[Freak]

I realized the other day that why I know alot about alot of you none of you know anything me me really. So i thought I would give you guys and gals a journey into who I am.

My name is Bobby Joe Howard. I was born April 27, 1982 at about 4 a.m. I currently live in Fairfield, Ohio. I've lived here about two months. I'm the department manager of Lawn and Garden at a Sears Hardware and Appliance. I'm single(get in line ladies) and have been for about a year now. I'm a nice guy for the most part. I'm prone to fits of intense anger where I've been told I can become real dark. some of you that I was friends with on Facebook for a brief time may already know. I was diagnosed ( by a person I'm not sure was qualified to call themselves a therapist) with severe depression. But I honestly think I'm bi-polar. I should be on meds but I refuse to take them.


I'm almost 30 and just moved out of my parents basement 2 months ago.I'm very anti social. Not because I hate be but because I dont trust people. I rarely leave my house for fear of be putting in a social situation where I tend to panic.But I like to bitch and complain of never having nothing to do or somewhere to go. I very self destructive. I have sabotage almost every realtionship with someone I care about with my issues. I tend to push people that care about me away. I tend to screw myself at work also.

I'm not a educated person by any means. I'm sure this is littered with bad grammar and spelling. I dropped out of high school my junior year. I did manage to get my GED two years later though. Math is like kryptonite to me.

My hobbies include movies, music, video games,the internet and self pity. Most of the music I listen is metal, rap and rock. But I'm open tp almost any type of music. I like horror movies of course but also really enjoy a good comedy or action movie. I'm about 5'9 224lbs. Black hair green eyes and glasses. I've noticed my hair on top has started thinning lately. I'll probably just shave it bald here soon.

While I do have dreams and goals, I feel that I'll never achieve them so I don't bother trying. I'm very neagtive but have been trying to change that. there's been alot of set backs the last few weeks.

Well I guess that's it for now. Now you almost everything there is to know about me. Drink it all in.