sad that they couldn't do any of this one my grandmother or my mother was still alive because of how cowardly they really are. I mean half of my family wants me dead or to just disappear and the other half of the family hates me for not coming to my grandmother's funeral which was deliberately spearheaded by my grandfather who purposely avoided telling me about it hoping I wouldn't come and he got what he wanted so my mother, who was gone in the head at this point anyway from all the alcohol rotting her brain, along with her crazy ass redneck husband, threatened to kill me if they ever saw me again. It's like they deliberately set me up to sabotage me and my grandfather's excuse was he had enough on his mind and I know that part is true, but someone told my cousins who lived out of state and they were there and so was the rest of the family and when I pointed that out to him he quickly changed his excuse to maybe no one could get in touch with me even though my aunt called my phone the same day my grandmother died before she died to tell me that she said she forgave me for a fight we had. My grandpa knew my number too and despite calling me within an hour after my mother died to tell me and couldn't let me know in a 48-hour period, tells me everything I need to know. I mean you can polish a turd but it's still a turd.

I absolutely hate the fact that I can't let things go as easily as some do. I still have quite a bit of prejudice for one person here in particular for deliberately taking part in causing me to get cheated on simply because sadism and narcissism is the only way some people can cum. There are a lot of sick and miserable fucks in this world and I hate that about myself that things stick to me the way they do, I mean I know that's a totally different situation altogether and it would have probably happened regardless, but still, it's shit like that people have to deliberately keep fucking with my life for no reason at all when all I want is people to be genuine or at least leave me the fuck alone.

I know I'm highly sensitive, way more sensitive than the average person. I'm working on changing that and 37 years of damage is hard to undo and takes time but considering I have only been in Las Vegas 8 months, weight has been lifted off of my shoulders, I'm able to think more clearly because I'm able to solely be independent and not have my grandfather hovering over me and criticizing me for everything I do that he doesn't approve of. The Psychedelic medicine is helping a lot as well and my next trip I'm going to take this with me and see if I can put it to rest once and for all. I know I am very unique with my emotions and that's why I know I have some kind of purpose despite my belief that we do not have predetermined Destiny's. I still feel there is something inside me trying to get out and whatever it is we'll do something that will make my mark whether it be on a long-term or just helping people understand or see things more clearly because so many people in this world are blinded by denial like I was and probably still am.

I need to shed this part of my ego that always needs to have approval or someone there who cares about me because I have this fucked-up delusion of what life is supposed to be because that's what people like my grandparents told me when I was younger only to apparently be deliberately feeding me lies. When I was younger I guess there was a part of me that wanted people to pity me and look at me and see all the things that happened to me and show me a Little Bit of Sympathy because between the abuse at home, physical or mental and then the abuse at school, physically, mentally and socially, I just wanted somebody to stop and say that they care and they will listen but I never had that until I got with Angela who used that to her advantage and completely fucked my head up. I almost feel like there is some kind of angry Drive in me trying to get out because I get so angry and so worked up over shit. Hell, the post above yours Cheeba was originally this long-drawn-out rant even going as far as ripping apart the person mentioned above but I didn't want to get in trouble and I didn't want to bring that kind of negative attention so I altered it to a much shorter and condensed version of what I was saying before with personal insults left out.

This whole thing has got me all fucked up right now. Luckily I'm not taking it the way I did when my ex cheated on me when I actually tried to kill myself and the fact that 50 Seroquel wouldn't do me in tells me that I do have more of a purpose and whatever force it is that lies Beyond, God, isn't finished with me so I have taken this second chance at life to start turning it around and as I said before, I have over three decades of damage to undo and it will probably take decades to undo it, let's hope not though, but I just need to figure out how to let things go so they don't eat at me and tear me apart like they have been doing my entire life.

[Morningriser]

He finally admitted it to me. My grandpa told me he didn't tell me because he didn't think I gave a damn about her which if I was in front of him and he said that shit I would be tempted to take a swing because we talked almost every day and despite her faults and mine, she and I were closer with each other than we were with anyone else in the family and now that I know that's why he didn't tell me about her until he knew I wouldn't be able to get there is because he didn't think I cared about her or at least that's his excuse. He then said that now since I have had my Revelation I'm trying to blame everyone but myself when I don't even understand how that statement applies. Of course I blame everyone in the family for not telling me about my grandmother. I realize now that my grandfather is just a fake and a coward.

And on the morning of the day my grandmother died, my aunt called me to tell me that my grandmother loved me and forgave me for an apology I made over a argument we had and apparently when my aunt called me and my grandmother had already died but she purposely didn't tell me. Don't you just love how shity people are to each other?

[Morningriser]

I think I can start getting closure now as I realized it wasn't the apology I was looking for, it was the confession and I finally got it. Time to start moving forward!

[cheebacheeba]

watch it 1IKsEL-UjOc

[Morningriser]

I love this guy. "Oh boy! Here I go killing again."

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[Morningriser]

Has anyone heard anything from DBT lately? I know he never was around all that much to begin with but he seems to be unusually absent a little longer than normal.

[Bloof]

Has anyone heard anything from DBT lately? I know he never was around all that much to begin with but he seems to be unusually absent a little longer than normal.

I noticed that also.

[cheebacheeba]

Maybe they're dead?

"PARTY AT ANTON'S!"

[Morningriser]

I was starting to think you were dead Cheebs

These mushrooms are great!

[cheebacheeba]

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[cheebacheeba]

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[Morningriser]

The past thirty-six hours have been batshit crazy for me.

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Wednesday I got my azurescens and needless to say I fucked up and ate way too many. I didn't get the full on color experience or had a breakthrough but I did have quite an ego shattering mind trip. I again Revisited all my thoughts and memories of what my family has done to me and have realized that I am a victim of circumstance. My mom's family hated my dad and my dad's family hated my mom and my mom's family looked at me as my dad's son and my dad's family saw me as my mother's son. I realized my grandfather probably wasn't deliberately being a bad person to me, I mean my aunt called me after my grandmother had died to tell me that she loved me and forgave me but did not tell me she had just died. My grandfather admitted this to me last week and it devastated me to know that they would deliberately not tell me even after calling me anyway.

I burst into tears thinking about all of this and began feeling terrible for the way I approached my grandfather about this and the personal attacks on him and the rest of the family. I called this morning and left a message on his answering machine because he doesn't answer it for me anymore but I told him that I realize I'm just a victim of circumstance and he always made me feel like the others were above me. My grandmother loved me. I was always her favorite because we did everything together and when I wasn't around I called her everyday to talk to her. I don't know if this made everyone else jealous or what but the point is I told him that life is too short to hold grudges and that I love him and despite the way I feel I still want him in my life and I invited him to call me.

So back to Wednesday night, after I had my moment, I began getting a little frustrated that I wasn't having any other kind of trip so me being the dumbass that I am, I decided to make tea out of the rest of the ounce. I took a few drinks of the tea and I figured that would get me where I wanted to go so I went and laid down on my bed with the lights and TV off waiting for the trip to start. Again, nothing. At this point I was annoyed and decided to go to bed and just try again Thursday morning. It was then I got up to go use the bathroom and when I came back and lay down my entire body started going numb. Before I could really stop and think about why this was happening my entire body was in paralysis. I began getting scared and my breathing became more of a short gaspq and while I couldn't move I was still trying with all of my might to get to my phone just in case I couldn't snap out of it and had to call 911 but it was no use. I actually laid there and made peace with dying because I thought that's what was about to happen.

The breathing problem continued for about 2 or 3 minutes before I finally started being able to get deeper breaths. A few minutes later I was able to start wiggling my toes and fingers and eventually able to start moving my legs and arms. It was then I fell asleep and when I woke up yesterday morning, still shaken by the incident the night before, I made the second stupid mistake of taking a few more drinks of the tea. I immediately started feeling weird in a bad way and knew I fucked up and was about to have a bad trip so I laid down again with my eyes shut and just took it. I took in all of the guilt from the way I have talked to my grandfather and family. I know they deserved it but the way I blew up on them with the words I used made me feel extremely guilty and it haunted me 4 hours until I was finally able to fall asleep again. I slept off and on all day yesterday and last night. I still feel a little weak and shaky today but this evening when I can regain my composure I'm going to freeze the mushrooms I have left since they are wet and we'll go bad in a few days if I don't do something with them. I talked to the guy who I got them from and he was telling me I took too much and that I should freeze them and only eat 1 cap at a time because of how strong they are and I think I'm going to do that. I'm a stupid fucking idiot huh? ::big grin::

[Morningriser]

I threw the rest of the mushrooms away and I'm done with them. All they are doing now is making my mouth numb and after the incident the other night, I learned that they literally can kill you if you ingest too many of them. I mean I ingested a quarter at the most which is a lot but definitely should not make your entire body go paralyzed and have you barely be able to take a breath to the point where you lay there and make peace with dying.

I'm done with this shit and I need to start saving my money up and working more on me. When it warms up this summer I went to go out and start mingling more like I did last summer and try to work on meeting people or even see how my pick up skills fair. I mean I realize I'm not a club person but Fremont Street, which is fun, isn't that far from me and there's a bar about 2 mi from me on my street that Anthony Bourdain used to go to that I really want to check out. I'll save the clubs for when I have a date that likes to dance.

I'm realizing just how out-of-whack my priorities have always been and since I have gotten away from everyone I knew I don't have to worry about offending anyone or seeking their approval and I have came so far and not even a year and I am so proud of myself and when I get back into school, if I get back in I should say, I'm going to take full advantage of it and push myself hard this time. The last time I had to rely on my ex getting me to and from school so I flunked out but this time it's all on me.

Life moves slow but right now that's exactly how I need it to move.

[NightOfTheLiving_Sam]

I'm so glad that I'm surviving the winter. For Florida it's been pretty cold here and I got the flu/cold for about 2 weeks straight. It was awful, but I'm glad I was able to get through it. I just hate the side effects to the medication that I was given. So glad I'm off of them now and don't have to deal with it any longer. Since than I've been focusing my time on creative writing and art again. I'm thinking about doing a new art piece soon, just nothing is coming to me yet. Sure something will come though. ::cool::

[Bloof]

I'm so glad that I'm surviving the winter. For Florida it's been pretty cold here and I got the flu/cold for about 2 weeks straight. It was awful, but I'm glad I was able to get through it. I just hate the side effects to the medication that I was given. So glad I'm off of them now and don't have to deal with it any longer. Since than I've been focusing my time on creative writing and art again. I'm thinking about doing a new art piece soon, just nothing is coming to me yet. Sure something will come though. ::cool::

Hey, Night!

[cheebacheeba]

FIIIIIIGHT.

I'm sorry. I'm an idiot.

[Sculpt]

I'm so glad that I'm surviving the winter. For Florida it's been pretty cold here and I got the flu/cold for about 2 weeks straight. It was awful, but I'm glad I was able to get through it. I just hate the side effects to the medication that I was given. So glad I'm off of them now and don't have to deal with it any longer. Since than I've been focusing my time on creative writing and art again. I'm thinking about doing a new art piece soon, just nothing is coming to me yet. Sure something will come though. ::cool::
Glad you're feeling better, Night! What sort of writing and art are ya likely to do these days? Look forward to seeing it!

[Elvis_Christ]

::cool::::cool::This place is so much better with Morningriser on ignore ::cool::::cool::

[Morningriser]

::cool::::cool::This place is so much better with Morningriser on ignore ::cool::::cool::

Your straightforwardness makes me so moist.

Tell me more senpai!

[cheebacheeba]

Mushrooms on toast.
This was nice.
Wrong thread...or is it?
As I was eating, the thought "I should eat this more" occurred.

[Morningriser]

If I had the right mushrooms I would eat them often also. I found out what happened with my previous trip. I am on antidepressants & a mood stabilizer and I found out that the particular mushroom, like many other psychedelics, lowers your serotonin and the psychological medicines do as well and that interacts with one another which makes it much harder to have a trip. With that said, these particular mushrooms can be deadly if you eat too many of them as it puts your body in paralysis and can prevent you from even breathing, which it nearly did to me and it could have killed me. I wasn't having the trip I wanted so I ate too many of them and it show me exactly what it feels like to be completely paralyzed and it is scary as fuck! I mean I was already fucked up to death so I was more calm than I normally would be and the fact that I laid there accepting that I was going to die makes me wonder how I would feel when I actually am about to die.

[cheebacheeba]

You need that ego death.
...I was just talking about standard button mushrooms on toast though.

[Morningriser]

I have had a breakthrough but not a full-on ego death breakthrough, I don't think I will be able to have one well on my medicine. Since my original mushroom trip last month, I feel like I've pay much better attention than I did before hand.

[anglewitch]

I did some research on the Masonic Lodge I was made at. It's one of the oldest in NC or in U.S. it's been around since the American revolution. :D

FIIIIIIGHT.

I'm sorry. I'm an idiot.


BWAHAHAHAHA!!!

[Morningriser]

We all just need to
off our pants and our panties and shit on the floor because it's time to get schwifty in here!

n4Xp6g-_UUw

[Morningriser]

Does anyone else have these weird unsettling feeling, something between depressed and empty? I don't know if it's the Solstice fucking with me or what but it's just one of those evenings.

[The Villain]

Does anyone else have these weird unsettling feeling, something between depressed and empty? I don't know if it's the Solstice fucking with me or what but it's just one of those evenings.

I get that sometimes too. Goes along with my depression and anxiety. Sometimes I'll feel like that, other times just numb. It sucks

[Morningriser]

Mining might have to do was running out of weed last night. Sometimes when I run out I feel a little shity for a day or two afterwards but I as well suffer from depression and anxiety. I'm bipolar and have PTSD and all that other lovely junk that makes us the Beautifully Broken Souls we are. I'm just glad I didn't drink because sometimes when I drink and I feel like this I go off the rails. Hell, half the time my brain is just one big klusterfuk of racing thoughts and curb stomping emotions.

[The Villain]

Mining might have to do was running out of weed last night. Sometimes when I run out I feel a little shity for a day or two afterwards but I as well suffer from depression and anxiety. I'm bipolar and have PTSD and all that other lovely junk that makes us the Beautifully Broken Souls we are. I'm just glad I didn't drink because sometimes when I drink and I feel like this I go off the rails. Hell, half the time my brain is just one big klusterfuk of racing thoughts and curb stomping emotions.

Yeah smoking weed is much better for depression and all that then drinking, mellows you out. Haven't done that in awhile. Might have to soon. Keep your head up

[Morningriser]

Yeah I don't drink very often at all anymore. In my younger years I drank like practically everyone else my age but over time it just started making me feel worse and then a few years ago when my ex and I broke up I went on this two-week drinking binge we're from the moment I woke up to the moment I went to bed I was drinking and then when I finally quit I thought for sure I was going to die from the DTs.

Alcohol is also the biggest part of what killed my mother as well so it's also for that reason I try to avoid it but sometimes I do feel like having a drink and if I'm in a good mood I am a happy drunk but if I get depressed I turn into an emotional asshole.

[Morningriser]

I don't know if anyone has ever seen the documentary modify or not, but this guy had his little piece in it and I ran across this video completely forgetting about him. Give this guy a Darwin Award! Not only does he have no clue what he's talking about, he completely contradicts himself.

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[Morningriser]

I just found out I won two tickets to go see this really good Tool cover band Friday at the House of Blues!

[anglewitch]

Endo started a Horror forum too it looks like.

[Bloof]

Endo started a Horror forum too it looks like.

Who is endo?

[anglewitch]

http://www.horror.com/forum/member.php?u=28914

[Bloof]

Oh. Ok

[cheebacheeba]

Bell-endo

[Morningriser]

I often wonder where the world went wrong. I know the internet has a lot to do with destroying social standings, self-image, families and even lives. A lot of people who are evil don't even realize they are evil. They see what they do as just and fair. There are some people who are well aware of what they are doing though, manipulators and narcissists for example. The men who fall under this category think they are God's gift to women and mostly just use women for sex and these sort of people gain their confidence and self-esteem from shaming others. I have witnessed this firsthand being on the end of humiliatiion, ridicule and jokes several times by several people so they could stroke their ego in front of others.

As far as the narcissistic and manipulative women go, a lot of them use sex as a weapon so to speak to manipulate and as I have also discovered firsthand, once they reach that level in a relationship when they can wrap you around your finger, the intimacy stops because they have exactly what they need from you and have no reason to show any more affection than what they have to do to maintain that false connection.

At what point did the human race at large becomes so accepting of this Behavior? When did the less wealthy, the less fortunate, and practically anyone who isn't being groomed to become a success in life? I mean now you have all these equal rights groups coming out of the woodwork realizing that they finally have a voice when they decide to argue about how offended they are when someone perceives them as male or female and greets them as such. Why is this so damn important that people have to make such a big deal about it that it is becoming as overwhelming of an issue as it is?

I realize the media might as well be a religion or at least a philosophy at this point as they set what is socially acceptable, cool, uncool and what should be considered creeps and successful people. The feeble-minded, I say feeble because it's honestly true, let others determine what kind of person they are and I realize in this day and age there are four more people in this world who are just ignorant to what's really going on around them. School shootings and other mass shootings are at an all-time high in the United States. Suicide is at an all-time high in the United States. Child sex slave trafficking is it at an all-time high in the United States. Anyone who doesn't come from wealth, have a certain look or presents to them is considered inferior and denied certain advancements in life that in the authority figures' minds, should go to this certain class of Citizen because in reality the government is quietly trying to wipe out the lower class. Exhibit a is Donald Trump's wall. This wall is a symbol that he wants illegal immigrants from the south to stay out of our country even though we know the wall will not stop anyting. They want this because the immigrants are taking our jobs from us. So we get rid of illegal immigrants and all the jobs go back to the Americans and then what? The homeless are still ignored, people struggling in high school get ignored by teachers who are more concerned about making sure the student-athletes pass their classes so they can play in Friday night's big game. This prevents a lot of people with learning disabilities or just who aren't quite as sharp as others from making good grades and being able to get into good schools while the athletes who get into colleges based on false pretenses through the grades they are unfairly given in high school usually fluck out because their popularity in relevance no longer matters and while you have brilliant and creative minds who would do really well at certain jobs, they can't because they can't get into decent colleges all because their High School wants to win football games. This ruins a lot of people internally as it leaves them feeling as if they aren't good enough which then often leads to depression and even sometimes goes as far as suicide. No Child Left Behind policy is a joke and a lie to mask people from the truth. The truth is just like Adolf Hitler wanted to create the perfect race of people, the government wants to create the perfect class of people.

So why is it that myself, one of these people who were ignored in school and denied getting to go to a good school, able to see this but yet others cannot? And those who can for the most part choose to do absolutely nothing about it other than just use and hurt people rather than spreading awareness and making just an ounce of effort to make the world a better place? Sometimes I truly feel humiliated and ashamed of being a human being.

[Angra]

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[cheebacheeba]

The truth is just like Adolf Hitler wanted to create the perfect race of people, the government wants to create the perfect class of people.

Dude. He just wanted everyone to have cool robot bodies.


This one actually is, or was, a totally random thought - I do not know what train of thought I was on to arrive here...but today, I realised in my 38 years of life on this Earth, not once have I ever seen a black bathroom.

[hammerfan]

Dude. He just wanted everyone to have cool robot bodies.


This one actually is, or was, a totally random thought - I do not know what train of thought I was on to arrive here...but today, I realised in my 38 years of life on this Earth, not once have I ever seen a black bathroom.

Go on Facebook, and, if you're friends with Rayne, look at the pictures of their house after they re-did it.

[Morningriser]

Dude. He just wanted everyone to have cool robot bodies.

He wanted this perfect race of blond-haired blue-eyed Aryans, despite him being none of the above, in fact, Hitler was Jewish. My point is, the government is quietly trying to weed out all the poor and disabled people. It doesn't take much looking into it to discover that for yourself. We call ourselves a democracy when in reality we are a low-level communist Nation. I don't want to get back into the whole conversation about the wall again, but I will say that when a nation's leader puts his own personal, and racist mind you, ideals and desires ahead of the well being, Safety and Security of their own people they once took an oath to protect, they are no longer a president, but a selfish dictator. Call it what you want. You can polish a turd but at the end of the day it's still a turd.

[Elvis_Christ]

Tinfoil makes great headwear

[Morningriser]

And it looks really cool as wallpaper too!

[Bloof]

And if you scrunch it up into a small ball, cats love playing with it.

[Sculpt]

Dude. He just wanted everyone to have cool robot bodies.


This one actually is, or was, a totally random thought - I do not know what train of thought I was on to arrive here...but today, I realised in my 38 years of life on this Earth, not once have I ever seen a black bathroom.
I've seen quite a few black bathrooms in bars and night clubs.

[Morningriser]

Enlightenment is not a happy feeling. Enlightenment is the destruction of everything you thought to be true.

[Elvis_Christ]

Persecutory delusions

[Morningriser]

I wouldn't expect someone of your incompetence to understand that.

[Elvis_Christ]

Yeah your Google Search philosophy is pretty mind blowing and deep.

[Morningriser]

Are you fucking retarded?

Since you clearly cannot comprehend fuck all, it is referring to seeing truths that were always there that you were too blind and naive to see before and seeing these things isn't always joyous, in fact these truths are painful. If that's too much for you then I'm sorry your intelligence only goes so far. Perhaps you should read some books and educate yourself on some of the things I say rather than just automatically talk down to me as if you are some sort of superior mind. Take that title away and you are nothing more than an irrelevant sack.

[Elvis_Christ]

As I said I'm done. Enjoy the forum. I'm out.

[Morningriser]

Yes please kindly fuck off. All I did was post something about Enlightenment that was meant to make people think but of course you had to be you about it. I assume that was just so you could get the last word in so go ahead and say your thing like a whiny hormonally raging teenage girl.

[Morningriser]

LActually you know what, do whatever the fuck you want man. If you want to ban me go ahead and ban me because I'm done with all of this Mickey Mouse bullshit. I have enough going on in my life right now and the one place I thought I could go where I could talk to people and everything would be fine you have to take a big shit on it simply because you can. Fuck you and the asshole you fell out of.

Sorry guys, but I'm better than this. Peace...

[DeadbeatAtDawn]

Always only a matter of time.

[Elvis_Christ]

Weekends roll by way to fast ::sad::

[Dead Bad Things]

Hey hey! What up y'all? I just been grindin' out the winter...check this shit out tho..I came across a zombie deer in town the other day. No shit! I mean this creature was FUHHCKED UP yo...
So this things standin' on the corner, under a yield sign tryin' to eat a dead weed stickin' outta a snowbank. And when I say standin' I mean it's tryin' to balance on these four spindly legs. You could tell that it was stunted and it's head was too big for its body. It's stomach was all sucked in and it's rib cage was all jutted out at hard angles.
Covered in mangy,bristly fur. No doe eyes on this thing either...it bobbled its misshapen head to look at me thru dark beady eyes with balls of pus in the corner of the sockets.
My second thought, after my initial reaction of What the fuck!!!??? Was damn somebody needs to shoot that thing! ::big grin::

[anglewitch]

Bhí maidin ag éirí as cúnamh dÚsachtach dÚsachtach.

[cheebacheeba]

Maybe it was old and had been hit by car/s or some such before?
It's weird how you can see animals that have been so damaged still managing to drag themselves around.

We have these birds here called the Indian Myna, related to starlings.
Considered a pest, yet it's close relative the comparatively much more asshole-ish "noisy myna" is protected.
Anyways...average looking bird. small/medium in size, perhaps slightly smaller than a pigeon, scavengers more than anything.

I don't mind them myself...if they have one thing going for them, it's complexity in their language. They have sqwauks, chirps, this kind of buzzing and this clicking thing they do.

So the point of telling this...while on the zombie type animals...occasionally you see one that has this weird condition. Never researched it to know what it is, but here's a "normal" one, followed by one with this condition.

edit: Ok so the fuckwit forum flipped them around.

[anglewitch]

Roughly translated from the Gaelic

That's some crazy shit man.

[Dead Bad Things]

I mean like shot and burned...preferably with the head cut off kinda thing.
I've seen plenty of deer lookin' lean in the winter before, but this thing was scary lookin'...
Guess it had chronic wasting disease...The CDC calls it "a rare progressive neurodegenerative disorder"....yeah sure ok..
One of top ways a zombie apocalypse starts is transmission thru consumption of meat.
I never saw a critter so fucked up before...

[cheebacheeba]

-0zSDi37UL4

[Bloof]

I mean like shot and burned...preferably with the head cut off kinda thing.
I've seen plenty of deer lookin' lean in the winter before, but this thing was scary lookin'...
Guess it had chronic wasting disease...The CDC calls it "a rare progressive neurodegenerative disorder"....yeah sure ok..
One of top ways a zombie apocalypse starts is transmission thru consumption of meat.
I never saw a critter so fucked up before...

And yet it lives on. Sad but amazing.

[cheebacheeba]

Someone needs to fuck it and give us our zombies already...

[anglewitch]

Someone needs to fuck it and give us our zombies already...

You awful man! :0

[cheebacheeba]

You awful man! :0

It's For. The. Greater. Good.
We need this, anglewitch...we need this.

Today I'll be picking up the two latest issues of the "build the Delorean" model/magazine we've been collecting.
I might have a bacon and egg hamburger while I'm there, from this excellent little takeaway/grill shop.

[anglewitch]

For greater good. BULLSHIT!
DOE PREDATOR!

Moderate yourself! Lol.
::big grin::::shocked::

[cheebacheeba]

I'll moderate myself right into that deer.

[Angra]

It's For. The. Greater. Good.
We need this, anglewitch...we need this.

Yup. Too many people on this earth.

[cheebacheeba]

Lets begin
Em6HjOZ97c8

[Elvis_Christ]

ahhh bestiality the true downfall of mindkind.

[anglewitch]

I'll moderate myself right into that deer.
Moderate yourself out now!
::stick out tongue::

[Poejsic]

m

[cheebacheeba]

I swear if I see one more girl with blue or green hair...I'll...do nothing, but seriously, enough with the fucking blue and green, chicks.

[anglewitch]

I swear if I see one more girl with blue or green hair...I'll...do nothing, but seriously, enough with the fucking blue and green, chicks.
You should see the ones with purple and white. It's really starting to get obnoxious.

[cheebacheeba]

Purple I find more appealing as a colour and tends to be lesser numbers where I live so doesn't bother me as much.

The white hair thing just looks stupid. Wait. You'll get there.

[anglewitch]

Purple I find more appealing as a colour and tends to be lesser numbers where I live so doesn't bother me as much.

The white hair thing just looks stupid. Wait. You'll get there.




I don't care much for women with the bright purple hair. I like dark imperialist purple.


I can't wait to get white hair. I will shape it like exador or black from this island Earth. And grow a large for head.

[Morningriser]

Lesson learned; from now on when I'm here I will keep all my thoughts to myself so we can just all go on playing Make-Believe.

I'll be a good boy until somebody gives me a reason not to be.

[cheebacheeba]

Dude come on. It's not like that.
We've talked about this, and maybe steering your posts more in ratio of horror discussion over endless full page length experiences with illicit substances (some, fine...like I said, ratio) and try not to instigate or take part in any kind of drama, attention seeking, or negativity.

Is this your first post since being back?
You know, as well as I do...that this kind of thing, the deliberate "woe is me" baiting, will be inflammatory and will just bring up old shit again.
But they did this, but they said this, etc etc...it is stupid, circular behaviour.

If you can't move forward, nobody will, then it'l turn into the same thing again, and you'll be...not here...and there's precious little members here already.
Reel it in. Please.

[cheebacheeba]

Back on track then - Random thoughts/stuff here.

Today we're going for Brazlian style BBQ ~churrasco~ to celebrate both myself and Spals b'day.
(mine was back in January, hers is actually today, March 23)
Never been before, but I love the style of cooking, and some of the menu items just look delicious. All you can eat, so I'm just going to try to load up on meat.
They have grilled skewers of chicken hearts...I've had those before, but not like this. Looking forward to it heaps.
...Hm, I might duplicate this bit into my food thread...

Also, myself and Spal have actually recently had our 20th anniversary.
Crazy, right?
We met pretty young.
We haven't actually been married that long, but we specifically aimed to get married on the same day to keep the date - and we did, so yeah it's our 20th.

So I suck at gifts, but apparently I chose a pretty good one.
I got my first ink, for her.
I totally kept it covert and said I hadda go pick something up, and that it was something that we could share, but it's really more like just something to look at.
Just on the underside of my wrist, plain black joined roman numeral XX for 20.
Gotta say the pain level was actually barely there for me. I felt it, sure. But weirdly, I actually kind of enjoyed it - it was almost like scratching an intense itch, a little bit like getting a low grade, focused electrical shock.
I'd do it again.
I went and got it done, and brought us back breakfast with her gift "in my hand behind my back" and said this'll look better when we unwrap it.
I think it's the one time I've been able to actually surprise her, so, win.

[Morningriser]

It was a joke dude. Am I not allowed to make those anymore? In all seriousness though I do understand your concern about drama and the state The Forum is already in. Let's just say since the last time I was here I had some really fucked-up experiences and needless to say I don't give a shit what anybody says or does anymore because in the end none of it even matters. People fuck over people for reasons no one can really explain and there's nothing really we can do about it except for bite down and take it. I know that now and I know that the people who have put me through the things they have do it because of how miserable their own lives are and they need that momentary feeling of Joy by inflicting their own brand of morality on two people. I'm above it and it's beyond me.

A little side note though, interesting enough, I reached out to LP on PS4 recently and told him that I didn't mean to upset him and that I missed having him around and rather than talking to me he went on to my YouTube channel and went the hell off on me and even though he never said his name, he was referencing things from the group and I put two and his username is similar to his PS4 handle. The point is most of us here are fucked up in one way or another and I get that. I just seem to feel certain emotions so much more than others do. I am too God damn sensitive. Not anymore though, there is no Law and Order and right and wrong, just accepting it or denying it. The world's going to spin and people are going to suffer and die no matter what anybody does so we might as well just say fuck it and let whatever happens happen.

[cheebacheeba]

All good, just...don't take shit to heart you don't need to, man.
I want to kind of leave this here because I know you can contribute, and I'd rather you were here. Know that.
I want us all to move on in a positive direction and when I say us, you are included.
Just...yeah...you're not an outsider here, you are part of our family...I'm just over all and any drama from anyone yeah. I need everyone to kick in and be cool.

On my way out now, catchya later.

[Morningriser]

Honestly, I get jealous and bitter so damn easy and it was just until recently that I realize how insignificant everything is. I have started discovering nihilism and I have to say, looking at life this way makes dealing with it so much easier and less painful. I know you said I'm not allowed to talk about certain things but I'm sure you get the idea. I'm not the same person now as I was when I first moved here.

[cheebacheeba]

Legit random thought here.

I was wondering if anywhere in the world, there's a black dude with "White" as a surname, who has a white friend with "Black", and together the two of them find the thought of this as unlikely and funny as I did.

[Bloof]

Morning! Welcome back.

Cheebs! 20 years...that's something to be admired. Sounds like you had an awesome day.

[Elvis_Christ]

Watching cops eating on a stakeout in movies always makes me hungry.

[The Villain]

Lesson learned; from now on when I'm here I will keep all my thoughts to myself so we can just all go on playing Make-Believe.

I'll be a good boy until somebody gives me a reason not to be.

Just try and keep it cool and there won't be a problem. I'd like to see you rejoin the HDC Movie Fights. Were still only on Round 2 so you wouldnt be behind. Just no hostility please.

[Sculpt]

Yes, Morningriser,

Please do checkout the Round 2 question for the HDC Movie Fights. I didn't want to be the only one, glad you're back!

http://horror.com/forum/showpost.php?p=1037375&postcount=60

[cheebacheeba]

Morning! Welcome back.

Cheebs! 20 years...that's something to be admired. Sounds like you had an awesome day.

Hey, just saw this. Thank you. Yeah it was cool.

[Freak]

This might not be the right place for this but I felt I needed to share it with everybody. One day this forum will die, that’s inevitable. But I found a Facebook group that believe everyone here would really and enjoy and it’s a very active community. It’s called the Joe Bob Briggs Drive-In Mutant Collective. One of the more interesting things they do is on Friday or Saturday night they host viewing parties and live chat with each as they watch the movie. I participated in the one this last Saturday and had an absolute blast. I highly recommend you guys give it a look.

[Morningriser]

Morning! Welcome back.


Hi there little girl... Would you like some candy? *laughs maniacally like a retard*

Sculpt, I will look into it but I can't promise I won't give some piss poor argument.

[Morningriser]

I just read that the NRA may be about to shut down!

It's about fucking time! Back when people still cared about school shootings, they held rallies in every city a shooting occurred using that as a way to promote their advocacy for putting a gun in the hand of every American citizen. How many deaths have occurred in this country because of these hate pedaling monsters in the name of selling some guns?

[cheebacheeba]

I think a good middle ground there would be to yknow...let people have handguns after a mental health assessment with like...I dunno...a 2 clip limit?

That way the "but only criminals will have guns" crowd will be somewhat satiated, and they'd be able to DEFEND THEMSELVES.
That, and if there's going to be someone shooting up a public area...they won't be able to get past a certain body count.
I mean...nobody really needs military grade weapons unless it's called for by more than some nutjob with a gun.

[Morningriser]

But that's the thing, gun-control can never work. I mean sure, those laws could be set in effect, but who would obey them other than the people who are just downright afraid to break the law? People buy guns for hunting, self-defense, or a rampage. If gun control laws became tougher, people would just start resorting to buying guns illegally being shipped into the country from South America. Anyone who would be considered a hostile enough to own a gun for anything other than hunting, wouldn't have a problem owning an illegal firearm if they thought it would keep them safe or if they had a personal Vendetta against somebody.

All along the NRA have known exactly what they are doing. They are promoting the use of guns for sport or protection and putting ideas and inspiration in people's heads. Not to mention, if I'm not mistaken, one of the Columbine shooters girlfriends bought him one of his guns at an NRA rally.

In the documentary Bowling for Columbine, Michael Moore attempted to interview Charlton Heston, who at the time was the president of the NRA. All he had to do was mention that the NRA held rallies in all of the cities where school shootings were happening. Without even saying a word, despite the interview being conducted at Heston's home, he quietly gets up and walks away without answering anything. That is the man they had representing the NRA..

Everything about our system is promoting both sides of the spectrum it seems. The government wants gun control while officially sanctioned organizations are promoting the use of guns. This isn't related, but look at what the FDA does. They want people to get healthy but at the same time they approve ridiculous foods like cheeseburgers with fried chicken patties for buns. How does that make any sense? I personally think the government is secretly trying to kill off anyone they think could potentially fall prey to these fucked up contradictions in the system set forth by them.

[Bloof]

Agreed, except for police and military, yep, definitely handguns and shotguns for hunters and enthusiasts or self-defense. Those are the type of guns that just fire a few shots and you have to reload right?

[Morningriser]

Exactly! The government keeps continuously bringing up gun control and yet M16s and AK-47s and such are legal as if people actually use those for hunting. It's like I said, the government will tell you something to save face and try to put your mind at ease while at the same time not giving a flying fuck about what they are saying.

[Morningriser]

So I know I was told to take it down a notch on the Psychedelic talk. This is something I wanted to share though that I just think is just weird.

I think I mentioned before that I was wanting to take a camping trip in the Redwood forest in Northern California. I decided against the trip because when I took ayahuasca, it told me to not go or else I would die. Interesting enough, the last month or so someone has been killing people in the redwood forest and hasn't been caught yet. I would have been going next month and the deaths started happening after my vision.

[Bloof]

So I know I was told to take it down a notch on the Psychedelic talk. This is something I wanted to share though that I just think is just weird.

I think I mentioned before that I was wanting to take a camping trip in the Redwood forest in Northern California. I decided against the trip because when I took ayahuasca, it told me to not go or else I would die. Interesting enough, the last month or so someone has been killing people in the redwood forest and hasn't been caught yet. I would have been going next month and the deaths started happening after my vision.

Okay that would have totally freaked me out. ::EEK!::

[Morningriser]

Okay that would have totally freaked me out. ::EEK!::

It made me bawl my eyes out. Most psychedelic trips make people cry at some point whether they admit it or not. I saw that as a premonition.

[Sculpt]

So I know I was told to take it down a notch on the Psychedelic talk. This is something I wanted to share though that I just think is just weird.

I think I mentioned before that I was wanting to take a camping trip in the Redwood forest in Northern California. I decided against the trip because when I took ayahuasca, it told me to not go or else I would die. Interesting enough, the last month or so someone has been killing people in the redwood forest and hasn't been caught yet. I would have been going next month and the deaths started happening after my vision.
There's currently fresh murdered people being found in the Redwood forest in N CA thought to be from a current serial killer? I did a quick google and it only had stuff years old, didn't see anything current. Got a link? thanks!

[Morningriser]

I've never really been a big fan of Trevor Noah before, but tonight I happened to have the television on Comedy Central while The Daily Show was on and he has grown some balls lately. I mean he's always ripped into Donald Trump but he's pissed. I can't blame him. There's a lady around my age who has worked in the White House since she was like 19 or 20 and she has dwarfism and they were talking about how people who are Trump supporters were bullying her by taking her files and such and holding them way above her head where she couldn't reach them. What the actual fuck is going on? Seriously... if this is how the people who run our country are really going to start acting, like high school bullies picking on the disabled kid, I want the fuck out of this country now.

[Sculpt]

I've never really been a big fan of Trevor Noah before, but tonight I happened to have the television on Comedy Central while The Daily Show was on and he has grown some balls lately. I mean he's always ripped into Donald Trump but he's pissed. I can't blame him. There's a lady around my age who has worked in the White House since she was like 19 or 20 and she has dwarfism and they were talking about how people who are Trump supporters were bullying her by taking her files and such and holding them way above her head where she couldn't reach them. What the actual fuck is going on? Seriously... if this is how the people who run our country are really going to start acting, like high school bullies picking on the disabled kid, I want the fuck out of this country now.
I'm not sure I understand your story... Are you saying on the Daily Show a current White House employee spoke about how "trump supporters" took paper files from her hand and held it over her head to mock her short stature?

... you mean like a few people off the street, wearing trump hats, burst into the White House and did this to her in her office, and then ran out? I don't get it. ::confused::

[Morningriser]

If you want to see the specific part I'm talking about, Skip ahead to 4:40 but the whole thing is worth watching.

UkdAusG0OUE

[Sculpt]

If you want to see the specific part I'm talking about, Skip ahead to 4:40 but the whole thing is worth watching.
Thanks for the link, Morn!

Interesting stuff. I'm not a trump supporter, though I always hope anyone in our gov does well. Speaking strictly of Ms Newbold, I respect whistle blowers, most all gov proceedings should be transparent, and she shouldn't be harrassed for any reason.

What's a bit weird is the Noah' narrative that the retaliation is a 'trump-type-of-people' reaction. Which I think stokes the us-vs-them thing. Do we even know if the person who put the files up high is a trump appointee, or are they a multi-administration civil servant like Newbold? Do we know trump, or any admin staff ordered the file-hike, or someone acting alone? Did Newbold report the incident to a Sup, what did they say? The buck stops on trump, but has there been enough time for trump to react yet?

[Sculpt]

I just read that the NRA may be about to shut down!

It's about fucking time! Back when people still cared about school shootings, they held rallies in every city a shooting occurred using that as a way to promote their advocacy for putting a gun in the hand of every American citizen. How many deaths have occurred in this country because of these hate pedaling monsters in the name of selling some guns?
What has the NRA done that is hate pedaling?

[Morningriser]

The person may not have actually been a trump supporter, but I feel like everyone is acting out the way they are because of influences spearheaded by Trump himself. The general public are just so much more rude than they used to be. Yesterday, I was on the bus and some lady rudely told this guy to get out of her face when all he was doing was standing there like the rest of us who weren't sitting because there wasn't enough room. He wasn't even close to her but the guy was black and the girl was white. I'm not saying it was a race thing, but I remember a time when people wouldn't just deliberately try to start shit for no reason every chance they got. I mean people can say and think what they want, but that son-of-a-bitch has set off a chain reaction that's going to turn everyone against each other eventually.

[Morningriser]

I went to the dentist today. I already had a feeling I was going to be told my top teeth needed to be pulled and I needed dentures, but I didn't expect the dentist to only look at the x-rays rather than even examine me before coming to the sudden determination that every tooth in my head should be pulled all in one setting by an oral surgeon. He even ignored me telling him about some pain I was having. He tried to say that I needed two completely different sets of Dentures, one would cost me $900 and another would be a few thousand dollars. I caught on very quickly what kind of a bullshit tick and leech business this really was. I think my bottom teeth could be saved and fixed, but the guy was so quick to throw these assumptions at me it made me feel like they were just trying to do a necessary shit to me for money. He even went as far as to say to me, we will be seeing a lot of you. What a bunch of assholes.

[Bloof]

I went to the dentist today. I already had a feeling I was going to be told my top teeth needed to be pulled and I needed dentures, but I didn't expect the dentist to only look at the x-rays rather than even examine me before coming to the sudden determination that every tooth in my head should be pulled all in one setting by an oral surgeon. He even ignored me telling him about some pain I was having. He tried to say that I needed two completely different sets of Dentures, one would cost me $900 and another would be a few thousand dollars. I caught on very quickly what kind of a bullshit tick and leech business this really was. I think my bottom teeth could be saved and fixed, but the guy was so quick to throw these assumptions at me it made me feel like they were just trying to do a necessary shit to me for money. He even went as far as to say to me, we will be seeing a lot of you. What a bunch of assholes.

Ouch! Why would your teeth be in such bad condition if you dont mind me asking?

[Morningriser]

I know I have gum disease and it's causing my teeth to degrade and even caused a few to fall out. I'm not sure what's causing it but I do want to get a second opinion before making any rash decisions. If anything, I'd like to get the top teeth done first and then wait for the bottom teeth. I just can't help but feel like these guys were so quick to come to that decision based on how much money they could get out of me. I mean it is still a business after all.

[Bloof]

Well I'm thinking maybe he just knew right off the bat from the x-rays that you were in trouble. And any pain is probably from what he saw in the x-rays and he knew it without having to look in. But yeah, definitely get a second opinion. That does seem expensive but it is very expensive in Canada too, especially if you dont have dental coverage. Which I don't....::sad::

[NightOfTheLiving_Sam]

It certainly has been windy and stormy here lately. I'm sort of looking forward to the summer this year. Honestly tired of all this cold weather now. I need the heat and loved to be outside again. There's a few things I'd like to do this summer and I'm looking forward to it. Sort of wanting to possibly get a new bike or start yoga this summer. I'd love to become more active outside and do something, instead of just laying around, haha!

[Morningriser]

It's windy all the way over here on the opposite side of the country from Florida. Being here in the Vegas Valley it seems like we stay bombarded with high wind bouncing off of the surrounding mountains. Just like in big cities like New York where you can smell a wonderful blend of various Asian Foods and pizza and such, you can smell the same in Vegas in any given area at times when the wind is blowing. There were a few late nights in February that got downright miserable at how cold and strong the wind was. What part of Florida are you in?

[Morningriser]

Has anyone seen that newer commercial on television where the morbidly obese man is telling the story about a doctor who was running a marathon and came up on a man having a heart attack who is also running the marathon and she saved his life? The guy telling the story is the one who had the heart attack.

I know this makes me, "that guy", but what the hell did the guy expect? Coming from someone who used to be a morbidly obese man, you don't do that shit when you are morbidly obese! ::big grin::

[Sculpt]

https://i.kym-cdn.com/photos/images/original/000/656/831/a93.jpg

[Sculpt]

I know I have gum disease and it's causing my teeth to degrade and even caused a few to fall out. I'm not sure what's causing it but I do want to get a second opinion before making any rash decisions. If anything, I'd like to get the top teeth done first and then wait for the bottom teeth. I just can't help but feel like these guys were so quick to come to that decision based on how much money they could get out of me. I mean it is still a business after all.
Yes, get a second opinion, at least. You're probably too young to get top and bottom dentures... but who knows. Doctors and Dentists are not all-knowing dictators. You'll want to let the Dentist/Oral Surgeon know, from the get go, you intend to keep your teeth as long as possible, and do what it takes to keep them, and mean it.

[Sculpt]

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[Morningriser]

"Let's remember Pearl Harbor", "never forget 9/11", etc...

Why are we told to not reflect on the past or bad memories since they cannot be changed, but yet are continuously reminded to remember tragedies instead of Miracles and fortunes?

This is subliminal social propaganda designed to subconsciously teach us to associate historical tragedies with memoriams to insto fear and control of the masses.

[Morningriser]

Yes, get a second opinion, at least. You're probably too young to get top and bottom dentures... but who knows. Doctors and Dentists are not all-knowing dictators. You'll want to let the Dentist/Oral Surgeon know, from the get go, you intend to keep your teeth as long as possible, and do what it takes to keep them, and mean it.

I don't want to study I probably do need to get something done. I mean the top or fucked up and the bottom are more or less fucked up but I would like to talk to someone else before making any long-term decision. If I have to get them all pulled then I will oh, but I would prefer not to, even if I know it would do a lot of good for my gums and confidence.

[DeadbeatAtDawn]

Happy Easter Folks!


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[Bloof]

Happy Easter Folks!


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Thanks, Dead! My grandson had an egg hunt here this morning and then we are off to my daughter's for Easter supper later today. Happy Easter!

[Morningriser]

I hope DBT is okay.

[cheebacheeba]

Why wouldn't they be?

[hammerfan]

Why wouldn't they be?

He hasn't been around much since his wife passed away

[cheebacheeba]

Fuck...I was not aware of this.

I'm going to guess they're probably not very ok at all.
Losing a long term partner would have to be one of the most horrible things for either side of a couple to go through.

Death.
It's one of those things where nobody really knows how to be.
A system shock that can fuck with your head six ways from Sunday.

With a partner, I just imagine it's so overwhelming...all the things they used to do for you, with you, their "jobs" around the house, the shows you used to watch with them, back seat driving...Losing your best friend and confidant, the person you share and make fun of the world with...So much would change and I can only imagine that even small things would bear such a weight right now.

I don't envy anyone that goes through the death thing, on any level - The sleepless nights, the waking up thinking they're still there, the near hallucinations you have... your other family/friends not sure how to act just the same. Everything routine gets tossed into the air. Everything.

It's life, it's death, and it's shitty that one of our own is going through this.

We're here, man.
I'm here, much as I ever am with my emotional depth of a puddle.
People are thinking of you, even if you're not in a place where you can talk right now.
All the best, wherever you are, DBT.
Take your time. Breathe.
Don't worry too much if a search for normal brings no result...you grow a new one over time.
Friends are here too.
I hope you're moving towards OK, and listen - However you're getting through it, it's the right way.
Make sure you keep eating and drinking, yeah? Take care of you.

- B.

[Morningriser]

He was still coming around occasionally afterwards, but he also has a child to take care of. I just hope he's doing okay and coping well.

[Bloof]

So it appears we have a new member....

[cheebacheeba]

I see. Interesting. Wonder if it's actually fixed...

[Sculpt]

To Morningriser - I'd kinda add/agree with Bloof, no need to leave, we welcome you back! And no need to take posts on HDC too seriously. Sometimes people are trying to be a dick, like MovieLover (sp), but 90% of the time people are just being misunderstood, or trying to joke around, and I see you take it as an insult way, way more than you should. You should give people the benefit of the doubt, largely because, it's just posts on a forum, these are misconstrued, and just assume the best on top of that, not assume the worse. I mean really, if someone actually insults you on here, which I haven't even seen, except for MovieLover, than so what? Who the fuck are they? Nobody, why would you even care? Fuck em. They don't even deserve a response from you.

[Zero]

I believe I am misunderstood, but I am also a monkey. So that could be part of the problem!🐵

[Zero]

So ... the whole “flinging poo” thing is cool. Just to be clear...

[cheebacheeba]

Yeah, but yknow - Only the literal kind

[cheebacheeba]

This is clearly not going to end with you, is it?

You're bringing up things that have nothing to do with HDC, bringing outside issues into this place.
You're here also (still) insulting the members.
You're ranting.
I look at this and honestly see a person that needs some counselling, to say the very least - You are carrying on obsessively, and it's just uncomfortable to have to bear witness to, and a dark cloud on this place that's only going to make new members wonder what the fuck they've walked in on, and leave.

I did you the favour of not banning this account in the hope you'd come back and that this wouldn't be a thing...
I made pretty clear last time that if this continued, I'd end it.
I don't feel bad about it, you've been given more chances than a lot of people.

After your last outburst under not just one, but two accounts while posting threatening visitor messages to another member that it frankly just looks like you're just creepily stalking across numerous sites and platforms...you should have been banned from all of your accounts then and there.

That was another chance.
When you say "for no reason", have a think about the last 48 hours.

It's a shame, everyone (moderation included) has told you that you were a part of this place, and that you're capable of contributing in a positive way...but that's all gone. You're just here on the attack/victim cycle.
What do you expect?

I almost wrote you a message pleading with you to just settle down when you got back...and this is your very first post back...I thought maybe if we left it alone, you'd just hit reset and be "normal". I was prepared to drop it.
Though I figured I wouldn't hand hold you through a decision that you should have been able to make on your own.
You didn't.

This isn't for no reason. It's for all of the reasons you've given, and that this post you've just made shows you have zero intention of carrying on here as anything other than negative.

I'm now imposing a ban on sight for you, and any further accounts you open here.
I hope you can find some kind of healthy outlet elsewhere.

[Bloof]

Cancer-free for a year!

[WeRGoing2EatU]

That's great bloof! :D

[Bloof]

Thanks luvable! Cant take all the credit, lol. Luck was on my side.

[Sculpt]

Cancer-free for a year!

Congratulations, Bloof!

[Bloof]

Congratulations, Bloof!

Thanks, Sculpt!

[hammerfan]

Cancer-free for a year!

That's awesome!!! Wonderful news!!!! ::love::

[Bloof]

That's awesome!!! Wonderful news!!!! ::love::

Thanks, Hammer!

[Poejsic]

Cancer-free for a year!

Good job, Bloof. Great news.

[Bloof]

Good job, Bloof. Great news.

Thank-you, Poe!

[cheebacheeba]

Cancer-free for a year!

I honour you.

[Bloof]

I honour you.

I know you do, lol. Thanks Cheeb!

[BioLeng]

Somebody is fond of psychology here? What books or courses on psychology can you advise? I am interested in the checked practice of forgiveness and reconciliation. I heard about ho oponopono meditation (https://numbervoice.com/hoponopono-certification-course-of-joe-vitale/). I found joe vitale ho oponopono. It really works? who tried?

[cheebacheeba]

Wondering if anyone has similar experience...

Sometimes when I'm asleep I am woken suddenly by the fact that I am choking.

Over time I realised what seemed to be happening is that I am burping up acid.

It comes up, and I guess my first unconscious thing my body does is continues to breahe...and in it goes.

Ever thrown up and it's been super acidic?
That taste is there - Never really any solids though.

It's fucked up, because I'm half asleep and it takes a while for me to actually cough it up and clear my airways.

I sit there on the edge of my bed gasping, trying to breathe IN through the acidic bullshit...between coughing.

There's been more than a few times that I've actually thought I was going to die, because it comes down to...there's liquid sitting where air should go, in my airways.

It's only occasional, but at least once every few weeks.

Acidic foods and eating later in the evening seem to be factors, but not the entirety of them. Sometimes it just happens.

So the last one...wasn't that scary outta 10...but gross. I actually had a glass of water before bed...and that's largely what came up, except this time?
For some reason it came out through my fucking nose.
I basically had to power-sniff/blow my nose til it was cleared.
Painful....and I smelled vomit for the next couple of hours.

I've taken to having some Gaviscon around bed here and there...because yeah, I think in the wrong situation, this could actually kill someone.

Just thought I'd share my "personal hell" situation.

[hammerfan]

Aging's a bitch

[Bloof]

I have certainly had "acid reflux" occasionally and yes, it does get worse with age but nothing like what you are saying and I would think you are still relatively young for this kind of thing. Im sure you are trying all the conventional remedies such as sleeping propped up etc. And the gaviscon is a good idea short term. I would definitely try and make sure i dont eat or drink for at least 2 hours before bed. And get it checked if it doesnt go away. If you were my son thats what i would say.

[hammerfan]

I have certainly had "acid reflux" occasionally and yes, it does get worse with age but nothing like what you are saying and I would think you are still relatively young for this kind of thing. Im sure you are trying all the conventional remedies such as sleeping propped up etc. And the gaviscon is a good idea short term. I would definitely try and make sure i dont eat or drink for at least 2 hours before bed. And get it checked if it doesnt go away. If you were my son thats what i would say.

I have reflux. Doc put me on omeprazole (over-the-counter Prilosec). Take one pill in the morning before you eat anything.

[Bloof]

I have reflux. Doc put me on omeprazole (over-the-counter Prilosec). Take one pill in the morning before you eat anything.

I just get it the odd time, when i overdo things.

[Scarecrows]

Good Afternoon/Evening All....Its very quiet in here today::shocked::

[Sculpt]

I have reflux. Doc put me on omeprazole (over-the-counter Prilosec). Take one pill in the morning before you eat anything.
How's it working for ya?

I just get it the odd time, when i overdo things.
That's good. Some of us have it worse. Basically we have to follow new rules, like not eating after 8pm, especially acidic foods. Putting the head of the bed up 6", maybe moving away from coffee, but might require meds.

[hammerfan]

How's it working for ya?

Works great. As long as I remember to take it. ::big grin::

[MichaelMyers]

Monday dont make me get up
Tuesday i dont give a f^€k
Wednesday Thursday pretty tough
Friday I'm in love!

[MichaelMyers]

Could some of our dreams actually be alternate realities that we briefly visit?

[Bloof]

Could some of our dreams actually be alternate realities that we briefly visit?

Yes

[Sculpt]

Could some of our dreams actually be alternate realities that we briefly visit?

Reminds me of a scene from Slacker

3-9l7K7LftQ

[MichaelMyers]

Ahhh back to school time that means fall and Halloween is coming up.::danger::::cool::

[Angra]

I notice that the Video section on this site is kinda updated. Weird..

[Bloof]

I notice that the Video section on this site is kinda updated. Weird..

Ive never looked there before but you're quite right. They're all new movies.

[DeadbeatAtDawn]

http://40.media.tumblr.com/4e2191947edcaa6bd4b68e22c40101a2/tumblr_nwl96vMFVV1swgyqjo1_500.jpg


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[hammerfan]

Love those pictures, DBAD

[MichaelMyers]

Welcome October.

[anglewitch]

Well I'll be damned. This shithole is still alive.

[anglewitch]

19579

[hammerfan]

Well I'll be damned. This shithole is still alive.

You can leave again if you're going to have that attitude

[anglewitch]

You can leave again if you're going to have that attitude

🤣

How've you been HF?

[anglewitch]

Anyway for those who want to keep in touch with me. My Instagram is valkerian_troopie

[MichaelMyers]

You can leave again if you're going to have that attitude

::big grin::

[Freddywise]

I've been thinking a lot lately about Pennywise, and despite knowing WHAT he is, due to seeing the movies and owning the book, there are at least two things that Pennywise reminds me of in certain aspects.
A Tulpa, and/or a Boggart.

Me and a friend had that discussion. Very fun.

[Burning Skeleton]

Pulls out cig. Puffs*
Ahhhh...

[Burning Skeleton]

Damn this place is dead

[Burning Skeleton]

Fuck it, I'm posting a meme.19581

[sfear]

Don't know what a meme is but that's a cool looking gun.

[jimrnemeth]

Ah, Saturday. Thank God!

[Bloof]

Saturday is good. Thanksgiving weekend up here in Canada.

[sfear]

Happy Thanksgiving!

[Bloof]

Happy Thanksgiving!

Thanks, sfear. Quiet one this year, just my Dad and grandson coming for a ham dinner.

[Burning Skeleton]

Happy Thanksgiving!

Thanksgiving in October? Wtf

[Bloof]

Thanksgiving in October? Wtf

Its Thanksgiving in Canada this weekend.

[MichaelMyers]

https://scontent-atl3-1.xx.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/72401952_2762512437105900_1813495111183499264_n.jp g?_nc_cat=101&_nc_oc=AQmRX6B-iXLKE1e1-cSG7cHSFSsi62CW0vSo36df0OBtOD50mT3iJmL6SYDubrOlsRK QzY6XsKmoduppVy5dZ4DF&_nc_ht=scontent-atl3-1.xx&oh=096c1f3fe4571de5142035a96a9a6e57&oe=5E20E2F2

[Burning Skeleton]

19583

[Chevalier]

As a disgruntled Republican, who am I going to vote for in the GOP Primary, Weld, Walsh, Sanford or De La Fuente. Choices. Choices. None of them good.

[Burning Skeleton]

19584

[MichaelMyers]

As a disgruntled Republican, who am I going to vote for in the GOP Primary, Weld, Walsh, Sanford or De La Fuente. Choices. Choices. None of them good.

No Trump?

[Chevalier]

No Trump?

Nope. Not a Trump fan.

[Burning Skeleton]

19586

[Burning Skeleton]

No posting of other peoples pictures here.

[anglewitch]

Wut pic was dat?

[Sculpt]

Wut pic was dat?
He posted a pic of me eating a massive piece of lemon meringue pie! It's probably a totally doctored pic. I do like that type of pie, but I totally wouldn't hold the pie that way... totally bogus!

[anglewitch]

He posted a pic of me eating a massive piece of lemon meringue pie! It's probably a totally doctored pic. I do like that type of pie, but I totally wouldn't hold the pie that way... totally bogus!

Oh my. Wait, really?

Btw y'all I have built a new forum and it has it's own domain.

Please visit and post. It would be a super big help to me.

http://metalheadsandhorror.com/

[DeadbeatAtDawn]

And I'll haunt you. Sleep in fear. Whisper secrets in your ear. A world away but I'll be near. I'll haunt you, I'll haunt you here.

2 more days til Halloween!




https://66.media.tumblr.com/9302824029470c40aafb72b1bbca84c4/tumblr_ptlmt8R23t1vmnq8do1_540.jpg

[MichaelMyers]

[QUOTE=DeadbeatAtDawn;1040130]And I'll haunt you. Sleep in fear. Whisper secrets in your ear. A world away but I'll be near. I'll haunt you, I'll haunt you here.

2 more days til Halloween!

What are you doing this year?

Will you be deadbeat at dawn of Nov. 1 again?

[DeadbeatAtDawn]

First snow! ::love::

[HorrorFan4Ever]

Oh wow look at that snow 😝

[Sculpt]

Oh my. Wait, really?

Btw y'all I have built a new forum and it has it's own domain.

Please visit and post. It would be a super big help to me.

http://metalheadsandhorror.com/
I will check it out and post right now, my friend!

[Sculpt]

First snow! ::love::

Chi town, south?

[Bloof]

BUSY DAY TOMORROW KIDDIES, SO I WANT TO WISH YOU ALL THE SPOOKIEST HALLOWEEN EVER! LOVE YA!

[MichaelMyers]

BUSY DAY TOMORROW KIDDIES, SO I WANT TO WISH YOU ALL THE SPOOKIEST HALLOWEEN EVER! LOVE YA!

Happy Halloween Bloof. Let's make this the best one yet. ::devil::

[DeadbeatAtDawn]

Chi town, south?


Northwest burbs.

[hammerfan]

BUSY DAY TOMORROW KIDDIES, SO I WANT TO WISH YOU ALL THE SPOOKIEST HALLOWEEN EVER! LOVE YA!

Have fun with the grands, Bloof!

[Bloof]

Happy Halloween Bloof. Let's make this the best one yet. ::devil::

Have fun with the grands, Bloof!

Thanks guys!

[Sculpt]

Thanks guys!
So howd it go?! What were the kids dressed as? You walk around the neighborhood, going door to door? Anyone try to scare the kids? Some scary house decorations? Carve a pumpkin?

[Kat]

I can only apologise for not being about for quite some time - I had a lot of personal issues going on, mainly with my father being ill and passing on a short while ago. I ended up closing myself off.

Yesterday, I tried to get in, and it took about four attempts to get in here, sent two emails - one to the admin (which bounced back, saying it couldn't be sent), and one to the admin again via the forum form, of which after having been sent, presented me with a blank page). So I gave up for the night, and tried again this morning, and I finally got in..!

[Angra]

I can only apologise for not being about for quite some time - I had a lot of personal issues going on, mainly with my father being ill and passing on a short while ago. I ended up closing myself off.

Yesterday, I tried to get in, and it took about four attempts to get in here, sent two emails - one to the admin (which bounced back, saying it couldn't be sent), and one to the admin again via the forum form, of which after having been sent, presented me with a blank page). So I gave up for the night, and tried again this morning, and I finally got in..!

Sounds about right. There’s no admin here anymore. Only Zuul.

[Kat]

Sounds about right. There’s no admin here anymore. Only Zuul.

No Gate Keeper?

[anglewitch]

I'm the gae keeper

[Bloof]

So howd it go?! What were the kids dressed as? You walk around the neighborhood, going door to door? Anyone try to scare the kids? Some scary house decorations? Carve a pumpkin?

A zombie cheerleader, a red-eyed wraith and optimus prime. We went down into the village. The weather was MISERABLE. There is a local woman who turns her front porch into a Witch's lair and its quite well done. Lots of pop-outs that scare the kids.

[Sculpt]

A zombie cheerleader, a red-eyed wraith and optimus prime. We went down into the village. The weather was MISERABLE. There is a local woman who turns her front porch into a Witch's lair and its quite well done. Lots of pop-outs that scare the kids.
Sounds like fun! kids enjoy themselves? what kind of popout scares? I think the only popup scare I saw as a kid is the dude who pops his head up of the metal square of the screen door. ::big grin::

[Bloof]

Sounds like fun! kids enjoy themselves? what kind of popout scares? I think the only popup scare I saw as a kid is the dude who pops his head up of the metal square of the screen door. ::big grin::

Kind of the same thing. Her teenagers would run down the driveway with a chainsaw from behind a hedge. Some dressed as werewolves and popped their heads out of a window. The witch lays dead til you get close to her and then she pops up. They were suitably scared but the weather did kill the mood.

[cheebacheeba]

I used to just simulate late night car jacking when my mother returned.

[MichaelMyers]

If you could watch any horror movie at a drive-in theater, what would it be?

[Bloof]

If you could watch any horror movie at a drive-in theater, what would it be?

Good grief...all of them, lol. Fright Night and Lost Boys would be a start for me.

[cheebacheeba]

North by Northwest.
I envy people who got to see this on the big screen.

[kerr9000]

Id want to see old classics like The Tingler, Night of the Living Dead stuff like that. My home town had a small one screen cinema I was in all the time as a kid when it shut down I always said if I won the lottery id buy it and show old horror on the cheap, was always a big dream of mine.

[anglewitch]

19598
First kill of the season.

[Sculpt]

19598
First kill of the season.
Where did you hit it? Videos always just show a shot and they drop... I was always curious, do they go down unconscious if you hit them anywhere in the chest or head? How's that work?

[cheebacheeba]

I hear if you shoot them in the dick, they bite it off.

[Sculpt]

I hear if you shoot them in the dick, they bite it off.
Kinda… if it gets caught in a trap, it's lunch.

[anglewitch]

Usually I am behind the shoulder blade and into the vitals. Typically that hits there heart. They sometimes go a short distance then fall over because the heart is shutdown.
This one due to my positioning I shot him below the spine into the lungs. He was dead before he hit the ground.

[anglewitch]

I hear if you shoot them in the dick, they bite it off.
Damn, wtf?

[cheebacheeba]

Try it

[Angra]

Start with my own dick.

[Bloof]

19598
First kill of the season.

I know he's dead but it eyes are open like its alive! I just dont know if i could do it though i know its legal and saves a lot of them from a starving winter.

[cheebacheeba]

I know he's dead but it eyes are open like its alive! I just dont know if i could do it though i know its legal and saves a lot of them from a starving winter.

See what you do then, is you aim for the eyes so you won't have to look at them.
Leave 'em like Darry