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Such a simple word.
You know one of the first thing's I think of when the discussion of love comes up? Kayaking.
I think of the first time I paddled out into the middle of Hunter River that run through my small country town. Resting the oar across the surface of my Kayak, leaning back and soaking up the sun. I loved that moment and that feeling, and sure I love Kayaking but never as much as a loved that solitary moment. That's not a metaphor by the way.
I remember thinking of the girl I loved, how very likely it would be that I'd marry her and spawn children and gather some altogether mundane trade under my belt and commence carving out a living. The only important thing was finding things that you loved, and enjoying them. Things with the girl I loved, with the children whom were just spark in my imagination, things with my family and things alone with no one. Moments that to rather lamely quote Queens of the Stone Age “Made it beautiful to live”.
I never married that girl, or any other, the feeling stuck with me though.
I know for the most part I have failed in that, I've succeeded at times and just tried to take the most out of everything I can, and at times I have been dragged down by other things and not made any effort.
I love movies, literature, video games, strange places and even altogether mundane places that I just happen to be doing something new and interesting in. I have loved people, and perhaps there is no greater love then to love someone for all their faults, it makes you irreverent and leaves you smiling like an idiot and has people saying things like “Oh all the good ones are taken”. Can it be one sided? I think it can though it's easy to confuse with fascination and it doesn't always end well when it IS one sided. It can still make you feel that way though.
Finding anything you love is important though and looking into the open world thinking “why can't I find the one meant for me?” simply denies you the pleasure of all the other things you love. Don't waste you heart pining use it, use it on other things and more then likely you will cross paths with someone that you can fall in love with and it's always much more powerful when your not staring at the horizon looking for it.
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