[bloodrayne]

Here's MY laundry list of flaws:

1) I have very little patience...I want things done right, and I want them done right now.

2) I emotionally hurt people unintentionally, just by being honest...I consider it to be constructive criticism (people won't improve if you lie to them, stroke their egos or always agree with them, right?), others don't see it that way.

3) I have very little tolerance for emotionally or intellectually weak people

4) I can't stand waste in ANY form (food, money, garbage bags, toothpaste, time, ANYTHING...All waste ends up being a waste of money) And I really come down hard on people who do it at my house...Even sleeping is wasting time.

5) I'm a TERRIBLE friend...I rarely keep in touch with people...I almost never answer my phone...Of course, if one of them REALLY needed something, I'd be there, but I'm just not much for hanging out and chit chatting all the time.

6) I smoke...That's just nasty AND it's a waste...I hate it...And, I'm obviously too weak to quit...I hate THAT even more.

7) I'm sometimes bitchy BECAUSE of my aforementioned impatience and intolerance.

8) I have a really difficult time asking for or accepting help, because I figure I can do things faster, easier, and better by myself...and asking for or accepting help makes me feel weak.

9) When I ask for advice, I really never take it (except when it was suggested that I dye my hair black...I would have never considered that on my own...I didn't think it was a real option, because my skin is so pale (I'm a natural redhead)...That's the only time I can remember actually TAKING advice)...I seem to only be asking for other ideas to compare them to mine, and most likely to reaffirm what I am going to do anyway.

10) I am very quick to GIVE advice, whether it's wanted or not.

11) I'm a terrible "I told you so" person, when people DON'T take my advice.

12) I expect people to do things MY way, because I consider that to be the RIGHT way, otherwise I wouldn't do things the way I do them...And, when people DON'T do things my way (correctly), I often redo it myself and/or chastise the person for doing it 'wrong'.

13) It takes me a long time to really become angry, but when I actually DO become angry...I explode, taking out everything and everyone in my path...Fortunately, that isn't often.

14) I am completely unaware of others in public, they may as well not exist, I am an island unto myself...I'm not concerned with how strangers 'see' me, or what they think of my behavior...This embarasses my mother.

15) I cannot STAND going out in the daytime, not just because the sun kills me, but because in the daytime there are TOO many people out, which FORCES me to be aware of them, and this irritates me in ways you cannot imagine...They are a complete nuisance....Perhaps, I am antisocial.

16) I never forgive and I never forget...I will continue to turn my back on someone to this day, if they hurt me when I was ten years old...I do not give second chances, I see it as a second chance to fuck up and/or fuck me over...And I completely cut someone out of my life if they betray my trust, they simply cease to exist for me...If someone who has committed a past transgression against me continues to try to have contact with me, or even come near me, I will punish them relentlessly, usually with what I say.

17) I KNOW that I have these flaws, yet I refuse to change them...(except for smoking and hurting people unintentionally, those just seem to be beyond my power)...They are a part of who and what I am.


I suppose that when you sum it all up...I'm actually, somewhat of a bitch.



OH...But, please try not to forget, I also have some GOOD qualities;)...This is just a list of my BAD ones :)

Sometimes, I can actually be sweet (believe it or not)