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09-24-2014, 04:48 AM
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So... living through a personal horror story
Hi guys... I've missed this place :-) I'm in a nursing home... they're TRYING to set up a working wifi network, and if so, I brought a crappy old laptop that at least kind of works. Right now I have limited data on my phone. I arrived at the nursing home a week ago, to stay here for an undecided length of time. I was in very bad shape at arrival, and after a night of particularly bad muscle spasms, I woke up partially paralyzed in my left lower body. Most likely I will need the surgery they adviced me so strongly against, which is not a great thought... and there is no guarantee that sensation can be restored.
I have surprised myself with how well I cope, but to be honest, that morning I freaked out. Absolutely worst moment of my life so far. But, here I am. I have to deal with this. It might be temporary or permanent... I try not to think too much ahead. I can't sit up because of the back, but I try to focus on what I can do. Watch TV. Type on my phone. It is extremely surreal, though. Paralysis is such an odd feeling. It's not actually completely dead. It feels extremely heavy.. qhich it is, it's difficult dragging several kilos of dead weight around. But it's like there's an extreme pressure from inside and outside. And here's the cruel part: You can still feel pain. I even get the feeling of discomfort you get from not moving a limb for long periods of time. I just can't move it, or feel touch, or temperature. Anyway... I haven't forgotten about the forum. And I'm HOPING to get easier access soon. Anyone who wants to stay in touch via Facebook are welcome to PM me. Last edited by Kandarian Demon; 09-24-2014 at 04:49 AM. 
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Wow I'm really sorry to hear that Kandarian. That sounds horrible. I hope it all works out for you and you get better.
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09-24-2014, 05:05 AM
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Get well soon. Wish you a speedy recovery.
Best wishes come from this side of the world for you.
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"If you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you." - Friedrich Nietzsche
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09-24-2014, 08:41 AM
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Fell better real soon, Kandarian Demon. Rest and catch up on some horror.
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I command by the power of Christ and the Gospel for this evil spirit that is inside this man or woman to come forward now and to face the judgment of God. 
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09-24-2014, 10:05 AM
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That's so awful. Sorry for what you've been through - Sending you warm thoughts of health.
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09-24-2014, 10:59 AM
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Get well soon. I wish you all the best!
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09-24-2014, 02:15 PM
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Geez Kanda, things have really escalated, but you sound remarkably positive! Stay strong and all the best.
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09-24-2014, 02:43 PM
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That's really terrible, I cannot even imagine how that must be. I wish you the best and hope that things will start to get better.
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09-24-2014, 02:56 PM
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