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Appreciation
Just found out an old friend has lung cancer and it may have spread to his brain.
He's 47 and has a 19 year old son. He's going to die. I haven't heard any good news about any of my friends in so long that I steel myself up everytime the phone rings. Someone is getting their electric cut off, not because they don't work their asses off and spend money like water, but because the dollar just doesn't go as far anymore. Another is getting a divorce uglier than mine. Another is getting a tumor removed from her breast. Another had a miscarriage. I never remember life being this hard. I had a talk with my 10 year who was upset about her new DSi being broken. I told her about the 2 year found in our town hiding in a closet hungry with clothes that were dirty, and the snot and tears still crusted to his little face. The mother FORGOT about him because she was trying to score some crack. And you will never hear about this on the news and it happens EVERYDAY. A broken DSi is nothing. A broken car is nothing. The house getting perfectly cleaned is nothing. The fact that you don't have the latest technological toy is nothing. All these things that American society makes you believe is important: the nice car, the big house, the gadgets, the clothes.....is NOTHING. It can always be worse. Count your blessings, grab the people you love and THANK GOD or whatever you believe in that you have them. I sat outside last night and stood in the moment, felt the breeze on my skin, heard the wind in the trees, saw the beauty of the stars and thought how fucking lucky I am just to be in this moment. I had THAT. Wow. Amazing! Is life sad and hard? Yes. Nobody promised us anything really, we don't deserve anything really...but we get each other-how fucking lucky are we for our friends and family? Wow. Amazing.:) 
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A similarly related reply from me got pelted awhile back. Just hope people realise the significance of the lives they are leading. And the extreme importance of the smaller things in life which makes one happy. Even a smile once a day can make the worst go away.
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There is so much bad that its sometimes hard to see the good.I agree,it can always get worse..lets pray that it doesn't.I'm sorry to hear about your friend and i feel horrible for his son.Whenever i'm wanting to go out and buy more painers i look at my kids...the little faces of innocent.Its sadly not enough for me to kick the habit,but i can tell you for a fact..they come first.I buy them what they need and usually what they want first.I am gonna get strong enough one day to stop for good..until then..this is my life.The world sucks,life sucks..its just how it is.Most of the time we complainand never take the blame..we are the reason it sucks!
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I slipped into a nirvana-esque insanity a few months ago when things got out of control. It's been a little easier, after realizing that there really is not point in us being here, as all humans do is cause pain and suffering for everyone else.
But i'm sure Nova knows all about the insanity just like I do, which is why she can tolerate me :D Frrrrriiiiiiieeennndddddddd O.o
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My family has a few things lined up for the next couple of weeks that we don't get to do very often,and it's something we all need. We need a break from the chaos, and just take a breather sometimes... My brother is doing well, his last MRI was pretty stable. We have STOPPED all treatment, and just let him live. We all tired of being at the hospital all the time,it wasn't helping it was making everything worse. Through the up's and downs of life,.........well life is pretty good right now.
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