[cheebacheeba]

Today was kind've pretty scary...

We woke up, did a few things in the morning...she went to the bathroom, the next thing I hear is "Get ready, we have to go to the hospital".
So of course I did.

She told me that she'd started bleeding basically, and she'd had some abdominal pain. Full on panic mode. Called a cab and headed up.
Had to wait for ages...you'd think even in a public hospital that there might be a bit more of a push for something like this...though it illustrates that even though we have a good free medical system here, it's really undermanned and underfunded.

The whole time I was holding her hand...she was crying on and off, and it was hard to think of anything but the worst at all..I didn't know what to say, just that I was there, and in the end we'd make things right.
I'm sure the whole time both of us were preparing ourselves, thinking about how things would be...it was fucked.
In my mind, and I don't usually go in for stuff like this, I was just trying to will my kid to hang on, to stay. Probably just some kind of madness on my part, but it was my process.

Blood tests. Piss tests. More waiting.
We were there for about 3 hours when we went for an ultrasound.
I recognised something - the embryo etc was still there.
Heart still beating, everything was ok.
Can't say how much of a relief it was.
They called it a "threatened miscarriage", which from what I can gather is a pretty wide term for anything that can indicate something is wrong...the bleeding, from what they can gather, may have been due to some pressure put on the area around the egg where the placenta was forming.

Bloodwork was fine.
...and we got to go home 6 and a half hours later.

I'm so fucking relieved right now, I'd hate us, hate her, to have to go through something like that...my heart really goes out to anyone that has ever been in this situation to any extent.
It was so hard not to give up any kind of hope...the whole time I was pretty much defeated, thinking it was over.
But, it wasn't all bad - and all going well we'll get to meet River as expected in June 2014.

Fuckin' hell...seriously on edge right now...