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Kandarian Demon
09-24-2014, 04:48 AM
Hi guys... I've missed this place :-) I'm in a nursing home... they're TRYING to set up a working wifi network, and if so, I brought a crappy old laptop that at least kind of works. Right now I have limited data on my phone. I arrived at the nursing home a week ago, to stay here for an undecided length of time. I was in very bad shape at arrival, and after a night of particularly bad muscle spasms, I woke up partially paralyzed in my left lower body. Most likely I will need the surgery they adviced me so strongly against, which is not a great thought... and there is no guarantee that sensation can be restored.

I have surprised myself with how well I cope, but to be honest, that morning I freaked out. Absolutely worst moment of my life so far. But, here I am. I have to deal with this. It might be temporary or permanent... I try not to think too much ahead. I can't sit up because of the back, but I try to focus on what I can do. Watch TV. Type on my phone. It is extremely surreal, though.

Paralysis is such an odd feeling. It's not actually completely dead. It feels extremely heavy.. qhich it is, it's difficult dragging several kilos of dead weight around. But it's like there's an extreme pressure from inside and outside. And here's the cruel part: You can still feel pain. I even get the feeling of discomfort you get from not moving a limb for long periods of time. I just can't move it, or feel touch, or temperature.

Anyway... I haven't forgotten about the forum. And I'm HOPING to get easier access soon. Anyone who wants to stay in touch via Facebook are welcome to PM me.

The Villain
09-24-2014, 05:03 AM
Wow I'm really sorry to hear that Kandarian. That sounds horrible. I hope it all works out for you and you get better.

_____V_____
09-24-2014, 05:05 AM
Get well soon. Wish you a speedy recovery.

Best wishes come from this side of the world for you.

hammerfan
09-24-2014, 05:06 AM
Wow, KD, I'm so sorry! Keeping you in my prayers! ::love::

MichaelMyers
09-24-2014, 08:41 AM
Fell better real soon, Kandarian Demon. Rest and catch up on some horror.

ChronoGrl
09-24-2014, 10:05 AM
That's so awful. Sorry for what you've been through - Sending you warm thoughts of health.

Baron Von Marlon
09-24-2014, 10:59 AM
Get well soon. I wish you all the best!

The Bloofer Lady
09-24-2014, 02:15 PM
Geez Kanda, things have really escalated, but you sound remarkably positive! Stay strong and all the best.

metternich1815
09-24-2014, 02:43 PM
That's really terrible, I cannot even imagine how that must be. I wish you the best and hope that things will start to get better.

Damn Heathen
09-24-2014, 02:56 PM
Keep us posted.

horcrux2007
09-24-2014, 03:13 PM
Stay strong and optimistic!

Sculpt
09-24-2014, 03:27 PM
I sent ya a horror.com PM to exchange facebook contact information.

Straker
09-25-2014, 02:22 AM
Sorry to hear this, hope things turn around for you soon.

Kandarian Demon
09-28-2014, 11:35 AM
Thank you :-) I had emergency surgery on my back 2 days ago. The next few months will tell if I will regain the feeling in my leg. STRENGTH had been restored, though, so I am currently learning to walk on the numb leg.

hammerfan
09-28-2014, 12:06 PM
I wish you all the best KD, and am keeping you in my prayers!

MichaelMyers
09-28-2014, 01:21 PM
Thank you :-) I had emergency surgery on my back 2 days ago. The next few months will tell if I will regain the feeling in my leg. STRENGTH had been restored, though, so I am currently learning to walk on the numb leg.

Hope this isn't your nurse.

http://img2.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20131201053943/stephenking/images/a/af/Misery_kb_(1).jpg

horcrux2007
09-28-2014, 02:31 PM
Hope this isn't your nurse.

http://img2.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20131201053943/stephenking/images/a/af/Misery_kb_(1).jpg

LOL I've never laughed that hard in a while ::big grin::