Random Thoughts...

[Morningriser]

FFS dude that's not what I'm saying at all... You are clearly completely missing the point here. I am just saying you should watch what you say because while you are entitled to free speech, the admins of this message board are here to keep the peace and talking about physically wanting to hurt people, fantasizing or not, would be considered as a trigger to some people who could potentially take that the wrong way thus it is the job of the admins to step in and prevent anything like that from happening by keeping the peace. At this point I have explained myself and I think I have done a decent job explaining cheebas position on this as an admin so at this point everything you were posting is just your attempt at being a smart-ass because I would like to think you are smart enough to understand what you have been told. I am not an admin so that is where I am going to leave it.

[MovieLover12]

I've got your point. Here's a little humour for ya: What do bank robbers and post boxes have in common?

[Morningriser]

Well I was going to go watch BlacKKKlansman tonight but after I got to the Boulder Station Casino where the movie theater was at and bought my ticket, the power went out 6 times while I was waiting to go in and they ended up closing the movie theater and gave me a voucher for a free movie pass. I guess I will try again tomorrow. the first time the power went out it scared me, not because the power went out, but because everyone screamed as if someone was shooting up the place. I'm sure a lot of people around here or still freaked out over Mandalay Bay but it is so sad that it has become Instinct for some people to react that way when something as simple as the power going out happens. It really makes you think about the direction this world is going.

[LuvablePsycho]

If people in developed countries lost all of the things that make their lives so cushy like electricity, plumbing, supermarkets, and modern medicine they would be utterly screwed. We really do take those things for granted.

[Bloof]

Always good to have a contingency plan. I dont so i dont know why im trying to act like a prepper.

[Morningriser]

Well the first time the power went out I took everyone's screams as just instinct or automatically fearing the worst since as I said before, many people in Vegas are still affected by the Mandalay Bay shooting but I also have to take into account then when something like that happens out of the blue there's always going to be someone to Scream by reflex, by fear or in the rare but still Strange Case, just for the sake of doing it, which would explain why every single time the power went out there was a few people that screamed. Those are the weirdos that probably are freaking out thinking their life is over but that first time you could just tell it really freaked people the fuck out because from what I have heard the power doesn't go out around here at casinos especially like that. But to follow up to the point about people not knowing what they would do if we suddenly lost all of our resources we take for granted, I can totally agree with that. it is a big part of why I have been saying for so long that we as a human race are devolving because there was so much we used to have to work for and now technology has made us lazy. Technology has already enslaved us.

[LuvablePsycho]

Well the first time the power went out I took everyone's screams as just instinct or automatically fearing the worst since as I said before, many people in Vegas are still affected by the Mandalay Bay shooting but I also have to take into account then when something like that happens out of the blue there's always going to be someone to Scream by reflex, by fear or in the rare but still Strange Case, just for the sake of doing it, which would explain why every single time the power went out there was a few people that screamed. Those are the weirdos that probably are freaking out thinking their life is over but that first time you could just tell it really freaked people the fuck out because from what I have heard the power doesn't go out around here at casinos especially like that. But to follow up to the point about people not knowing what they would do if we suddenly lost all of our resources we take for granted, I can totally agree with that. it is a big part of why I have been saying for so long that we as a human race are devolving because there was so much we used to have to work for and now technology has made us lazy. Technology has already enslaved us.

It really has. But I like to believe that even if the entire world collapses one day (which I'm sure it will) that there will still be enough capable people around to keep the human species alive.

[MovieLover12]

How can the human species survive in a collapsed world?

[LuvablePsycho]

How can the human species survive in a collapsed world?

Well there are people living in third world countries who have survived for hundreds of years without the modern convenience that we developed countries take for granted. I bet they could pull through and figure out a way to survive just like they do now.

[MovieLover12]

You'll want to look at that again, last time I checked Africa wasn't doing well at all. And Venezuela, well that's a different story.

[LuvablePsycho]

You'll want to look at that again, last time I checked Africa wasn't doing well at all. And Venezuela, well that's a different story.

Of course they're not doing well, but those people put up with a LOT more HELL than we do and they are still around aren't they?

If we lost all of our precious resources that keep us nice and comfy like electricity and fuel we wouldn't be able to stay alive the way they do. We would be completely destroyed because we could NOT live without it. End of story.

Oh and btw if you're trying to play Devil's Advocate with me all I gotta say is go screw yourself with a pitchfork. ::devil::

[Morningriser]

It all began with the bare minimum we're over thousands if not more years old but no matter where you choose to believe we came from, we started with nothing but our race adapt and evolves so often throughout human history civilizations have fallen will be no different but we persevere, we rebuild and learn from our mistakes and Hopefully that's the way it will always be.

[MovieLover12]

I wasn't trying to do anything but have a conversation. All you've gone and done now is attract the attention of others that'll be blaming me and not you for something that you did.

[LuvablePsycho]

It all began with the bare minimum we're over thousands if not more years old but no matter where you choose to believe we came from, we started with nothing but our race adapt and evolves so often throughout human history civilizations have fallen will be no different but we persevere, we rebuild and learn from our mistakes and Hopefully that's the way it will always be.

Yeah we humans are like roaches, you squish one with your shoe and suddenly 10 more come out from hiding to take it's place. And we like to invade and infest things too. Unfortunately we can't survive a nuclear blast or getting our heads cut off. ::big grin::

[Morningriser]

I wasn't trying to do anything but have a conversation. All you've gone and done now is attract the attention of others that'll be blaming me and not you for something that you did.


What the fuck is your deal? I told you I was going to drop out of the conversation with you all together because you weren't making any sense other than basically throwing a selfish pity party or something and now you're going to turn it around and say that I am making things about me because I was talking about an incident at a casino last night that scared the fuck out of people because they thought it was getting shot up? because if that's not at all what you're saying please tell me because I have no clue what the fuck you are even talking about and quite frankly it's getting pretty fucking annoying. I mean Are you seriously that desperate for attention that you feel the need to troll and interject yourself into everything and make it about you by saying I am making it about me? That's true north assisted Behavior if I've ever seen it.

Yeah we humans are like roaches, you squish one with your shoe and suddenly 10 more come out from hiding to take it's place. And we like to invade and infest things too. Unfortunately we can't survive a nuclear blast or getting our heads cut off. ::big grin::

But the thing that sets us apart from animals is individuality. The abilities we were born with and the things we are exposed to in life make us who we are and unfortunately being your own individual also means you have your own ideas and logic and morals which in your heart you believe to be completely set in stone and not everyone is going to believe as you do but there are some people who feel like everyone should believe as they do and all it does is cause conflict and despair because everyone wants to be right and everyone wants everyone to believe what they do because they believe it to be right. It's a clusterfuck no matter how you look at it.

[LuvablePsycho]

But the thing that sets us apart from animals is individuality. The abilities we were born with and the things we are exposed to in life make us who we are and unfortunately being your own individual also means you have your own ideas and logic and morals which in your heart you believe to be completely set in stone and not everyone is going to believe as you do but there are some people who feel like everyone should believe as they do and all it does is cause conflict and despair because everyone wants to be right and everyone wants everyone to believe what they do because they believe it to be right. It's a clusterfuck no matter how you look at it.

Yeah I completely agree, what is right and wrong is what each individual person decides for themselves and unfortunately we all try to force each other to see things the way we see them. A lot of the problems in the world come from that, but empathy and compassion is the key to working together and that is kind of how civilizations get formed in the first place. At least that's what I think.

[Morningriser]

Yeah I completely agree, what is right and wrong is what each individual person decides for themselves and unfortunately we all try to force each other to see things the way we see them. A lot of the problems in the world come from that, but empathy and compassion is the key to working together and that is kind of how civilizations get formed in the first place. At least that's what I think.

Exactly and as long as the human race exists, World Peace simply never can and if there ever was a time that it could it most definitely would not be now. as I said before, America will fall eventually, all great Empires do and then and it's wake something new will be built and it's wait while a new Empire emerges elsewhere in the world and the cycle starts all over again because that's all existence and everything in it is, a cycle. Up and down, push and pull, yin and yang. In the long run the positives and the negatives balance each other out and all we can do is be thankful we existed and got to experience the ride whether it be good or bad.

[LuvablePsycho]

Exactly and as long as the human race exists, World Peace simply never can and if there ever was a time that it could it most definitely would not be now. as I said before, America will fall eventually, all great Empires do and then and it's wake something new will be built and it's wait while a new Empire emerges elsewhere in the world and the cycle starts all over again because that's all existence and everything in it is, a cycle. Up and down, push and pull, yin and yang. In the long run the positives and the negatives balance each other out and all we can do is be thankful we existed and got to experience the ride whether it be good or bad.

I know this sounds horrible but personally I can't wait for the American Empire to fall. I think ours is overrated to all hell and we haven't even accomplished things that were as great as what China, Egypt, Rome, and Britain did. Plus I get really sick of how ethnocentric we Americans tend to be.

I'm sorry but that's just how I really feel. I will be honest and admit that there isn't a patriotic bone in my whole body.

[Morningriser]

Could an admin delete this comment? Apparently it somehow double posted when I added the attachment

[Morningriser]

I know this sounds horrible but personally I can't wait for the American Empire to fall. I think ours is overrated to all hell and we haven't even accomplished things that were as great as what China, Egypt, Rome, and Britain did. Plus I get really sick of how ethnocentric we Americans tend to be.

I'm sorry but that's just how I really feel. I will be honest and admit that there isn't a patriotic bone in my whole body.


don't apologize for how you feel man. Believe me, there has been so many times I just wanted the entire universe just suddenly ceased to exist kind of like Thanos in Infinity War. But then I realized that having thoughts like that makes me know better than people like that and the people who have inspired the people who shoot up schools for movie theaters or anywhere else they feel like they can get the proper attention their mommies and daddies never did. I don't want our country to suddenly ceased to exist I just wanted to wake up and start giving a damn again because if people are seriously think we have acted like this throughout all of human history they are sadly mistaken because we would have never made it this far without mankind cooperating to some degree. I mean the entire world needs the universe's biggest cup of coffee dumped on it and told to wake the fuck up and stop being self-centered pieces of shit and show some compassion for their fellow man.

EDIT, damn I just realized 3 years later I finally hit my 1,000th post! let's celebrate by looking at a picture of my first-ever mimosa I had yesterday ::big grin::

[LuvablePsycho]

don't apologize for how you feel man. Believe me, there has been so many times I just wanted the entire universe just suddenly ceased to exist kind of like Thanos in Infinity War. But then I realized that having thoughts like that makes me know better than people like that and the people who have inspired the people who shoot up schools for movie theaters or anywhere else they feel like they can get the proper attention their mommies and daddies never did. I don't want our country to suddenly ceased to exist I just wanted to wake up and start giving a damn again because if people are seriously think we have acted like this throughout all of human history they are sadly mistaken because we would have never made it this far without mankind cooperating to some degree. I mean the entire world needs the universe's biggest cup of coffee dumped on it and told to wake the fuck up and stop being self-centered pieces of shit and show some compassion for their fellow man.

EDIT, damn I just realized 3 years later I finally hit my 1,000th post! let's celebrate by looking at a picture of my first-ever mimosa I had yesterday ::big grin::


Yeah it's not that I want my country to be completely destroyed, but I would really love to see that giant ego of ours popped like the oversized balloon that it is. I mean for one thing we have always bragged about being "the most free country in the world" and yet the American government keeps a tighter leash on it's people than we realize. For many years anybody who isn't a rich white heterosexual Christian man has been fighting for the right to not be treated like crap and those battles are still being fought today but nobody wants to admit to that either. There's also a lot of things that we should be doing a better way but we choose not to and I just don't understand it.

But anyways if we did collapse I'm pretty positive that we would still remain a country. I mean those other places I mentioned that had empires like ours are still around too. Even if something happens and the country changes it's name (like Siam becoming Thailand) the people of that country will always still be there... unless of course they are completely wiped out by genocide.

Edit: Oh and congrats!::wink::

[Morningriser]

Yeah the ego is a hell of a thing but once it is stripped away you see what people are truly made of. That's something I really like about psychedelic drugs. When I am tripping it completely tears away my ego and allows me to think clearly without any sort of biased opinions or self-judgement. it basically allows you to see your true self. there's a lot of people in this world that could use a dose of that in their life.

[LuvablePsycho]

I like my new PS4. The system itself isn't as cool as the PS3 was imo but it has some really good games for it. Right now I'm playing Yakuza Kiwami, Yakuza 0, and Sleeping Dogs: Definitive Edition. I'm hoping to buy Yakuza Kiwami 2 once the price drops.

I feel like a Super Deadly Asianese Ninjamurai Dragon Master! ::cool::

*sings Everybody Was Kungfu Fightin*

[Morningriser]

Wow I feel stupid... This whole time I thought that was Denzel Washington in Black Klansman. It looked just like him and sounded just like him and I could have sworn they advertised him as being in it on TV but it was his son and not him. I know he was in Malcolm X but didn't he also play his son in He Got Game, or was it someone else?

[LuvablePsycho]

I dunno but speaking of Malcolm X... I respect Martin Luther King Jr. a lot more. He wasn't calling white people "the white devil" or encouraging black people to be violent. His belief was basically that we all share the same planet and that we need to learn to get along or else we are going to end up destroying ourselves.

[Morningriser]

Yeah that's actually the message and black klansman. I mean it's based off of a true story and apparently everything happened the way it does in the movie but the main character, working Undercover as a police officer goes to a black panther rally to act as crowd control if things started getting out of hand but the cop actually starts to agree with some of the stuff the guy who is speaking is saying about white people but believes more towards what Martin Luther King taught so one day he sees an ad in the newspaper for recruiting the KKK members and initially just fucking around he calls and start stalking to the leader of the Colorado Springs chapter and then when they want to meet him face-to-face he actually goes and gets permission from his superiors to open an investigation and they get Adam Driver to go in and be the face behind The Voice. They did a really good job of telling it without just slowly making it look like we are these demons. It gave off the message that hate comes from anywhere and everywhere no matter what color you are.

[LuvablePsycho]

Yeah that's actually the message and black klansman. I mean it's based off of a true story and apparently everything happened the way it does in the movie but the main character, working Undercover as a police officer goes to a black panther rally to act as crowd control if things started getting out of hand but the cop actually starts to agree with some of the stuff the guy who is speaking is saying about white people but believes more towards what Martin Luther King taught so one day he sees an ad in the newspaper for recruiting the KKK members and initially just fucking around he calls and start stalking to the leader of the Colorado Springs chapter and then when they want to meet him face-to-face he actually goes and gets permission from his superiors to open an investigation and they get Adam Driver to go in and be the face behind The Voice. They did a really good job of telling it without just slowly making it look like we are these demons. It gave off the message that hate comes from anywhere and everywhere no matter what color you are.

I agree. Racism and other forms of prejudice exists everywhere.

But for something happier my brother's girlfriend is having her baby today. I'm so happy!::smile::

This calls for some appropriate music!

https://youtu.be/6y4qnQ0tEUE

[LuvablePsycho]

My family is mostly Irish and my brother's girlfriend's family is Italian. I guess that means this is going to be one mouthy little girl that they will be raising. ::big grin::

[Morningriser]

congrats!!!

https://media.giphy.com/media/GCLlQnV7wzKLu/giphy.gif

[LuvablePsycho]

congrats!!!

https://media.giphy.com/media/GCLlQnV7wzKLu/giphy.gif

Thank you! ::smile::I just saw a picture of the baby that my mom sent to my phone and she is so adorable. She has the cutest little tomato-shaped head. ::love::

[Bloof]

Thank you! ::smile::I just saw a picture of the baby that my mom sent to my phone and she is so adorable. She has the cutest little tomato-shaped head. ::love::

Awww. Does this little tomato head have a name yet? Congratulations Uncle!

[Morningriser]

Awww. Does this little tomato head have a name yet?

::big grin::::big grin::::big grin:: thats terrible you guys...

[MovieLover12]

Congratulations, LuvablePsycho!

[LuvablePsycho]

Awww. Does this little tomato head have a name yet? Congratulations Uncle!

Yep she does, they decided on Katie Lee. :-)

[Bloof]

Yep she does, they decided on Katie Lee. :-)

That's very pretty!

[Morningriser]

I got a really weird spark of inspiration last night while watching Family Guy. It was the episode where James Woods invites everyone to his mansion to apologize and the female news lady kills a bunch of people. For some reason I felt inspired and have started coming up with some ideas in my head for a new book about an old man who is extremely rich and he is either dying or has just died. He owns a huge mansion in the Alaskan wilderness where there is nothing for at least 100 miles in any direction except for dense wilderness. The man he has called for his children, two adult males and two adult females, and his grandson from a daughter who died a few years previously. His children were always extremely greedy and we're never nice to him or even had anything to do with him and his elderly years other than trying to get money from him but his grandson who is there always loved and appreciated him. So basically if he is still alive he is going to be there to tell them that he is dying and he has brought them there to choose who will receive his fortune as he is only giving it to one of them. since he knows they have always treated him terribly and were only concerned about his money he tells them that the money is hidden in the mansion and whoever gets to it and can successfully get off the property with it can have it. his children are so greedy that things are going to get really out of hand but that's really all I have so far other than the fact that all of his kids except for the daughter who died were adopted because when the old man was younger he was lonely and he knew women would only take advantage of him so instead of getting married he just adopted the kids but none of them know they were adopted. The daughter who was his came from a woman he fell in love with, the only woman he ever loved but shortly after his daughter was born, The mother died in a car crash. as a coincidence, The daughter also died in a car crash.

[LuvablePsycho]

I got a really weird spark of inspiration last night while watching Family Guy. It was the episode where James Woods invites everyone to his mansion to apologize and the female news lady kills a bunch of people. For some reason I felt inspired and have started coming up with some ideas in my head for a new book about an old man who is extremely rich and he is either dying or has just died. He owns a huge mansion in the Alaskan wilderness where there is nothing for at least 100 miles in any direction except for dense wilderness. The man he has called for his children, two adult males and two adult females, and his grandson from a daughter who died a few years previously. His children were always extremely greedy and we're never nice to him or even had anything to do with him and his elderly years other than trying to get money from him but his grandson who is there always loved and appreciated him. So basically if he is still alive he is going to be there to tell them that he is dying and he has brought them there to choose who will receive his fortune as he is only giving it to one of them. since he knows they have always treated him terribly and were only concerned about his money he tells them that the money is hidden in the mansion and whoever gets to it and can successfully get off the property with it can have it. his children are so greedy that things are going to get really out of hand but that's really all I have so far other than the fact that all of his kids except for the daughter who died were adopted because when the old man was younger he was lonely and he knew women would only take advantage of him so instead of getting married he just adopted the kids but none of them know they were adopted. The daughter who was his came from a woman he fell in love with, the only woman he ever loved but shortly after his daughter was born, The mother died in a car crash. as a coincidence, The daughter also died in a car crash.

Kind of reminds me of an episode in The Twilight Zone called "The Masks", except in that story even the grandchildren of the old man were greedy monsters just like his daughter and her husband. Of course as is the cliche in all these types of stories he brought them to his mansion in his final moments to get his revenge on them for being so greedy.

[Morningriser]

I think I have a rough general idea of how it ends but I don't want to say anything else because I probably said too much already. Big brother is always watching...

[The Villain]

I'll drop it, and every other principle I hold too.

I wasn't trying to do anything but have a conversation. All you've gone and done now is attract the attention of others that'll be blaming me and not you for something that you did.

One more incident and you're done and that's just coming from me. I can't speak for the other moderators

[MovieLover12]

You're over a day late, I've moved on from this and already learned my lesson without being told again.

[The Villain]

You're over a day late, I've moved on from this and already learned my lesson without being told again.

Being told again? I don't see any other responses from other moderators since you started trouble again

[MovieLover12]

There wouldn't any further messages as they hadn't told me again. It was I that knew what would have happened had I carried on again and stopped as I want to be here.

[The Villain]

There wouldn't any further messages as they hadn't told me again. It was I that knew what would have happened had I carried on again and stopped as I want to be here.

So then you weren't told again. I can't read your mind and since no one has said anything to you about your behavior sinde this last incident, I stepped in. This happened after I already told you on a separate issue to just let it go and now you're starting with me again.

[Morningriser]

So then you weren't told again. I can't read your mind and since no one has said anything to you about your behavior sinde this last incident, I stepped in. This happened after I already told you on a separate issue to just let it go and now you're starting with me again.

Unless you are referring to a few pages back when cheeba got after him, no one else has gotten after him and I have ignored him for the most part but one of those messages you quoted him in kind of set me off but I have tried to keep my cool. It's not my place to say anything.

[The Villain]

Unless you are referring to a few pages back when cheeba got after him, no one else has gotten after him and I have ignored him for the most part but one of those messages you quoted him in kind of set me off but I have tried to keep my cool. It's not my place to say anything.

I meant after he started with you, no moderators said anything after that so what he said made no sense

[Morningriser]

So far nothing he has said has made any sense. As far as I know I was being nice to him and I don't even know what he was talking about which is why I think he was just at rolling.

[cheebacheeba]

Everyone.
New leaf. Right now.
This is dominating a conversation where some people want to just come and actually talk a bit of random shit and not dredge up the past.

Move forward and top dwelling on this shit...it's done...either lessons have been learned or they haven't been.
I am sick of coming in here to read all this back and forth.

I don't want to have to erase the whole thread, but I will if I need to.
I don't want to have to give anyone a time out, but I will if I need to.

The only replies I want to see to this are that you all understand, or, nothing at all.

Thank you.

[LuvablePsycho]

So... anybody here like Chinese Food? I can't get enough of that Sesame Street chicken. ::love::

[The Villain]

So... anybody here like Chinese Food? I can't get enough of that Sesame Street chicken. ::love::

Sesame Street chicken makes me think of this

[hammerfan]

Sesame Street chicken makes me think of this

LOL! I had the same thought!

[LuvablePsycho]

Lmao that was pretty much the joke I intended. ::big grin::

Poor Big Bird. ::sad::

[hammerfan]

Can it be Autumn now, please? I hate summer.

[Morningriser]

So... anybody here like Chinese Food? I can't get enough of that Sesame Street chicken. ::love::

I've heard a lot of funny play on words involving Chinese food, mostly General Tso's chicken jokes but I've never heard anyone call it Sesame Street chicken before hahaha with that said I have always been a big fan of lo mein, crab rangoon and egg rolls although I am not very hard to satisfy when it comes to Chinese food.

[The Villain]

Can it be Autumn now, please? I hate summer.

I do too, especially since I work in a stuffy warehouse with no A/C or fans

[LuvablePsycho]

Yeah I hate summer too! I live in Florida so you can imagine how hot it gets here in the summer time, plus my face tends to break out really bad when I'm outside in the heat I think I must have rosacea like my mom does.

[Sculpt]

So... anybody here like Chinese Food? I can't get enough of that Sesame Street chicken. ::love::
Love Chinese food. I don't think I've tasted anything I haven't like so far. I especially like crabragoon, pressed duck, egg rolls and general tso's chicken.

[LuvablePsycho]

Love Chinese food. I don't think I've tasted anything I haven't like so far. I especially like crabragoon, pressed duck, egg rolls and general tso's chicken.

I think my favorites are sesame chicken, general tso's chicken, orange chicken, egg drop soup, and Thailand-style coconut shrimp. I also like getting a big plate of crawdaddies whenever I go to a Chinese food buffet but that's not exactly a uniquely Chinese dish.

[Morningriser]

There is a Chinese restaurant near where I used to live at in Virginia and it was the best Chinese place I ever ate at and I've eaten at Chinese restaurants all over the country. their honey chicken was absolutely to die for and they had a lobster lo mein where it was mostly Lobster meat but they also put shrimp and other meats in it and everything they made was homemade except for probably the egg rolls. I mean they didn't fuck around at that place.

[The Villain]

Submitted a book i wrote to my number one choice for publisher....got rejected.

So pretty bummed about that, weighing my options now. I sent it somewhere else but havent heard anything. Considering doing Create Space on Amazon.

[LuvablePsycho]

There is a Chinese restaurant near where I used to live at in Virginia and it was the best Chinese place I ever ate at and I've eaten at Chinese restaurants all over the country. their honey chicken was absolutely to die for and they had a lobster lo mein where it was mostly Lobster meat but they also put shrimp and other meats in it and everything they made was homemade except for probably the egg rolls. I mean they didn't fuck around at that place.

The best Chinese Restaurant I ever ate at was a place called New Hong Kong in my hometown in Georgia. They had the best sesame chicken and their teriyaki chicken skewers had a delicious sweet red sauce. My whole family would go there to eat all the time.

Sadly the place closed down some time ago. ::sad::

It's actually hard finding a good Chinese restaurant. One place I ate at I actually found a roach cooked into my food which was completely disgusting!

[Sculpt]

Submitted a book i wrote to my number one choice for publisher....got rejected.

So pretty bummed about that, weighing my options now. I sent it somewhere else but havent heard anything. Considering doing Create Space on Amazon.Is your book fiction or non-fiction?
It's actually hard finding a good Chinese restaurant. One place I ate at I actually found a roach cooked into my food which was completely disgusting!
Nasty! A cockroach woud be the worst insect. If I wasnt going to get a free meal from it I might get past some insects, but not the roach.

[Morningriser]

Submitted a book i wrote to my number one choice for publisher....got rejected.

So pretty bummed about that, weighing my options now. I sent it somewhere else but havent heard anything. Considering doing Create Space on Amazon.

I would suggest trying to find an agent first. I had a novella published once by a publisher who was basically publishing anything because it wasn't costing them anything because they wouldn't even print copies of your book unless they sold one online. They refused to promote my work at Book Fairs where they were promoting other authors they represented the works and it was just frustrating. I made the mistake of not trying to find an agent first but when I write my new book I will be sure to do that before I even consider a publisher. Good luck though and don't give up!

[Morningriser]

Bipolar Mania is so terrible... sometimes I just feel like I want the entire universe stop existing all at once. Is anyone else here suffer from bipolar or any other types of mania or depression?

[Bloof]

Bipolar Mania is so terrible... sometimes I just feel like I want the entire universe stop existing all at once. Is anyone else here suffer from bipolar or any other types of mania or depression?

Years ago, i used to suffer from a debilitating form of anxiety. My gp put me on an antidepressant called Effexor. I kept telling her that i wasnt depressed but oddly enough it worked miracles. Im on a very low dose and probably always will be.

[The Villain]

Is your book fiction or non-fiction?

Fiction

I would suggest trying to find an agent first. I had a novella published once by a publisher who was basically publishing anything because it wasn't costing them anything because they wouldn't even print copies of your book unless they sold one online. They refused to promote my work at Book Fairs where they were promoting other authors they represented the works and it was just frustrating. I made the mistake of not trying to find an agent first but when I write my new book I will be sure to do that before I even consider a publisher. Good luck though and don't give up!

I tried an agent awhile back. Didn't work out. Didn't even know people still used agents. I'll have to look into that

[LuvablePsycho]

Bipolar Mania is so terrible... sometimes I just feel like I want the entire universe stop existing all at once. Is anyone else here suffer from bipolar or any other types of mania or depression?

I actually suffer from Bipolar Disorder type 1 and it really does suck so I understand how you feel.

If anything makes me mad even slightly it's like I get so furious that I wish I could just blow up the entire planet. I also tend to get high anxiety and I get extremely manic sometimes.

AND to make things more complicated I also suffer from Asperger's Syndrome...

[MovieLover12]

Asperger Syndrome - diagnosed aged sixteen, while at high school.

[Morningriser]

I tried an agent awhile back. Didn't work out. Didn't even know people still used agents. I'll have to look into that

Everyone who writes famous books you've heard of uses an agent as the agent has the connections to get you a better deal than you can yourself, I just wish I knew that when I got my book published. As long as there is a literary market, agents will always be in demand.

With that said, a good strong query letter is also key as this will give the publisher or agent their first impression of you and your work.

If anything makes me mad even slightly it's like I get so furious that I wish I could just blow up the entire planet. I also tend to get high anxiety and I get extremely manic sometimes.


Oh my god dude you just described my manic episodes to a T. It has ruined a lot for me in life and I fear that because of it I will spend the rest of my life alone.

[LuvablePsycho]

Everyone who writes famous books you've heard of uses an agent as the agent has the connections to get you a better deal than you can yourself, I just wish I knew that when I got my book published. As long as there is a literary market, agents will always be in demand.

With that said, a good strong query letter is also key as this will give the publisher or agent their first impression of you and your work.



Oh my god dude you just described my manic episodes to a T. It has ruined a lot for me in life and I fear that because of it I will spend the rest of my life alone.

Same here. I'm very lucky that I have a Mom who takes care of me by keeping up with my doctor appointments and making sure I take my medication. A lot of people with mental illness like Bipolar Disorder and Schizophrenia don't get any support from their families or from the places that are supposed to help them out which is why they end up on the streets or worse.

I worry every day about what I'm going to do when my mom eventually passes away because I'm not sure that I can take care of myself and I really don't have anybody else. I don't trust my brother or sister to take care of me because they are both very self-centered and I feel like they would both kick me out once they got tired of me. So I really just don't know what to do about the future...

[Morningriser]

I was honestly in the exact same boat you are in more or less. When I lived in Virginia I hated it there. I was originally born at Scott Air Force Base in Illinois but I lived in St Louis until I was 9. Virginia is where my mother grew up so when my father died she and I back there. I never fit in and always wanted to get away but I always end up right back there. I had my grandfather to reply on but I knew I was only the burden on him and I needed to get out and start experiencing life for myself and learn how to be self-sufficient and independent and not be scared to get out on the buses and get around that way. I have been taking a lot of steps forward lately trying to improve my situation and I think I am on the right path. It is very tough and takes a tremendous amount of Bravery to take that step but all I can say is just believe in yourself.

[LuvablePsycho]

I was honestly in the exact same boat you are in more or less. When I lived in Virginia I hated it there. I was originally born at Scott Air Force Base in Illinois but I lived in St Louis until I was 9. Virginia is where my mother grew up so when my father died she and I back there. I never fit in and always wanted to get away but I always end up right back there. I had my grandfather to reply on but I knew I was only the burden on him and I needed to get out and start experiencing life for myself and learn how to be self-sufficient and independent and not be scared to get out on the buses and get around that way. I have been taking a lot of steps forward lately trying to improve my situation and I think I am on the right path. It is very tough and takes a tremendous amount of Bravery to take that step but all I can say is just believe in yourself.

My Mom has been trying to find ways to encourage me to be independent but at the same time I think that part of her is afraid to let me grow up. She' doesn't have anybody else to rely on either and let's just say we come from a very shitty family and nobody really cares about what happens to me or her.

I guess when the time comes I'll just have to look after myself. It helps being aware of the fact that I have Bipolar Disorder because now I am able to control myself better. But I still have moments where I get so angry at people that I just want to rip their heads off.

Oh and I hated the small town where I grew up in Georgia for the same reason. I never fit in or had any friends at all and there was nothing for me to do there except go to school and come home and lock myself in my bedroom watching TV and playing video games all day until my mom got off work. It was a very redneck town full of uptight ignorant people who talk shit behind each other's backs. Not to mention the fact that drugs and alcoholism was everywhere there.

[Morningriser]

It's so weird reading this because it's like I have went through everything that you have. The only person in my family still living who cares about me or my well-being is my grandfather. Other members of my family have never liked me for some reason nor had they ever liked my mother. Who needs them though? I mean if they are going to be assholes like that they are better off staying out of my life anyway. The only way I am able to get through the day sometimes just being optimistic and I try to see the silver lining in everything even when I feel like the whole world is collapsing around me. I tell myself it's just a feeling that I can't control and that it will go away And eventually it does. I normally don't have these episodes when I am on my medicine but I have had trouble getting in to see a psychiatrist But thankfully I'm going to see one next month.

[LuvablePsycho]

It's so weird reading this because it's like I have went through everything that you have. The only person in my family still living who cares about me or my well-being is my grandfather. Other members of my family have never liked me for some reason nor had they ever liked my mother. Who needs them though? I mean if they are going to be assholes like that they are better off staying out of my life anyway. The only way I am able to get through the day sometimes just being optimistic and I try to see the silver lining in everything even when I feel like the whole world is collapsing around me. I tell myself it's just a feeling that I can't control and that it will go away And eventually it does. I normally don't have these episodes when I am on my medicine but I have had trouble getting in to see a psychiatrist But thankfully I'm going to see one next month.

Yeah, I don't feel like you HAVE to love somebody who clearly doesn't love you just because they are blood related. Family isn't about blood relations it's about being there for each other and looking out for one another. I feel like there's very few actual "families" in this world because people are just so damn selfish these days and don't care about anybody else.

There are parents out there who would kick their young children out on the streets for getting knocked up or coming out the closet about their sexuality and there are also children who mooch off their parents for free money but won't lift a finger to help them when they need it most. I think those kinds of people should all be ashamed of themselves.

[Morningriser]

we live in a Very broken and very lazy Society. it's like I said, the human race is devolving when we should be evolving. Technology enslaved us long ago.

[LuvablePsycho]

we live in a Very broken and very lazy Society. it's like I said, the human race is devolving when we should be evolving. Technology enslaved us long ago.

I guess, but then again humans were doing horrible things even before technology became so advanced. Some of the things we used to do to each other was far worse back in the day like witchburning, torturing criminals into confessing, public executions, slavery, blaming rape victims, etc.

I think when it comes down to it humans are and always have been horrible.

But I agree that technology has made us lazy and vulnerable.

[Morningriser]

That's true but I'm just saying I think a lot of what has to do with people's behavior now is what is made available to them. I mean look at what the media is doing for modern society. A lot of people who lash out in violence do it because of something they were influenced by. I don't mean that by saying people should play music and movies and such I mean the media seems to bring every single violent act that happens to the public light which discussed so many people in such ways that they actually lash out. It's an endless cycle of violence brought to you by the media in order to keep the media afloat because without news there is no need for the media.

[LuvablePsycho]

That's true but I'm just saying I think a lot of what has to do with people's behavior now is what is made available to them. I mean look at what the media is doing for modern society. A lot of people who lash out in violence do it because of something they were influenced by. I don't mean that by saying people should play music and movies and such I mean the media seems to bring every single violent act that happens to the public light which discussed so many people in such ways that they actually lash out. It's an endless cycle of violence brought to you by the media in order to keep the media afloat because without news there is no need for the media.

Well I kind of think that people have always been violent but the media has made us more aware of this. A long time ago people didn't see violence unless they were fighting in wars so they thought that things were supposed to be peaceful in their little towns and villages, but now the media has shown us that all sorts of terrible things happen all over the world every day. To top it off we also have movies and video games that teach us that violence is fun and that there are no real consequences to taking another human being's life. So I guess that the media has really desensitized us and made us too cynical about the world. It's like nowadays we don't really care when bad things happen and we don't make any effort to try and make the world better.

[Morningriser]

Well I had an interesting evening. First I went to what was supposed to be this goth fetish fashion show but turned out to be a crock of shit more or less. The club they were having it at had the front door completely locked for some reason and the only way to get in was around the back which took me awhile to figure out but once I did I started going around towards the back but considering it was dark outside and they didn't have any signs or any warning up, I took a step off of a three and a half foot drop in the sidewalk and now I have a pretty brutal scrape on my elbow and three large, very dark bruises on the side of my ass. After I finally got inside I chilled out for a little while when I realize it wasn't a fashion show at all, it was just a few models that were wearing latex outfits walking around, not much originality going on between the few that were there, but regardless I was trying to mingle and they ignored me so I just said fuck it and went to my next place which was the same bar I went to last week but this time BYOB, a System of a Down tribute band and Children of the Korn, a Korn tribute band, where they played a free show. I think I found my hangout spot. It's just too bad that it's all the way on the other side of the city. All these so-called goth places I have been so far all a crock of shit being put on by people just as plastic as their tits.

[Morningriser]

So this is how my elbow looks today. METULLLZ!!!!!!

[LuvablePsycho]

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[Morningriser]

Let's sing the "I Hate People!" song. Ahem

I hate people!

People suck!

They hate me!

I don't give a fuck!

*does an absurdly long guitar solo*::danger::

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[LuvablePsycho]

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See? I'm a poet and don't even know it.::big grin::

[Morningriser]

I just didn't understand the nature of your post, especially considering the stuff that got started the other day over people talking about Acting out in violence and that was just a bit random and came off A little hateful. I just wouldn't want you to get in trouble or anything.

[LuvablePsycho]

I just didn't understand the nature of your post, especially considering the stuff that got started the other day over people talking about Acting out in violence and that was just a bit random and came off A little hateful. I just wouldn't want you to get in trouble or anything.

I was in a really bad mood today and felt like expressing my hate in a crazy and random way. But if that post was too offensive I will edit it. ::smile::

[Morningriser]

I'm not offended at all man. Vent or rant all you need to if you ask me. I just know how some people are About certain things and I wouldn't want someone to take what you were saying the wrong way or just deliberately be a dick or a troll about it. maybe I'm just overthinking things because I myself have been quite manic lately as I haven't had my medicine in a while and can't even get into the psychiatrist until next month so I feel your pain brother.

[LuvablePsycho]

I'm not offended at all man. Vent or rant all you need to if you ask me. I just know how some people are About certain things and I wouldn't want someone to take what you were saying the wrong way or just deliberately be a dick or a troll about it. maybe I'm just overthinking things because I myself have been quite manic lately as I haven't had my medicine in a while and can't even get into the psychiatrist until next month so I feel your pain brother.

Yeah I hate trolls too but luckily I'm getting better at ignoring them on the internet. It really isn't that hard once you get in the habit of not responding to them lol.

I know I shouldn't be so mad about this but I just found out that when we move back to Georgia I'm not getting my own bedroom after all. Me and my younger brother are going to have to share a tiny little bedroom in the cramp two bedroom trailer that we used to live in before moving down to Florida 9 years ago. Our clothes are going to have to fit in the same closet and basically his junk is going to be put in the bedroom with my stuff.

I'm a neat freak with a very organized bedroom full of nice pretty stuff that I've been collecting for a long time and I value my privacy. My brother on the other hand is a complete slob who does not take care of anything or even bother to clean up behind himself.

They promised me that they would build us two separate bedrooms before we moved back and of course that wasn't going to be the case. It's always empty promises! I just know that I'm going to be miserable and go crazy having to move back home like this and it really sucks that I can't do anything about it. ::mad::

[Dead Bad Things]

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone.
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum,
bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let the aeroplanes circle, moaning overhead,
scribbling in the sky the message she is dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

She was my North, my South, my East and West,
my working week and my Sunday rest.
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought love would last forever, I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
pack up the moon and dismantle the sun.
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood,
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

WH Auden

[Morningriser]

I hope you are doing alright DBT. we love you and we are here for you brother.

Well I had a one month and 4 days early birthday celebration yesterday. My Grandpa gave me $200 for my so I bought a USB keyboard for my laptop because it would cost a lot to get it fixed and I really want to start writing again. I bought a silicone water bong because my blind ass can't Keep a glass piece from breaking to save my life. I also got my PlayStation Plus Membership back and pre-ordered Red Dead Redemption 2 and got some Chinese food. I still have a little left over for bus fare and whatever else comes up in the whatever else comes up in the next 2 weeks Until my broke ass gets paid again.

[LuvablePsycho]

I hope you are doing alright DBT. we love you and we are here for you brother.

Well I had a one month and 4 days early birthday celebration yesterday. My Grandpa gave me $200 for my so I bought a USB keyboard for my laptop because it would cost a lot to get it fixed and I really want to start writing again. I bought a silicone water bong because my blind ass can't Keep a glass piece from breaking to save my life. I also got my PlayStation Plus Membership back and pre-ordered Red Dead Redemption 2 and got some Chinese food. I still have a little left over for bus fare and whatever else comes up in the whatever else comes up in the next 2 weeks Until my broke ass gets paid again.

I hope you're doing ok too DBT. I'm sorry about what you are going through and I hope things will be ok.

And congrats on the birthday money Morningriser! My birthday has already passed but I'm hoping that for Christmas I can talk my mom into ordering me Yakuza Kiwami 2 and maybe Shenmue 1 and 2.

Speaking of Christmas, I wonder what I should get my baby niece? I want to get her something special.

The one bright side about moving back home is that at least I will get to be close my new neice. I already love her! I hope she grows up with a better childhood than I had and I want her to know that I will always love her and think she is special. ::love::

[Bloof]

Dbt, good to hear from you. Hope you and your boy are doing as well as can be expected.

Luvable, I'm glad you are going to be able to spend more time with your niece.

[Dead Bad Things]

Thanx y'all...I'm holdin' it together....I'm all fucked up on the inside tho.

I am so thankful for the support shown to me from friends, family and my rainbow family as well..

I had a shitload of overdue horror books due from the library, they had to override the system for me ::big grin::

I'm alright...but I'll never be the same again.

[hammerfan]

Thanx y'all...I'm holdin' it together....I'm all fucked up on the inside tho.

I am so thankful for the support shown to me from friends, family and my rainbow family as well..

I had a shitload of overdue horror books due from the library, they had to override the system for me ::big grin::

I'm alright...but I'll never be the same again.

I may not always write, but, you're constantly in my thoughts.

[Morningriser]

I don't know if it's just in Las Vegas or all over the place now but apparently the goth culture has changed a lot as everyone I have encountered here in Las Vegas who is goth all have the mentality of a celebrity. Meaning if you don't look like someone who is of wealth or importance, they will literally, yes literally shrug their nose at you. They all say the exact same things as if they have a handbook of verbatim things they should respond with. what if they are robots? It would explain how plastic and artificial they really are. if God's people are supposed to generally be self-centered assholes like someone else I know. I guess the people back home just did it for fashion because the people here remind me so much of someone else who is self-centered, sadistic, narcissistic, Beyond egotistical and thinks the universe specifically Exists for them. the funniest thing of all is most of these women here who are goth are mediocre at best which is so funny considering how they seem to base everything on looks and when you meet one of them this is typically what they say to you, hello my name is such and such. I am not attracted how they seem to base everything on looks and when you meet one of them this is typically what they say to you, hello my name is such and such. I am not attracted to you but When you hear that over and over and over it makes you get discouraged and shows you just how ugly the world really is when people who most likely jhave been Through some fucked-up experience in their life to make them that way, hold something so petty against people. There is nothing I despise more than hypocrisy. </rant>

[LuvablePsycho]

I don't know if it's just in Las Vegas or all over the place now but apparently the goth culture has changed a lot as everyone I have encountered here in Las Vegas who is goth I'll have the mentality of a celebrity. Meaning if you don't look like someone who is of wealth or importance, they will literally, yes literally shrug their nose at you. They all say the exact same things as if they have a handbook of verbatim things they should respond with. what if they are robots? It would explain how plastic and artificial they really are. if God's people are supposed to generally be self-centered assholes like someone else I know then I guess the people back home just did it for fashion because the people here remind me so much of someone else who is self-centered, sadistic, Beyond egotistical and thinks the universe specifically Exists for them. the funniest thing of all is most of these women here who are goth are mediocre at best which is so funny considering how they seem to base everything on looks and when you meet one of them this is typically what they say to you, hello my name is such and such. I am not attracted how they seem to base everything on looks and when you meet one of them this is typically what they say to you, hello my name is such and such. I am not attracted to you but When you hear that over and over and over it makes you get discouraged and shows you just how ugly the world really is when people who most likely have been Through some fucked-up experience in their life to make them that way, hold something so petty against people. There is nothing I despise more than hypocrisy.

Well I personally feel like Hipsters are like fake Hippies and Emos are like fake Goths.

They don't really stand for the great things that Hippies and Goths used to be about, they're just a bunch of pretentious materialistic snobs who spend too much money on name brand clothing trying to look cool and feel more special than they really are.

[Morningriser]

That's the way I always look at it and that's the way the women around here are. They care more about their image. It's like goth is a uniform to them. When I was in high school and in my early twenties I went out of my way to be all trendy and look the part but I grew out of that and I am going to be 37 years old next month appearance to know who I am. I mean realistically these women around here who are my age and still dress like they are trying to the Corvette and High School are most likely deep down empty inside and so Bland and boring that even with them being attractive as is, they feel the need to put on an eccentric appearance To draw in people. I mean They are all narcissistic and very manipulative.

[LuvablePsycho]

That's the way I always look at it and that's the way the women around here are. They care more about their image. It's like goth is a uniform to them. When I was in high school and in my early twenties I went out of my way to be all trendy and look the part but I grew out of that and I am going to be 37 years old next month appearance to know who I am. I mean realistically these women around here who are my age and still dress like they are trying to the Corvette and High School are most likely deep down empty inside and so Bland and boring that even with them being attractive as is, they feel the need to put on an eccentric appearance To draw in people. I mean They are all narcissistic and very manipulative.
I can honestly say I never tried to dress to impress. I dressed for comfort and I always wear the same style: T-shirts, shorts, and flipflops.

I have no sense of style lol.

[Sculpt]

I don't know if it's just in Las Vegas or all over the place now but apparently the goth culture has changed a lot as everyone I have encountered here in Las Vegas who is goth all have the mentality of a celebrity. Meaning if you don't look like someone who is of wealth or importance, they will literally, yes literally shrug their nose at you. They all say the exact same things as if they have a handbook of verbatim things they should respond with. what if they are robots? It would explain how plastic and artificial they really are. if God's people are supposed to generally be self-centered assholes like someone else I know. I guess the people back home just did it for fashion because the people here remind me so much of someone else who is self-centered, sadistic, narcissistic, Beyond egotistical and thinks the universe specifically Exists for them. the funniest thing of all is most of these women here who are goth are mediocre at best which is so funny considering how they seem to base everything on looks and when you meet one of them this is typically what they say to you, hello my name is such and such. I am not attracted how they seem to base everything on looks and when you meet one of them this is typically what they say to you, hello my name is such and such. I am not attracted to you but When you hear that over and over and over it makes you get discouraged and shows you just how ugly the world really is when people who most likely jhave been Through some fucked-up experience in their life to make them that way, hold something so petty against people. There is nothing I despise more than hypocrisy. </rant>
Sorry to hear you're running into that so much. A lot of people don't seem to value anything but looks, wealth and fame. But I'm happy to know lots of people who look past looks and value many other things.

[Morningriser]

Yeah they are out there but unfortunately Las Vegas is Hollywood's playground so naturally everyone around here would carry that stigma. I mean I guess it just comes with the territory and knowing that anyone out here that would put that much into their look it's doing it for superficial reasons and seem to hold some sense of entitlement because they're over inflated egos won't allow them to See the world any other way. We live in a plastic Society.

[LuvablePsycho]

I live in the South. Nobody here really cares about looks or money but we are the Bible Belt and if you don't go to church or pretend to believe in Jesus like everybody else then the people here really do look down on you...

I guess every place has it's problems. ::big grin::

[Morningriser]

Where I used to live at in Virginia was similar only they thought they were way too big for their britches. I live in a town up in that tip in Virginia where Kentucky is on one side and West Virginia is on the other. We had a state championship wrestling team in high school for 27 years in a row I believe so naturally Our Town thought it was better than Jesus even though if you don't believe in Jesus you might as well be the devil. people always treated me differently there even from the time I first moved there as a small child from St Louis and I was viewed as an outsider by everyone even though that's where my mother was born and raised. I never felt right there and on top of that everyone was Christians and not just Christians but Southern Baptist Christians who many would describe as religious extremists in some of their methods. I feel really weird and out of place in Las Vegas as well now but to be fair I just moved it to thousand miles away from home and I've only been here for 3 months now. It's a learning experience and I'm not even sure that I'm going to want to live here the remainder of my days as I just love to Travel and there is still so much out there for me to see. I spent so much time in my life focusing on wanting companionship or friends and I've realized that if all I ever do is Chase dreams then I'm going to miss out on reality.

[LuvablePsycho]

Where I used to live at in Virginia was similar only they thought they were way too big for their britches. I live in a town up in that tip in Virginia where Kentucky is on one side and West Virginia is on the other. We had a state championship wrestling team in high school for 27 years in a row I believe so naturally Our Town thought it was better than Jesus even though if you don't believe in Jesus you might as well be the devil. people always treated me differently there even from the time I first moved there as a small child from St Louis and I was viewed as an outsider by everyone even though that's where my mother was born and raised. I never felt right there and on top of that everyone was Christians and not just Christians but Southern Baptist Christians who many would describe as religious extremists in some of their methods. I feel really weird and out of place in Las Vegas as well now but to be fair I just moved it to thousand miles away from home and I've only been here for 3 months now. It's a learning experience and I'm not even sure that I'm going to want to live here the remainder of my days as I just love to Travel and there is still so much out there for me to see. I spent so much time in my life focusing on wanting companionship or friends and I've realized that if all I ever do is Chase dreams then I'm going to miss out on reality.

I think all small towns in the South are like that when it comes to sports, especially football. My high school thought that their little football team was the greatest thing on earth and of course I never gave a damn about football or any other sports.

I wasn't exactly raised with religion but I did used to go to Sunday school at a Southern Baptist church myself before I decided to quit going and gradually became an atheist. I think the thing that turned me away from religion the most was when I started to realize that I was gay. I've had to put up with so many people treating me bad and telling me that homosexuals needed to die and burn in hell and all that other crap. So I decided a long time ago that I wasn't going to believe in a God who says that I'm going to hell for something that I KNOW for a fact is not a choice. I didn't choose to be gay I was born that way. Believe me if I could have made the choice to be straight (or at least bisexual) it would have solved so many problems in my life.

But I think I need to quit ranting about my own personal feelings about religion lol.

[Morningriser]

I'm sure you're not the only one here who has issues with or has struggled with religion at some point in your life. I just found it pretty. The way everyone acted back home in regards to how crazy they would act but then think it would be okay because they are a Christian and they can just ask for forgiveness. I mean I have known people that are so fucking batshit crazy they would tell me that they would killer kids that God told him to do it. This same crazy-ass Fruit Loop tried to say that whenever she saw evil people she could see them as literal demons and this same lady cheated on her husband, the second highest ranking police officer in the county, with someone who had no job, no intention on trying to find a job and someone who's just leech off of them and had no problems taking and breaking bread with the man who was going out risking his life everyday to support his family while his wife was getting fucked while he was at work. Their excuse? They are Christians and they are not perfect but they can ask for forgiveness and God will forgive them. I just love how they use that as an excuse. Seeing as how Christianity and started three Crusades leaving Millions if not more dead in the name of God. I'm just wondering when are we going to get a Fourth Crusade where everyone who isn't Christian just goes after everyone who is... I mean it the world's going to get nuts why can't we at least get nuts in the right way for once? We are going to wipe someone out by not someone who would actually benefit the world being gone? Sorry... I also get really worked up and bent out of shape over religion. It's nothing more than a system of control through fear and a way to make money. I mean if Joel Osteen isn't proof of that I don't know what it is. I wish someone would pay me 128 million dollars every 5 years so I can stand in front of everyone and tell them lies and have them and one every word as if I am Jim Jones or something.

[LuvablePsycho]

Yeah I figured out a long time ago that the vast majority of Christians are hypocrites. They say that murder is a sin yet so many people throughout history have been executed and killed in wars all in the name of God and Jesus. They say only God can judge people and yet they themselves are always quick to judge people for not living up to their standards. Some Christians would even try to drive you into committing suicide for not being perfect because the sheer act of being human is a sin and then mock you saying that you are going to hell because suicide is an unforgivable sin. And I totally agree with you about Christians thinking that they can do bad things all they want and it will be all be OK because God will personally forgive them just because they believe in Jesus. I see that kind of thing all the time.

I feel like the religion itself borders on narcissism.

[Morningriser]

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[cheebacheeba]

Sorry morningriser. No drug paraphenalia to be posted on the main page/s yeah?
I'd usually like to take a look...though posting such pics on here isn't really gonna fly.
Feel free to talk about it, and/or show me or any other interested parties in message though.

Well, today we were going to take River to see her first movie. Local cinema was showing the Lion King again. As you can tell I'm talking in past tense.
She decided to pull the "not listen to anything or follow any directions at all or eat her breakfast" 4 year old type shit...so we are teaching her about consequences and the importance of listening.
Maybe next time.

[LuvablePsycho]

I can't wait to see my baby neice. I can't believe how much she looks like my brother in those pictures! I guess we have strong genes in our family lol.

[Morningriser]

I never really knew that was a rule here but okay... I live in a legal State now but I will keep that in mind.

[Scarecrows]

Taking each day as it comes...Life sucks right now::sad::

[Morningriser]

Taking each day as it comes...Life sucks right now::sad::

It sounds cliche but all we can do is hang in there. Believe me, I I am hanging on for dear life at times but at the end of the day that's all we can do.

[Dead Bad Things]

Naw man fuck hangin'...you gotta keep grindin'...get yer game up tight Scrows.

[LuvablePsycho]

When I'm feeling down I think about people who are worse off than me, and then I go visit them. ::devil::

Haha just kidding I'm not that mean. ::stick out tongue::

[Dead Bad Things]

Dig this vulture feather I came up on the other day...

[The Villain]

Sorry morningriser. No drug paraphenalia to be posted on the main page/s yeah?
I'd usually like to take a look...though posting such pics on here isn't really gonna fly.
Feel free to talk about it, and/or show me or any other interested parties in message though.

Well, today we were going to take River to see her first movie. Local cinema was showing the Lion King again. As you can tell I'm talking in past tense.
She decided to pull the "not listen to anything or follow any directions at all or eat her breakfast" 4 year old type shit...so we are teaching her about consequences and the importance of listening.
Maybe next time.

4 years old? You're brave. I didnt take any of my kids to the movies until i think 6. They didnt really understand the concept of being quiet until then and my stepson still cant really control his volume even at 9.

[LuvablePsycho]

4 years old? You're brave. I didnt take any of my kids to the movies until i think 6. They didnt really understand the concept of being quiet until then and my stepson still cant really control his volume even at 9.

My brother can't control his volume and he's 25. ::big grin::

[LuvablePsycho]

Dig this vulture feather I came up on the other day...

That's pretty cool!

I once found a bunch of peacock feathers at the zoo. I wish I still had them

[Dead Bad Things]

Nothin' like death to make me wanna do the reproductive boogie...
An old lover of mine from 20 years ago just recently got a hold of me...oh how we used to ball ::smile::
Is it too early for me to get back in the game? Is there such a thing as coincidence?

[cheebacheeba]

4 years old? You're brave. I didnt take any of my kids to the movies until i think 6. They didnt really understand the concept of being quiet until then and my stepson still cant really control his volume even at 9.

It's a "bring young kids" type session, and the tickets are only 5 bucks so I figure if it becomes a shitshow we can just walk on it.
She's usually pretty good though. Took her to a funeral like a year ago.

[LuvablePsycho]

Nothin' like death to make me wanna do the reproductive boogie...
An old lover of mine from 20 years ago just recently got a hold of me...oh how we used to ball ::smile::
Is it too early for me to get back in the game? Is there such a thing as coincidence?

I wouldn't know. I have never been in a relationship. ::stick out tongue::

[Bloof]

Nothin' like death to make me wanna do the reproductive boogie...
An old lover of mine from 20 years ago just recently got a hold of me...oh how we used to ball ::smile::
Is it too early for me to get back in the game? Is there such a thing as coincidence?

Lol, your first line...thats not the first time i've heard people having that reaction. I say go for it...but slowly. That way you wont do something you might regret later. ::love::

[Morningriser]

Nothin' like death to make me wanna do the reproductive boogie...
An old lover of mine from 20 years ago just recently got a hold of me...oh how we used to ball ::smile::
Is it too early for me to get back in the game? Is there such a thing as coincidence?


that's a tough one and I wouldn't know how to answer that for you but I personally know if I went through what you have I would probably not be able to do anything with anyone for a while but it's not about me, it's about you and how you feel because only you know what you need but like I said I personally wouldn't do it because while a loved one has never died while I was with them, someone I cared greatly for cheated on me and broke my heart so I'm more or less had to treat it as if she was dead in order to get over her. it's a tough situation and I'm sure you will be able to work it all out In the end.

...and nice picture, you little stinker ::big grin::

[Dead Bad Things]

I guess RZ said it best...Mars needs women. ::devil::

[Dead Bad Things]

The brain had its own food on which it battened, and the imagination,
made grotesque by terror, twisted and distorted as a living thing by pain,
danced like some foul puppet on a stand and grinned through moving masks.

Oscar Wilde The Picture of Dorian Gray (1890)

[hammerfan]

Please, summer, go the fuck away. I'm done with you!

[Morningriser]

Please, summer, go the fuck away. I'm done with you!

before moving to Las Vegas, the hottest weather I can remember ever being in was either 103 or 104. I believe the hottest it has been since I have been in Vegas is 117 degrees. Needless to say I have spent the better part of the summer indoors. the Mojave Desert is no joke and Las Vegas is only an hour and 45 minutes from Death Valley, the average hottest place in the country, in addition to the area that the Manson family hid out until they were arrested.

[hammerfan]

before moving to Las Vegas, the hottest weather I can remember ever being in was either 103 or 104. I believe the hottest it has been since I have been in Vegas is 117 degrees. Needless to say I have spent the better part of the summer indoors. the Mojave Desert is no joke and Las Vegas is only an hour and 45 minutes from Death Valley, the average hottest place in the country, in addition to the area that the Manson family hid out until they were arrested.

Ugh, no thanks. I'm thinking about moving to Alaska!

[Morningriser]

I didn't really feel like creating a whole thread about this, but apparently what was at first believed to be a remake, the Rock is now going to produce and star in a sequel to Big Trouble in Little China. I'm not sure how I feel about this.

[Angra]

I didn't really feel like creating a whole thread about this, but apparently what was at first believed to be a remake, the Rock is now going to produce and star in a sequel to Big Trouble in Little China. I'm not sure how I feel about this.

Get used to the rock, he’s gonna be your future President.

[Morningriser]

Get used to the rock, he’s gonna be your future President.

And this is what we have become. The American populace would rather a celebrity run the country because we like characters they play, because apparently some people think that's who they really are. it's disgusting and makes me question not only the Integrity of the American population, but the mental state as well. Politicians are groomed their entire lives to handle such responsibilities. They are all crooked as hell and have their own agendas obviously, but the point is, they at least still have certain disciplines that celebrities who think because of who they are they can gain the popular vote because they are famous, don't really know much more than what they've learned since they got the sudden idea they wanted to be president because Donald Trump became president. Hell, even Bruce Jenner or whatever the fuck it calls itself wants to run for president. This country is a joke and believe me, if I had the money to move and be able to quickly get a job and not worry about potentially going completely blind one day, I would leave this country in the dust. The government does give me my disability so I am thankful to them for that, but slave owners also paid their slaves.

[LuvablePsycho]

The U.S.A. has become a country based off a movie or based off a TV show. I guess that's our biggest problem is that we are easily influenced by the media and we can't seem to separate movies and television from reality.

Also it disgusts me the way our celebrities have fans who really do believe that they should be able to get away with thinks like rape and murder. Like Bill Cosby for example. I get so sick of hearing his fans defend him because they think that the character he played on The Cosby Show couldn't possibly do that kind of thing and all of these many women who are coming out about what he did are just being evil to their favorite actor.

Talk about a rape culture... ::roll eyes::

[Bloof]

Get used to the rock, he’s gonna be your future President.

That would be funny except I wouldn't be surprised if it happened, in all honesty.

[MovieLover12]

Goldman Sachs will be paying for his campaign!

[LuvablePsycho]

That would be funny except I wouldn't be surprised if it happened, in all honesty.

The Simpsons predicted that Arnold Schwarzenegger would be president and we know that a lot of their predictions have come true

In fact I think they were the ones who actually predicted that Donald Trump would become president and that our country would become completely broke after he finished his term in office. I wonder if that's really going to happen to us?

[Morningriser]

That would be funny except I wouldn't be surprised if it happened, in all honesty.

that's exactly what I said about Donald Trump from the moment he announced He was running. I said he would get elected for the soul novelty of it. That's what our country has become, a novelty.

[LuvablePsycho]

that's exactly what I said about Donald Trump from the moment he announced He was running. I said he would get elected for the soul novelty of it. That's what our country has become, a novelty.

A country based off a movie. ::smile::

[hammerfan]

The Simpsons predicted that Arnold Schwarzenegger would be president and we know that a lot of their predictions have come true

He can't, you have to be born in the U.S. to be president.

[Dead Bad Things]

Early warning signs of fascism:

Powerful and continuing nationalism

Disdain for human rights

Identification of enemies as a unifying cause

Supremacy of the military

Rampant sexism

Controlled mass media

Obsession with national security

Religion and government intertwined

Corporate power protected

Labor power suppressed

Disdain for intellectuals and the arts

Obsession with crime and punishment

Rampant cronyism and corruption

Fraudulent elections

[LuvablePsycho]

Early warning signs of fascism:

Powerful and continuing nationalism

Disdain for human rights

Identification of enemies as a unifying cause

Supremacy of the military

Rampant sexism

Controlled mass media

Obsession with national security

Religion and government intertwined

Corporate power protected

Labor power suppressed

Disdain for intellectuals and the arts

Obsession with crime and punishment

Rampant cronyism and corruption

Fraudulent elections


I definently agree about the rampant sexism. Our society now seems to hate women more than ever. The fact that we elected a misogynistic pig as our president who insults women and their female body problems is proof of that.

[Morningriser]

Yes I agree as well... Everything nowadays is sexualized. I mean there are even people in this country who will base their friendships off of whether or not they find you sexually attractive. I see it every day here in Las Vegas. Thanks to the media putting off the presentation of what is socially acceptable and unacceptable has desensitized men and women alike 2 crave and obsess over sex as if it's the only thing in life that matters. I mean it's been put on a pedestal and celebrity dies in a way. Sex is fun, don't get me wrong, but that is just one of all the billions and billions of things humans do and or are capable of doing. The media however has made it seem like sex is something that should be reserved for only a certain class of people because if you are fat or ugly or have any physical imperfections, you are a reject and a defect to this image of what America should be in which I call the fourth Reich. We can call ourselves a democracy all we want but it doesn't change the fact that masks are being worn by commies on Capitol Hill.

[LuvablePsycho]

Yes I agree as well... Everything nowadays is sexualized. I mean there are even people in this country who will base their friendships off of whether or not they find you sexually attractive. I see it every day here in Las Vegas. Thanks to the media putting off the presentation of what is socially acceptable and unacceptable has desensitized men and women alike 2 crave and obsess over sex as if it's the only thing in life that matters. I mean it's been put on a pedestal and celebrity dies in a way. Sex is fun, don't get me wrong, but that is just one of all the billions and billions of things humans do and or are capable of doing. The media however has made it seem like sex is something that should be reserved for only a certain class of people because if you are fat or ugly or have any physical imperfections, you are a reject and a defect to this image of what America should be in which I call the fourth Reich. We can call ourselves a democracy all we want but it doesn't change the fact that masks are being worn by commies on Capitol Hill.

I kind of think of Americans as being like the ancient Egyptians or ancient Romans. We have an obsession with physical beauty so we portray our people as being more beautiful and attractive than they really are.

Think about the carved statues and paintings of beautiful people in those cultures, and then think about how Hollywood portrays Americans in their movies as these gorgeous people who wear the best clothes and are always neatly trimmed with nice muscle tone. We all know that the majority of Americans do NOT look anything like the ones you see in movies.

[MovieLover12]

Early warning signs of fascism:

Powerful and continuing nationalism

Disdain for human rights

Identification of enemies as a unifying cause

Supremacy of the military

Rampant sexism

Controlled mass media

Obsession with national security

Religion and government intertwined

Corporate power protected

Labor power suppressed

Disdain for intellectuals and the arts

Obsession with crime and punishment

Rampant cronyism and corruption

Fraudulent elections


Nine of the above fourteen points makes up Tory Britain right now!

[LuvablePsycho]

Speaking of sexism, it seems like in the old days people didn't take advantage of females like they do now.

Take prostitution for example. Back in the days when it was tolerated it was usually women who ran and owned the local brothels. They looked out for their girls and made sure they were taken care of and if a customer caused any trouble they would toss his ass out.

But now it's always male pimps with connections to organized crime and human trafficking who run these prostitutes. Young girls (and even boys) are kidnapped off the streets and forced into selling their bodies by men who keep all of the money and in return give them drugs and force them to live in such horrible conditions. Many of these modern-day prostitutes end up dead because of this.

Women in the old days may not have had the right to vote, but at least they weren't being taken advantage of the way they are now.

[Morningriser]

you're wrong there man. women had it terribly all through history up until the last century. In the older days women were treated like animals and raped and murdered and whatever else the men's self it whenever they saw fit to do it and there were no laws to prevent them from doing so. I mean women have spent the better part of History being completely victimized and whatever rather disgusting despicable unspeakable words you can think of. it does still happen in parts of the world but now there are still certain laws in place and for the few places where there are no laws, They all deserve to be drugged out in the streets and shot in the head execution-style if you ask me. This world has no Law and Order in it anymore and extreme and harsh punishments Should be brought back like the days of the medieval torture methods. I believe in an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth. If someone slaps you, don't turn the other cheek, with all of your might strike their other cheek off their faces.

As for Pimps, I wonder if maybe they started as a form of security for the women but now I have no idea considering how I see some of these guys treating The women who work for them. it tells me they are the kind of men who would never get involved in a one-on-one fist fight with another man without powering and simultaneously pissing and shitting themself all along crying like a Little kid. that's how cowardly men feel powerful. Men who control him beat women do it because they can't do it to other men because they are Completely Weak and Powerless to stand up to someone they leave you as an equal or stronger than them.

[LuvablePsycho]

you're wrong there man. women had it terribly all through history up until the last century. In the older days women were treated like animals and raped and murdered and whatever else the men's self it whenever they saw fit to do it and there were no laws to prevent them from doing so. I mean women have spent the better part of History being completely victimized and whatever rather disgusting despicable unspeakable words you can think of. it does still happen in parts of the world but now there are still certain laws in place and for the few places where there are no laws, They all deserve to be drugged out in the streets and shot in the head execution-style if you ask me. This world has no Law and Order in it anymore and extreme and harsh punishments Should be brought back like the days of the medieval torture methods. I believe in an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth. If someone slaps you, don't turn the other cheek, with all of your might strike their other cheek off their faces.

As for Pimps, I wonder if maybe they started as a form of security for the women but now I have no idea considering how I see some of these guys treating The women who work for them. it tells me they are the kind of men who would never get involved in a one-on-one fist fight with another man without powering and simultaneously pissing and shitting themself all along crying like a Little kid. that's how cowardly men feel powerful. Men who control him beat women do it because they can't do it to other men because they are Completely Weak and Powerless to stand up to someone they leave you as an equal or stronger than them.

Well you're right, in general women have always been treated like shit throughout history. But what I said about brothels was true, they were ran better in the old days when they were more legal and it was the women in charge of operating them compared to the illegal crack motel-type brothels full of human trafficking victims that we have now.

In fact the brothels in New Orleans were notorious for murdering the customers who caused trouble for the ladies who worked there. Those women would slit your throat and then take everything valuable you had on you.

And the pimps who run prostitutes today are more dangerous than you seem to realize. They keep those women working for them by threatening to murder their families if they go running to the authorities and they murder their own women all the time, and they will have the guys who work for them murdered too.

Human traffickers are no joking matter.

[Morningriser]

Believe me I know exactly what you mean. I'm living in one of the hubs and Mecca's for prostitution right now and I see pimps literally dragging their women around all the time and then hearing them get mad and yell at them because they don't call them Daddy. it makes me sick and makes me wish that if people were going to get Brave and go out and shoot a bunch of people they would at least do it vigilante-style and kill these worthless pimps. I mean seriously... How come people that go nuts have to go shoot up schools and places with innocent people when there are literally diseases walking this Earth that would love nothing more than to kill us all simply because they think it would be funny because their brains won't allow them to think anything otherwise.

[LuvablePsycho]

Believe me I know exactly what you mean. I'm living in one of the hubs and Mecca's for prostitution right now and I see pimps literally dragging their women around all the time and then hearing them get mad and yell at them because they don't call them Daddy. it makes me sick and makes me wish that if people were going to get Brave and go out and shoot a bunch of people they would at least do it vigilante-style and kill these worthless pimps. I mean seriously... How come people that go nuts have to go shoot up schools and places with innocent people when there are literally diseases walking this Earth that would love nothing more than to kill us all simply because they think it would be funny because their brains won't allow them to think anything otherwise.

I completely agree with what you're saying and it's so ****ed up. When people snap they would rather take their anger out on the innocent instead of destroying the scum who make the world so unbearable for all of us.

Life is so unfair. It could be better if people made an effort to make it better but nobody seems to want to do that.

[Dead Bad Things]

My forest is dark, the trees are sad and all the butterflies have broken wings.

[Dead Bad Things]

We cannot stop the birds of sorrow from flying overhead, we can only prevent them from making nests in our hair.

[LuvablePsycho]

But a bird in your hair is worth two in a bush, or something like that.::wink::

[MovieLover12]

When the going gets tough....remember to sharpen the knives you'll need for later!

[Morningriser]

I still have to wait until next May before I can qualify for in state college tuition, but once I am able to do that I have decided what I want to do. I'm going to finish my associate's degree and then I'm going to transfer to UNLV and study creative writing. They offer from a Degree up to a doctor of literature. I realize that doctor degree is a pipe dream but I plan to push this as far as I possibly can and push myself harder than I have ever push myself towards anything and I want to apply what I learn pursuing my degree in my writing and Use it to possibly become a teacher of literature someday. That would be amazing for me!

[Bloof]

I still have to wait until next May before I can qualify for in state college tuition, but once I am able to do that I have decided what I want to do. I'm going to finish my associate's degree and then I'm going to transfer to UNLV and study creative writing. They offer from a Degree up to a doctor of literature. I realize that doctor degree is a pipe dream but I plan to push this as far as I possibly can and push myself harder than I have ever push myself towards anything and I want to apply what I learn pursuing my degree in my writing and Use it to possibly become a teacher of literature someday. That would be amazing for me!

Morning, that would be awesome. I have always regretted never getting a formal education. I didnt even finish highschool. ::sad::

[LuvablePsycho]

I finished high school but never got to go to college.

[Morningriser]

Morning, that would be awesome. I have always regretted never getting a formal education. I didnt even finish highschool. ::sad::

I went to Community College once before and got about 2/3 of the way done with my associate's degree but I was living with my girlfriend at the time and she was my only way to and from school. The last few years she and I were together things were really Rocky and I had to drop out of school because I had to rely on her to get to and from school and she never would take me so I kept having to drop my classes. Now I am in Las Vegas though and when my lease is up I'm going to move across town closer to the Community College and by then I will be able to get in-state tuition so I'm going to finish my associate's degree and then I will be able to transfer to UNLV which is only about 10 or 15 miles south of me
. I have already wasted way too much of my life. I turned 37 years old and just over three weeks so it's time for me to start to take charge of my life instead of just sitting around feeling sorry for myself and waiting for the world to just hand me something because let's face the facts, that's not going to happen.

[Dead Bad Things]

37!?...Shoot, you better apply to the nursin' home instead of college you old fart.

[LuvablePsycho]

I used to work in a nursing home. It was always so depressing whenever a patient died and we had to break the news to their roomates.

"Guess who's getting two desserts tonight?"

[Morningriser]

37!?...Shoot, you better apply to the nursin' home instead of college you old fart.

Why I oughta shake my fist at you sonny boy...

hyZaUwG50zI


"Guess who's getting two desserts tonight?"

I would probably be the sick fuck who says yay.

Has anyone noticed we are on page 666?

[Dead Bad Things]

I am a frayed and nibbled survivor in a fallen world, and I am getting along.
I am aging and eaten and have done my share of eating too.

I am not washed and beautiful in control of a shining world in which everything fits, but instead I am wandering awed about on a splintered wreck I've come to care for.

Whose gnawed trees trees breathe a delicate air, whose bloodied and scarred creatures are my dearest companions, and whose beauty bats and shines not in its imperfections but overwhelmingly in spite of them.

[LuvablePsycho]

Has anyone noticed we are on page 666?

The Mark of the Beast err...ie Beastie Boys! Yeah that must be it. ::smile::

[Morningriser]

I ate my first-ever weed brownie yesterday. It was complimentary so I knew it wouldn't be too strong but it was strong enough to make me feel good and relaxed all day long.

In my euphoric state I think I realized my dream. I want to be a journalist who can travel the world and explore new places and cultures like Anthony Bourdain and be able to write about them like Hunter S Thompson, without a biased opinion and being able to show the positives and negatives to everything rather than sugar coating everything and putting on a false pretense. That's what's wrong with this world, too many falsehoods and I want to change that by making the world more aware of what it is doing to itself, but also all the beauty that really lies out there and people are just willing to open their eyes and look for it.

[LuvablePsycho]

Well I always believed that beauty is in the eye of the beholder. You can't make everybody respect your opinion on all the different cultures in the world because people are always going to have different preferences. It's better to educate people on the different cultures than it is to give an honest unbiased opinion about all of them. A real opinion should be left out of things like that.

[Morningriser]

Well I always believed that beauty is in the eye of the beholder. You can't make everybody respect your opinion on all the different cultures in the world because people are always going to have different preferences. It's better to educate people on the different cultures than it is to give an honest unbiased opinion about all of them. A real opinion should be left out of things like that.

That's true, but if I could enlighten or inspire just one person, I feel like my efforts will have paid off.

[LuvablePsycho]

I just watched Santa Clause and the Ice Cream Bunny on Rifftrax.

To think that my mom was actually a little kid in the decade when that movie was made. Good thing so many people probably never actually saw the movie. ::big grin::

I kind of wish I could have visited that Pirate World amusement park though...... That horse ride looked fun!

[Morningriser]

Well I had quite the day... today was supposed to be my first therapy session and it was clear on the west side of the city. It was so out west that it was literally the last bus stop on that road. not long after I left my apartment I got a text from a therapist telling me her child was sick and she was going to be an hour late. I was a little annoyed as I was going to be arriving a little early anyway but I didn't really let it bother me. I got to the place and had the most wonderful view of Mount Charleston so I took a couple pictures and then went inside and filled out my paperwork and waited. about 45 minutes before the appointment was supposed to start I got a second text from the therapist telling me that she couldn't find a babysitter for her child and that even she is getting sick. She apologized and told me that once she can reschedule that my first appointment will be free for the inconvenience so I guess I can't be too upset or think that she was just sticking around with me. This therapy place I go to is for young interns who just graduated and are using the place to gain experience and credentials before going and working in bigger offices.

so on my way back home, I was at the bus stop waiting and There was this black guy who asked when the next bus was coming. There were a few others at the bus stop but I had just looked For myself so I told him. he then started saying something smart ass about how no one else would answer him and then another white guy who was waiting on the bus said something completely non-confrontational, more or less just agreeing to the conversation but the black guy took it as confrontational and claimed the guy interrupted our conversation which I was unaware we were having but regardless the black guy got in the white guy's face and put his fingers right in his face and even at one point Threatened to pull a gun out of his backpack. The white guy had visible prison tattoos and even told him that he just got done doing 5 years I was ready to beat his ass because he started taking his rings off and his watch off and I thought it was going to get real for a minute but the black guy just kept screaming and calling him cracker while all along Saying shit like, you were interrupting my conversation with my friend. I don't know this guy and I hated the fact that he kept bringing me into it and I really didn't appreciate the fact that he was sitting there slurring me as well but then also making Some kind of assumption that I am his friend. this is ridiculous. Racism is one thing but disrespect Is another. It's fucking people like this That is making this country so terrible. I mean I may be legally blind but I am considering going and getting registered to carry a gun since people Do that to me. The first mention of a gun to me I would shove mind right in their face and tell them to shut the fuck up or do something and if The first mention of a gun to me I would shove mind right in their face and tell them to shut the fuck up or do something and if they pull a gun on me, you bet your ass I would shoot them dead in self-defense. I'm not scared of them.

[LuvablePsycho]

You know what I realized about black people a long time ago? They are just as human as everybody else. Some are decent people and some are just plain bad people. But it seems to me like conservatives think they are all bad people who commit crimes and liberals think they are all innocent victims of white oppression. It's like nobody wants to accept the fact that they can be either good or bad. And I bet the ones who really are decent people would have been very offended by how that guy was acting on the bus. They hate thugs like him just as much as white people do.

[Morningriser]

Believe me I know what you mean, but since I have been in Las Vegas I have seen far too many occasions where these thugs completely take things out of context and some weird warped alternative reality kind of way that otherwise makes no sense and get in people's faces acting like they want to murder them And it has always and I mean always been a black person doing it to a white person. Why? I blame the parents for not raising their kids to know the difference between right and wrong and I want to know at what point is someone going to stop and see what this is doing to our country. All of this race war shit is making everyone paranoid which makes everyone trigger happy which makes everyone a lot more tempted by the mainstream media to put a bullet in someone without question thinking they are secretly wanting to do the same the say causes panic and fear and chaos. At what point will the world stop being so fucking stupid and naive? Well I do have my opinions, I don't consider myself a racist which is why I'm not really viewing this as a racist thing. I'm sure that guy would have went off on anyone no matter what color they were if he happens to get rubbed the wrong way by them but I think people like that who are so adamant about showing such blatant and chaotic disrespect need to have their teeth knocked down their throat and be shown that their color doesn't Define who they are or what they can and can't do and despite their mile-high egos, they are not God. When are people going to stand up for themselves and start teaching these motherfuckers that they can't just running around taking shit's on whoever they want. there was a time when America didn't work that way and it needs to start working that way again because we are becoming too scared and letting these parasites run over top of us and I'm not just talking about black people I'm talking about anyone who has to leech off of any possible thing they can because they are too pathetic to do anything for their own lives without taking from others whether it be possessions or emotions. To quote Billy Corgan, the world is a vampire.

[Dead Bad Things]

Wow...ya know I been livin' in MT. for about 25 years, but I was born in OH.
Racial tensions are a given..don't matter if you cool or not cool on the streets it don't mean shit....Riser come on man, you ain't no mark. That guy was just an agitator/bullshit artist tryin' to see what your made of that's all..Maybe you should start with a stun gun since you blind.

[Morningriser]

It just deeply sickens me that the human race has come to the point where people not only act like that, they do it at such a high alarming rate that it is literally altering the state of mind of the American population at Large. That is not normal and in a way could be considered a form of terrorism.

[LuvablePsycho]

You know I'm so lucky I've never had to experience anything like that. I've lived in Georgia and Florida all my life and there are a lot of black people living in these states and we even have your gang banging thugs too, and we have your biker gangs like the Outlaws (there's actually an Outlaw motorcycle club up the road from where I currently live) but from what I understand these guys don't compare to the ones in other states. They don't go out of their way to cause problems on the streets for people mostly everybody just kind of keeps to themselves and they only give you trouble if you actually get involved with them like doing illegal stuff.

One of my teachers in high school who was a black woman explained that she grew up in a rough neighborhood in Florida but she never had any problems with thugs because as long as you stick to your own neighborhood they don't really cause you any problems. But I guess that really only applies to the kind of places where I live. I'm guessing it's much worse in states like Nevada.

[LuvablePsycho]

And speaking of therapists, the doctors I always see about my Bipolar Disorder really suck. One lady actually tried to tell me that anger problems are not a symptom of bipolar disorder, and she had the nerve to try and tell me that I have no empathy. That stupid bitch...

I think it's these arrogant doctors who look down on their patients and refuse to accept responsibility for when they screw up their diagnosis and treatment who really don't have any empathy. Some people shouldn't be allowed to become doctors in my opinion.

[Dead Bad Things]

Love is the only force capable of transforming an enemy into a friend.

We have before us the glorious opportunity to inject a new dimension of love into the veins of our civilization.

[fudgetusk]

I want to be tied down and eaten alive by a hundred hungry puppies.

[LuvablePsycho]

Love is the only force capable of transforming an enemy into a friend.

We have before us the glorious opportunity to inject a new dimension of love into the veins of our civilization.

Well it's hard to love somebody who pretty much calls you an empty psycho when they don't even know anything about you.

[Dead Bad Things]

I want to be tied down and eaten alive by a hundred hungry puppies.

Do It!..Do It!!..Do It!!

[Morningriser]

Love is the only force capable of transforming an enemy into a friend.

We have before us the glorious opportunity to inject a new dimension of love into the veins of our civilization.
But we have always had that ability. It's just that power and Corruption changes people. But nowadays there is absolutely no excuse why parents can't take the time to teach their kids the difference between right and wrong. I mean it is disgusting the way people raise their kids. Here at the apartment complex this summer I can't tell you how many times I saw a little kids looking like they couldn't have been any more than five or six years old at the swimming pool without adult supervision While there are homeless people constantly roaming this complex looking for anything they can Grab & Go sell. That tells me everything I need to know right there. I would be damned if I let my child, regardless of their age, Wonder this apartment complex by themselves. in a way I feel kind of hesitant talking about this or even bringing up Their ethnicity because it makes me feel like by doing that I am being racist by association but I can't help but state facts here because that's what they are. These parents that are doing these today's kids around here are mostly black as whites are actually a minority around here. since I have been living here I have had someone who I thought was my friend, who was black, steal some weed from me out from under my nose because he knew of my eye condition and when I confronted him about it he started going on some crazy ass tirade about shit that makes no sense And got in my face doing pretty much exactly the same thing the guy at the bus stop did yesterday. I mean is this some sort of mental condition or is this just literally how they are? Like I said I'm not trying to be racist or even sound racist but it's hard to ask questions or talk about these things without being perceived as such. I mean I have always said there are good and bad of all colors but I want to know what it is exactly that makes them just suddenly burst out in dialogue that makes no sense And ready to explode and kill someone over nothing? I mean I have seen so many black people do that here and other places I have seen so many black people do that here and other places in the country and
And they all act exactly the same everywhere which leads me to believe that that's just how they mentally are. I mean I have seen plenty of white people lash out in many different ways as well but not like this and not even a percentage of a fraction of the volume I see black people doing it which leads me to believe that it is just how they are wired internally which also leads me to believe if that's true, regardless of color, people with that kind of mindset need to be taken as a serious threat. It's time everyone stands up to these people and fight back because this country has gone to shit and it seems to me like there are more people rising up everyday to further destroy it then there are people that is a problem.

[LuvablePsycho]

But we have always had that ability. It's just that power and Corruption changes people. But nowadays there is absolutely no excuse why parents can't take the time to teach their kids the difference between right and wrong. I mean it is disgusting the way people raise their kids. Here at the apartment complex this summer I can't tell you how many times I saw a little kids looking like they couldn't have been any more than five or six years old at the swimming pool without adult supervision While there are homeless people constantly roaming this complex looking for anything they can Grab & Go sell. That tells me everything I need to know right there. I would be damned if I let my child, regardless of their age, Wonder this apartment complex by themselves. in a way I feel kind of hesitant talking about this or even bringing up Their ethnicity because it makes me feel like by doing that I am being racist by association but I can't help but state facts here because that's what they are. These parents that are doing these today's kids around here are mostly black as whites are actually a minority around here. since I have been living here I have had someone who I thought was my friend, who was black, steal some weed from me out from under my nose because he knew of my eye condition and when I confronted him about it he started going on some crazy ass tirade about shit that makes no sense And got in my face doing pretty much exactly the same thing the guy at the bus stop did yesterday. I mean is this some sort of mental condition or is this just literally how they are? Like I said I'm not trying to be racist or even sound racist but it's hard to ask questions or talk about these things without being perceived as such. I mean I have always said there are good and bad of all colors but I want to know what it is exactly that makes them just suddenly burst out in dialogue that makes no sense And ready to explode and kill someone over nothing? I mean I have seen so many black people do that here and other places I have seen so many black people do that here and other places in the country and
And they all act exactly the same everywhere which leads me to believe that that's just how they mentally are. I mean I have seen plenty of white people lash out in many different ways as well but not like this and not even a percentage of a fraction of the volume I see black people doing it which leads me to believe that it is just how they are wired internally which also leads me to believe if that's true, regardless of color, people with that kind of mindset need to be taken as a serious threat. It's time everyone stands up to these people and fight back because this country has gone to shit and it seems to me like there are more people rising up everyday to further destroy it then there are people that is a problem.

Well you do know that poverty is one of the biggest problems in the black community so any time you are in a mostly black neighborhood you are bound to see stuff like that. I mean it's a proven fact that things like drugs and crime are rampant in any kind of poor community and not just a black community.

Where I live you'll see crackwhores and methwhores (some black and some white) who will walk on the side of the road late at night with their kids and not even pay attention to the cars speeding past their kids as they are playing in the streets.

Families that are impoverished tend to not look after their kids as good as families with money who live in nice respectable homes. I should know because I come from an impoverished family myself.

[Morningriser]

I didn't talk to anyone but when I got off the bus to go to my therapist office, a few hours before the other incident I was telling you about, I couldn't find the office at first and I ended up wandering into a little subdivision residential area and that was a very nice part of town where a huge Golf Course was right next to the bus stop. I walk to the parking lot of an animal hospital where they actually had animal ambulances and everything and I ended up on a street with a bunch of nice houses. There wasn't anyone around except in one of the driveways someone had their car door open and had music playing. It seems like one of those areas where everyone is cool with one another but if someone came in there starting some shit things would get real really fast. I get what you are saying and I sometimes get very frustrated and say a lot of shit out of anger. It just hurts to see what the current state is.

[Dead Bad Things]

Days of absence sad and dreary, clothed in sorrow's dark array.
Days of absence I am weary, she I love is far away.

[Dead Bad Things]

A friend of mine asked if I had tried online dating.....never have... really didn't dig what I found, seems like you need a credit card and a glamour shot to get in. No diversity, just a fuckin' computer program sortin' me out by color and age.

So I'm like fuck it...took a casual head shot in my robe, and on the profile I said...
Born in the year of the Rat, fascinated by horror and macabre, lived I MT. 25 years, I have a pagan ideology and I'm heavy into music, wildlife, and open space. I don't really dig this online thing, let's be pen pals. Drop me a line anytime here go my addy....

[LuvablePsycho]

I don't trust online dating. It feels so discriminating like "you can only date the people we pick out for you!" and I don't feel like real love should have any boundaries. Also many of the people who use those services are either con artists or serial killers trying to take advantage of the poor lonely people who are looking for love on the internet. It's so easy to lie about who you really are when you are hiding behind a computer screen.

My best friend got scammed really bad by a girl who took $500 from him and had him convinced that she was going to fly to California to meet him and marry him and have kids and all that crap.

[Morningriser]

Dating sites aren't necessarily a scam because they are fulfilling their end of the bargain. You are paying them for them to allow you to meet women with similar interests. You are not paying for the women to talk to you. That is all on them and how you present yourself. I will say that you will meet some of the most despicable women there are on dating sites who can get pretty adamant about what they think of your looks. I have used Plenty of Fish for a few years now because it is free and I have had a weekend fling and then a short relationship from that website But they were both with women I didn't find attractive because literally every woman on that website I ever messaged that I found attractive would either ignore my messages, block me or tell me I'm too ugly and for me to fuck off. that's what really pisses me off about women who always have to bring the looks factor into it. I tried to give everyone the benefit of the doubt and a chance but women just want a man who looks good first and then wait to see if something grows out of it because they are so superficial and shallow, they're plastic brain cells won't allow them to think normal like A woman who actually has standards and morals. I think it's pretty fucking insulting and a double standard that Women hold us to such high regards when it comes to looks but if a man says anything about a woman's looks we are dirt and that whole cliche of, don't worry you will find someone, makes me Sick. sorry, I don't mean to rant and complain considering what some of the members here are going through at the moment, it just really Burns me that the image Society puts into women's heads nowadays That nothing is unconditional and that is a load of horseshit. I feel the media has completely brainwashed and desensitized the human psyche.

[cheebacheeba]

Wondering why there was such a big gap between Snow White and Cindarella.
Like, what happened.

[Morningriser]

So today I came to the realization of just how grandiose my idea of going into journalism is. When I got out of high school it was my plan to go into journalism, and I wish now I had, because by the time I get my associate's degree from the community college here I will either be 40 years old or damn near 40. And then by the time I got through college getting the degrees I wanted and was in a position to get hired somewhere, I would be in my mid-forties while there are people in their early twenties who can see much better than I can who would get the jobs in an already high demand field as is. I am still going to go to college but I think I am just going to focus on creative writing rather than journalism. I want to see how far I can take it and if I can go all the way maybe I could be a teacher and not have to worry about social security anymore. Right now I think I just went to focus on my writing.

[Morningriser]

Just fuck it..

[Dead Bad Things]

It's never too early right? So...Y'all got any plans for Halloween?
Looks like the 31st falls on a Wednesday...so the real party's gonna be on Saturday night the 27th.

I been puttin' my ear to the ground....so far only thing I came up with is an EDM Gothic ball. Sounds good to me...I dig morbid chicks dressed to the nines.

I got my costume...I'm goin' as a Hammer Head shark!

[Bloof]

It's never too early right? So...Y'all got any plans for Halloween?
Looks like the 31st falls on a Wednesday...so the real party's gonna be on Saturday night the 27th.

I been puttin' my ear to the ground....so far only thing I came up with is an EDM Gothic ball. Sounds good to me...I dig morbid chicks dressed to the nines.

I got my costume...I'm goin' as a Hammer Head shark!

You so have to get Hammer pants to go with it...Hammer Time!

[Dead Bad Things]

I was thinkin' more along the lines of hammerin' and smashin' some...uh..you know ::wink::

[Bloof]

I was thinkin' more along the lines of hammerin' and smashin' some...uh..you know ::wink::

I see...then i guess you dont need pants! ::big grin::::big grin::

[Morningriser]

Finally saw my new psychiatrist yesterday. I am back on my meds and trying a mood stabilizer too. I should be feeling like my old self again soon.

[LuvablePsycho]

Finally saw my new psychiatrist yesterday. I am back on my meds and trying a mood stabilizer too. I should be feeling like my old self again soon.

I hope it works out. ::smile::

I think my meds are finally working now that I am taking them the way I'm supposed to. I have to take them with food and take them so many hours apart and stuff.

[Morningriser]

This is kind of a random question, but does anyone remember Sublime Directory? ::cool::

[Bloof]

I dont remember it but i did google it. Some kind of porn site?

[Morningriser]

Yeah, sorry, I was bored ::big grin::

[Bloof]

Yeah, sorry, I was bored ::big grin::

Lol, dont be sorry!

[Sculpt]

A friend of mine asked if I had tried online dating.....never have... really didn't dig what I found, seems like you need a credit card and a glamour shot to get in. No diversity, just a fuckin' computer program sortin' me out by color and age.

So I'm like fuck it...took a casual head shot in my robe, and on the profile I said...
Born in the year of the Rat, fascinated by horror and macabre, lived I MT. 25 years, I have a pagan ideology and I'm heavy into music, wildlife, and open space. I don't really dig this online thing, let's be pen pals. Drop me a line anytime here go my addy....
Some dating sites are very different than others. Some are 100% free, and folks who would want that are the people you're going to see on there. Then there's pay sites of various amounts -- and just like restaurants, bars & nite clubs -- they're priced to exclude less affluent, or less serious, folks, depending on your point of view. Heck some might say the super expensive ones are helpful in weeding-out the ultra materialistic people out of the regular sites, thank you!

Your profile description sounds perfect. No point in wasting time being too ambiguous about yourself.

Way I see it, post a pic and make a casual date asap. There's no substitute for a pic and meeting in person. Some want to chat and not meet.

[Sculpt]

Wondering why there was such a big gap between Snow White and Cindarella.
Like, what happened.
What gap are you talking about? ::big grin:: and why do you ask? You mean year of release? 1937 to 1950? not like they didn't have quite a few films between those two.

[Dead Bad Things]

Well I paid off all my overdue fines at the library...and of got right back into it again. Just about to wrap up the new one by Stephen King: The Outsider. It's really good, the best of his newer stuff I feel.
But wait there's more...they gotta love me down at the library always got a stack of horror literature on inter-library loan ::smile::

The great god Pan and other horror stories: Arthur Machen
Compulsory games: Robert Aickman
We eat our own: Kea Wilson
A people's history of the vampire uprising: Raymond A. Villarreal
Black mad wheel: Josh Malerman
Little heaven: Nick Cutter

[LuvablePsycho]

I'm starting to get sick and tired of all these TV shows and movies about sociopathic heroes. Where do people get the idea that being a sociopath or a narcissist makes you some kind of superhuman who is smarter and braver than everyone else? Honestly it sickens me...

I also hate the unrealistic way that these people get portrayed on TV. Like the sociopathic antihero who only feels empathy and compassion for one character who they are close with. A true sociopath or narcissist does NOT feel empathy or compassion for anybody!

[Sculpt]

I'm starting to get sick and tired of all these TV shows and movies about sociopathic heroes. Where do people get the idea that being a sociopath or a narcissist makes you some kind of superhuman who is smarter and braver than everyone else? Honestly it sickens me...

I also hate the unrealistic way that these people get portrayed on TV. Like the sociopathic antihero who only feels empathy and compassion for one character who they are close with. A true sociopath or narcissist does NOT feel empathy or compassion for anybody!
Besides Dexter, what other shows star sociopath heroes? I watched the first season of Dexter, I'd say I was mildly entertained. In Dexter, I think they displayed him with genuine love for his sister (I think it was), and sympathy, and a sense or understanding of right and wrong. Rather than killing because he was a sociopath, he had a killing compulsion, which he restricted to killing other serial killers. All the same, I understood the concern people has in the concept. (I know you didn't name Dexter).

In regards to staring narcissists, I don't like watching those either, such as Eastbound & Down, some episodes I watched only cause a buddy liked it... which creeped me out a little because I know it's one of his fantasies to treat everyone like subhuman.

Archer is also basically a narcissist hero, but it's a cartoon, and I can stand watching some of those only because it's pretty creative, I like the (older) popculture references, and usually funny, but it's also nonstop insult train, and if not usually low brow, it's submersively crass (I just made up that word, meaning it's always deep inescapably crass) which isn't generally my cup of tea.

[LuvablePsycho]

Besides Dexter, what other shows star sociopath heroes? I watched the first season of Dexter, I'd say I was mildly entertained. In Dexter, I think they displayed him with genuine love for his sister (I think it was), and sympathy, and a sense or understanding of right and wrong. Rather than killing because he was a sociopath, he had a killing compulsion, which he restricted to killing other serial killers. All the same, I understood the concern people has in the concept. (I know you didn't name Dexter).

In regards to staring narcissists, I don't like watching those either, such as Eastbound & Down, some episodes I watched only cause a buddy liked it... which creeped me out a little because I know it's one of his fantasies to treat everyone like subhuman.

Archer is also basically a narcissist hero, but it's a cartoon, and I can stand watching some of those only because it's pretty creative, I like the (older) popculture references, and usually funny, but it's also nonstop insult train, and if not usually low brow, it's submersively crass (I just made up that word, meaning it's always deep inescapably crass) which isn't generally my cup of tea.

Black List, Dexter, White Collar, all of the James Bond movies, Will & Grace (especially Karen), Desperate Housewives, Mini's First Time, Breaking Bad, American Horror Story, Game of Thrones.

There are so many out there that I can't possibly list them all...

[LuvablePsycho]

And I don't mind the occasional comedic sociopath like Bender from Futurama or the entire family in The Addams Family. When it's tastefully done as a form of humor it's not so bad. But I don't like it when sociopaths and narcissists take on the role of heroes as if they are something to be admired. It's just wrong, it's like a slap in the face to the one thing that makes us humans not so terrible: our ability to feel empathy for one another and to redeem our mistakes because of the guilt we feel.

[LuvablePsycho]

Man my mom really is a control freak from hell. I wonder if everyone else around my age has parents like her? It's no wonder the current generation of young adults refuses to grow up when they have parents like mine who make it so easy for them not to. I mean all she ever does is tell me that I can never do anything because I'm "limited" and that I'm better off just sitting on my ass and collecting enough SSI money from the government to stay broke for the rest of my life. I really do feel like she doesn't want me to try and do better with my life.

I really hate my life. If I was born without autism or bipolar disorder or if I simply had a more encouraging mother then maybe by now I would be living on my own and making my own choices in life. I could be fully independent like my brother and sister and not worry about having to always ask for Mommy's permission to do anything at 28 years old.

Sometimes I feel like I'd be better off dead. I really do.

[Bloof]

Don't say that. I quite enjoy your "company" on the forum. My mother wasnt controlling but had issues that made my childhood pretty miserable. But you play with the hand you are dealt or whatever that saying is. Your little niece must be a blessing in your life.

[Dead Bad Things]

LuvPsy come on man get a hold of yerself..Put your hang ups down. Please spare me the gory details, we all got our issues and reasons why we can't. The universe is vast and ripe with possibilities and oppurtunity. Be strong.

[Morningriser]

Man my mom really is a control freak from hell. I wonder if everyone else around my age has parents like her? It's no wonder the current generation of young adults refuses to grow up when they have parents like mine who make it so easy for them not to. I mean all she ever does is tell me that I can never do anything because I'm "limited" and that I'm better off just sitting on my ass and collecting enough SSI money from the government to stay broke for the rest of my life. I really do feel like she doesn't want me to try and do better with my life.

I really hate my life. If I was born without autism or bipolar disorder or if I simply had a more encouraging mother then maybe by now I would be living on my own and making my own choices in life. I could be fully independent like my brother and sister and not worry about having to always ask for Mommy's permission to do anything at 28 years old.

Sometimes I feel like I'd be better off dead. I really do.

It's tough man, believe me I know. I still have family living but none of them are there for me because of a falling-out I had with my grandmother before she died, despite she and I'm making amends with one another Before she died. my point is I don't have a support system either and I know the way the average person is portrayed as having people in their lives and a support system when the truth is not everyone just gets to Skid through life Like we are told we will. Not everything will always be okay and things don't always get better. We are made to believe these things are the norm and we just need to sit back and wait for good things when that has never been the case. ever since my ex girlfriend and I broke up and I went back home I have had to rely on my grandfather for everything because I can't drive anymore. I made a choice, I could sit there on my ass waiting to die while collecting a check and not doing fuck all because I didn't have any friends or anywhere to even go do you have fun so I did something about it and I moved to Las Vegas to start figuring out for myself how to become completely independent. The people here are definitely weird and I don't plan on staying here my entire life but For now this is home. You would be surprised how self-sufficient You will become when you have no one else but yourself to rely on.

[LuvablePsycho]

It's tough man, believe me I know. I still have family living but none of them are there for me because of a falling-out I had with my grandmother before she died, despite she and I'm making amends with one another Before she died. my point is I don't have a support system either and I know the way the average person is portrayed as having people in their lives and a support system when the truth is not everyone just gets to Skid through life Like we are told we will. Not everything will always be okay and things don't always get better. We are made to believe these things are the norm and we just need to sit back and wait for good things when that has never been the case. ever since my ex girlfriend and I broke up and I went back home I have had to rely on my grandfather for everything because I can't drive anymore. I made a choice, I could sit there on my ass waiting to die while collecting a check and not doing fuck all because I didn't have any friends or anywhere to even go do you have fun so I did something about it and I moved to Las Vegas to start figuring out for myself how to become completely independent. The people here are definitely weird and I don't plan on staying here my entire life but For now this is home. You would be surprised how self-sufficient You will become when you have no one else but yourself to rely on.

Wow it's almost scary how much I can relate to what you just said. I can't go anyway either because I never learned to drive and I have to rely on my mom for transportation.

But the thing is I can't just leave home and move somewhere else. I have tried to run away from home on my own a couple of times and that always resulted in my mom calling the cops on me and having me locked away in a crisis center. One time I tried to make it on my own living in a group home and I was doing ok for awhile until it all got sabotaged and I ended up having to move back in with her because I was staying in a disgusting apartment that didn't even have a working shower. Even if I'm stable enough and taking my medication like I'm supposed to all she has to do is call the cops on me for trying to get away from her and I end up going back to her. Nobody ever takes me seriously but I'm telling you the truth when I say she owns me. I really do feel like she thinks of me as her property.

[Morningriser]

Have you ever thought about trying to find an apartment with a roommate? I would also recommend looking into public transportation where you live and see what kind of disability services are available. No one can take charge of your life but you my friend.

[cheebacheeba]

I got stoned off a medicated brownie at work today.
There's my throw in.

[Bloof]

I got stoned off a medicated brownie at work today.
There's my throw in.

That's becoming legal where i live in a few weeks. I tried it once about 45 years ago and hated it. If i was going to ever try it again, brownies would be my choice.

[Dead Bad Things]

Yo check out this chunk of dragons blood I came up on! (Daemonorops draco)

[hammerfan]

Yo check out this chunk of dragons blood I came up on! (Daemonorops draco)

::shocked::::EEK!::

[Bloof]

Yo check out this chunk of dragons blood I came up on! (Daemonorops draco)

Isnt that resin from some kind of tree?

[Morningriser]

That's becoming legal where i live in a few weeks. I tried it once about 45 years ago and hated it. If i was going to ever try it again, brownies would be my choice.

If you do, I wouldn't recommend a strong one as the high is different and lasts a lot longer.

Yo check out this chunk of dragons blood I came up on! (Daemonorops draco)

Beautiful!

[LuvablePsycho]

I wonder if I could make it as an escort or a pornstar? It's always been a secret fantasy of mine. ::embarrassment::

[Morningriser]

I hate to dash your hopes man but being a male pornstar nowadays is next to Impossible unless you are a pretty boy with A big dick because that's what people want to see. as far as being an escort goes, I'm not sure but I'd say go for it. If you came to Vegas you could probably find something lol

[Bloof]

If you do, I wouldn't recommend a strong one as the high is different and lasts a lot longer.



Beautiful!

Yep. I'd probably chicken out anyway...yet I have no problem pounding back wine, lol.

[LuvablePsycho]

I hate to dash your hopes man but being a male pornstar nowadays is next to Impossible unless you are a pretty boy with A big dick because that's what people want to see. as far as being an escort goes, I'm not sure but I'd say go for it. If you came to Vegas you could probably find something lol

I could make myself look pretty if I worked out more but I understand what you mean.

Realistically I don't think I could work in the sex industry not because I'm ugly but because you pretty much have to know the right people and make the right connections. I mean it's not like I personally know of any people who would actually pay for sex plus there's a lot of risks to consider like STDs and dangerous stalkers.

It seems like all the people I know are just giving away sex for free and whoring around. ::big grin::

[Morningriser]

Because that's all anyone gives a shit about anymore. No one has any respect for anyone or even themselves. I mean that even seems to be what relationships are based off of nowadays. You can be the nicest person in the world but if you aren't attractive you might as well just give up. I mean I get told him was daily what a wonderful guy I am but I'm just not attractive and it really has nothing to do with self-confidence when women are so eager to tell you you are wonderful but not good enough to fuck. Relationships have nothing to do with love and trust and building together anymore, it just has to do with fucking and nothing but fucking until they realize they don't like each other and go their separate ways while the woman complains about not being able to find a nice guy and the guy does goes off fucking some other girl who doesn't give a shit if he's a good man or not as long as she can get that dick.

[Dead Bad Things]

Yeah it's a tree resin imported from Indonesia..whatcha do is freeze it first then grind it to powder with a nutmeg grater then burn it on a piece of charcoal. ::love::

You guys are just diggin' yer own grave. Riser..c'mon man, you know nice guys finish last. LuvPsy you got the cart before horse man...guys it's really not that difficult. You guys got better prospects then me and I'm still goin' for anyway.

[Sculpt]

Yeah it's a tree resin imported from Indonesia..whatcha do is freeze it first then grind it to powder with a nutmeg grater then burn it on a piece of charcoal. ::love::

What's it for? You burn it just as an incense, or for other reasons?

[Dead Bad Things]

I've been an incense head for years..white sage from California, cedar from the panhandle of Idaho, sweet grass from New Mexico, Copal and Benzion from India. Palo Santo from Ecuador. Dragons blood attracts good fortunes and banishes ill ones. Plus it pleases my various gods....easier than slaughterin' goats or sacrificin' virgin's.

[Bloof]

I've been an incense head for years..white sage from California, cedar from the panhandle of Idaho, sweet grass from New Mexico, Copal and Benzion from India. Palo Santo from Ecuador. Dragons blood attracts good fortunes and banishes ill ones. Plus it pleases my various gods....easier than slaughterin' goats or sacrificin' virgin's.

It sounds delightful. Ive heard of people wearing it in a pendant etc. How's your son doing these days?

[Morningriser]

I also like incense.

And I know I am hard on myself but from my standpoint it's difficult because when I was 9 years old and my father died my mother moved me and her from St Louis to South West Virginia away from all of my friends into an area where I didn't know anyone and no one knew me therefore I was an outsider and that stuck with me my entire School career or whatever you want to call it and I never had a social life. All of my friends were going out on dates with women but I couldn't get a date to save my life because everyone knew I wasn't from there and that's why everyone treated me differently and bullied and tormented me every single day. I basically graduated a shell of a person not even really knowing myself and ever since then I have just been trying to get by while being a very lonely person. I was in love once and there was a time when she loved me but we began to drift apart and due to other things Beyond My Control she started thinking I was having an affair so she cheated on me and that's how that ended so it's really fucked me up. It's hard to have a good self-esteem or confidence when everytime I try to do something for myself it blows up in my face thus creating more negativity or pain or stress, but never anything positive to make me feel good about myself. Since I have been in Las Vegas I have tried making friends but the people I have tried making friends with have all been thieves and the times I have tried asking women out I get that generic lying about how I am a great guy that any woman would be lucky to have but not her because women seem to only care about looks And that is very frustrating for someone like me who has never been able to just skip through life never having to worry about how to value a woman or take care of them like most pretty boys do which is why women usually dump them after they fuck them a few times and wine and bitch to all their friends about how they can't find a good guy. Wait a minute who do this kind of thing are so two-dimensional and most of them can't think for themselves and that is not the woman I want. I want someone who is intelligent and can hold a conversation. I know there are good women out there I just don't understand why they are so hard to find and why so many women hold so much against my appearance or my eyesight but yet can come to me and talk to me about anything or tell me I'm a wonderful guy. I'm tired of everyone taking everything for granted or just using people for whatever they can get out of them and tossing them away.

a few nights ago I had this dumb bitch I met on Plenty of Fish invite me to come sing karaoke with her at a bar and so I spent an hour-and-a-half on the buses to get there only for her to tell me five minutes afterwards that she is leaving. She knew what I looked like but she insisted on doing that to me anyway and for what? I want to know why the only women I can attract are such absolute garbage excuses for human beings.

[DeadbeatAtDawn]

I've been an incense head for years..white sage from California, cedar from the panhandle of Idaho, sweet grass from New Mexico, Copal and Benzion from India. Palo Santo from Ecuador. Dragons blood attracts good fortunes and banishes ill ones. Plus it pleases my various gods....easier than slaughterin' goats or sacrificin' virgin's.

My smudging pot with white sage. ::love::

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OooOoOO I'm interested in this Dragons blood https://78.media.tumblr.com/1e400f0f0e8c6f275a4f52e116301bdd/tumblr_p8du98fiEQ1xo6426o1_75sq.gif

[LuvablePsycho]

Because that's all anyone gives a shit about anymore. No one has any respect for anyone or even themselves. I mean that even seems to be what relationships are based off of nowadays. You can be the nicest person in the world but if you aren't attractive you might as well just give up. I mean I get told him was daily what a wonderful guy I am but I'm just not attractive and it really has nothing to do with self-confidence when women are so eager to tell you you are wonderful but not good enough to fuck. Relationships have nothing to do with love and trust and building together anymore, it just has to do with fucking and nothing but fucking until they realize they don't like each other and go their separate ways while the woman complains about not being able to find a nice guy and the guy does goes off fucking some other girl who doesn't give a shit if he's a good man or not as long as she can get that dick.

Honestly I think you're being too hard on women. Not all women are that shallow.

[Morningriser]

Maybe I am, But I do know not all women are that shallow or superficial. It just seems nearly impossible to find them. I am in a big city though with lots of people and places to meet them and I have only been here since May. I have recently started therapy so I am trying to work out my issues there because I know I have them and I think a lot of them come from my ex-girlfriend and what she did to me.

[LuvablePsycho]

Maybe I am, But I do know not all women are that shallow or superficial. It just seems nearly impossible to find them. I am in a big city though with lots of people and places to meet them and I have only been here since May. I have recently started therapy so I am trying to work out my issues there because I know I have them and I think a lot of them come from my ex-girlfriend and what she did to me.

I understand and I often feel the same way about men at times. I've never dated or had a boyfriend but I think it really comes from my autism and low self esteem and the fact that I am so socially awkward.

[Morningriser]

If you are like me, you are your biggest critic and probably way too hard on yourself. I know I am and I know this whole way I view reality is Warped from the way it actually is. I was deprived of a social life mainly as a child because I was moved to a new area where I was seen as an outsider but when I lived in St Louis I had friends. My father had a very nice job working for Boeing inspecting fighter jets as he was a former Navy pilot. He was a very bad man and did a lot of really bad things to people though, including my mother which I can never forgive him for. His death made her go crazy and she drunk herself to death and died in 2013. I have a lot of baggage, I know. That's why I can say that I like my therapist so far because she seems like she is actually listening to me and talking to me like two friends hanging out rather than a medical professional trying to come off as a medical professional. I have noticed that the nicer people on the west coast seem to be a lot more open-minded and friendly and just have a more comfortable around them then the usual people in the east and south.

[LuvablePsycho]

If you are like me, you are your biggest critic and probably way too hard on yourself. I know I am and I know this whole way I view reality is Warped from the way it actually is. I was deprived of a social life mainly as a child because I was moved to a new area where I was seen as an outsider but when I lived in St Louis I had friends. My father had a very nice job working for Boeing inspecting fighter jets as he was a former Navy pilot. He was a very bad man and did a lot of really bad things to people though, including my mother which I can never forgive him for. His death made her go crazy and she drunk herself to death and died in 2013. I have a lot of baggage, I know. That's why I can say that I like my therapist so far because she seems like she is actually listening to me and talking to me like two friends hanging out rather than a medical professional trying to come off as a medical professional. I have noticed that the nicer people on the west coast seem to be a lot more open-minded and friendly and just have a more comfortable around them then the usual people in the east and south.

Yeah you're absolutely right. I'm always way too hard on myself because I'm a perfectionist.

And to be honest the reason I've been acting so irrational lately is because of the fact that we are moving and I don't handle any kind of change well. But I just need to do the best I can and not get too manic over it. Being back in Georgia for two weeks really wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.

[Dead Bad Things]

Right on Dbeat! Here go mine...

[Morningriser]

Yeah you're absolutely right. I'm always way too hard on myself because I'm a perfectionist.

And to be honest the reason I've been acting so irrational lately is because of the fact that we are moving and I don't handle any kind of change well. But I just need to do the best I can and not get too manic over it. Being back in Georgia for two weeks really wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.


I'm totally fine with moving because I have done it so much but doing it on my own for the first time like this has been a little nerve-wracking for me, especially since I didn't have my medicine until just last week. Before that I was having a lot of bad manic episodes and coming here and ranting a lot and I guess in a way, the things my ex-girlfriend did to me keeps playing itself over and over in my head which has given me a warped false sense of what women are really looking for in a guy and with my lack of social skills and never really being given the chance to build confidence or self-esteem without it being immediately destroyed, I feel like there is absolutely no hope for someone like me. I have always hated being alone and at one time it was my biggest fear. I have been abandoned or tossed away by so many people I have relied on like my mother and father or my ex-girlfriend Angela, who in the beginning everything was great with but over time we drifted apart but we're too stubborn and stupid to realize we weren't right for each other. In the end she cheated on me and got pregnant because someone told her I cheated on her when I really didn't. The whole situation really fucked me up and I could go into so many more reasons why it fuck me up rather than just the fact that she cheated on me, but I don't want to get anyone to excited. I mean we aren't the Onamia club after all even though some people think otherwise.

[LuvablePsycho]

Well on the bright side I finally got to meet my baby neice. ::love::

[Dead Bad Things]

Yeah Bloof he's doin' alright..It's a tough balance to strike tryn' to show the boy positive ways to grieve, when at times I feel broken and drowning.
Just got word about Day of the Dead goin' on down in Missoula Nov.2... part of me is like yeah I got this...and part sees myself lyin' in street struck down by grief.

[Dead Bad Things]

And what of the remains?...
I have a long list on paper of all our favorite haunts.
Convergence points in the laylines of the earth, sacred places where we shared our love and bared our souls..
How deep in my emotional well must I delve to find the strength to go to these places and scatter ashes?
I can only imagine the state I'll be in..and to let my son see me in that condition..it's tough to face.

[hammerfan]

Well on the bright side I finally got to meet my baby neice. ::love::

I bet she's adorable

[Morningriser]

DBT, I have never been married but I have lost plenty of loved ones in my life and to be honest, my former girlfriend who I was with for 11 years, one of the ways I try to get past her is to just picture that she is gone. I know it's never easy, especially considering you have a child that will always remind you of her no matter how long it takes your wounds to heal, but time will heal you. You just have to be strong for yourself and for your son. You seem like a very philosophical and open-minded man so I think you got this. Just keep your head held high and stay optimistic and let your love for your wife live on through the child the two of you share together. Remember we are all here for you whenever you need us and we always will be.

[Dead Bad Things]

Thanks for the good word bro.

[Sculpt]

Yeah Bloof he's doin' alright..It's a tough balance to strike tryn' to show the boy positive ways to grieve, when at times I feel broken and drowning.
Just got word about Day of the Dead goin' on down in Missoula Nov.2... part of me is like yeah I got this...and part sees myself lyin' in street struck down by grief.
I've never been to Day of the Dead, but my understanding is it's celebrating the life of the loved one as part of a grieving process, and you do it with others, which sounds like a positive experience... and I can't speak for you, but sounds like a setting less likely to drown.

And what of the remains?...
I have a long list on paper of all our favorite haunts.
Convergence points in the laylines of the earth, sacred places where we shared our love and bared our souls..
How deep in my emotional well must I delve to find the strength to go to these places and scatter ashes?
I can only imagine the state I'll be in..and to let my son see me in that condition..it's tough to face.
I think it's healthy for your son to see you grieve. As I'm sure he does, he ought to know it's OK to grieve, cause dad grieves too. Maybe you should even welcome that.

Did she ask you spread her ashes in these places? If not, I don't know that it's really healthy to put yourself through that. I think our loved ones would want to be remembered, but they wouldn't want us to be tortured by the memories.

[LuvablePsycho]

I bet she's adorable

She is! And the little tomato head gets so red when she cries just like my brother does when he's upset or blushing. ::big grin::

[Dead Bad Things]

My bad, I shouldn't of even gone there...I'll get myself together someday.

[Morningriser]

has anyone seen this yet? it is a Green test of Joaquin Phoenix as the Joker. I am really excited about this as it is an origin story so I'm not really worried about the weird makeup considering in The Killing Joke He was a failed comedian before becoming the Joker. I am really I am really excited about this movie.

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[LuvablePsycho]

has anyone seen this yet? it is a Green test of Joaquin Phoenix as the Joker. I am really excited about this as it is an origin story so I'm not really worried about the weird makeup considering in The Killing Joke He was a failed comedian before becoming the Joker. I am really I am really excited about this movie.

z3nH-LdIa3I

I'm not really into The Joker or anything related to Batman. I used to be as a kid but I guess I outgrew it.

It's kind of funny because movies and video games about superheroes and supervillains seem to be all the rage right now. ::big grin::

I did used to like some of the female villains like Poison Ivy, Catwoman, and Harley Quinn. I think Poison Ivy was my favorite because I thought her ability to manipulate mutated plants was cool. Plus she reminded me of an evil Celtic goddess or something.

[Morningriser]

Well I for one am excited about it as I have always been a joker fan. Even as a little kid I like Jack Nicholson's Joker just as much as Michael Keaton's Batman. I'm not really worried about the makeup either because in The Killing Joke, it briefly tells about the Joker before he they came the Joker and he was a failed comedian which I think is why the makeup and that video looks more like an actual clown rather than the Joker As his entire body is white and you can see his hands are skin colored. I am so excited about this. There is a fan-made Joker origin movie on YouTube that is really good for being a fan film but this is going to obviously be on a whole other level.

[LuvablePsycho]

Well I for one am excited about it as I have always been a joker fan. Even as a little kid I like Jack Nicholson's Joker just as much as Michael Keaton's Batman. I'm not really worried about the makeup either because in The Killing Joke, it briefly tells about the Joker before he they came the Joker and he was a failed comedian which I think is why the makeup and that video looks more like an actual clown rather than the Joker As his entire body is white and you can see his hands are skin colored. I am so excited about this. There is a fan-made Joker origin movie on YouTube that is really good for being a fan film but this is going to obviously be on a whole other level.
I like his crazy clown girlfriend Harley Quinn. She reminds me of Tiffany from Bride of Chucky.

Though I don't care much for the slutty costumes they gave her in the Batman Arkham games.

[Bloof]

My bad, I shouldn't of even gone there...I'll get myself together someday.

I was half listening to Joe Biden at John McCain's funeral. That man knows pain whatever else one might think of him. He said words to the effect of " One day you will be able to think of him and a smile will come to your lips before a tear comes to your eye." I thought that was precious and hope you hit that point soon.

[Dead Bad Things]

Thanks for the good word Bloof.
That F2 y'all had up there recently wasn't in yer neck of the woods was it?

[Bloof]

Thanks for the good word Bloof.
That F2 y'all had up there recently wasn't in yer neck of the woods was it?

It sure was, thanks for asking. We had no power from friday at supper til late Sunday evening. Did some major damage about the city but we were fine.

[Morningriser]

so I woke up this morning to a surprise. I had an email telling me I have won two tickets to go see dark tranquility and amorphous Thursday night at the House of Blues. That was certainly a great birthday surprise!

[LuvablePsycho]

so I woke up this morning to a surprise. I had an email telling me I have won two tickets to go see dark tranquility and amorphous Thursday night at the House of Blues. That was certainly a great birthday surprise!

Well happy birthday! ::cool::

[Morningriser]

Thanks homie! I think I might have actually already found a date for the show. you guys should see the big ass resin ball I just got in from cleaning my bowls. I would post a picture but I don't want to piss off Cheeba again ::big grin::

[LuvablePsycho]

You know, what I just posted might be inappropriate so I deleted it. I apologize lol