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Alright, probably stupid to post this but a chance of one in a million that someone knows something, it's worth it.
I am exhausted. All the time.
I am getting no answers from my doctor, she has basically told me I'm her guinea pig. Next week I get to try another pill...woohoo:(
I have scoured the internet and every illness that has my symptons, I have already had the test to tell me:That's Not It
After my son was born I had 3 months of amazing health.
I was happy and energtic, I lost the baby weight. My hair, skin and nails still had that 'mommy' glow.
Then I crashed.
So began the therapy cause they thought I had post partum depression.
(I knew I didn't because I was completely in love with my baby- I just had a problem with the rest of the world. If I had the option of spending the first year with him on a deserted island-I would have been just FINE)
Then came medications and bloodwork and now looking back, I wasted my time and money.
My energy level is decreasing by the day it seems.
I feel like a clock winding down.
I am irritable and have very little patience.
I hate being around people lately, they all seem to talk too much and too loud.
All noises bother me come to think of it.
I wish I could just go away and be completely alone for about a month and just sleep.
I mean REALLY sleep, not to be woken up by alarms or phones or snoring or kids or bad mattresses or the fucking cat.
When we were in NYC, I had a good night's sleep for the first time in 10 years.
Right now I am on ,what is basically, speed.
I feel worse, but now with the added joy of insomnia.:rolleyes:
My doctor has put me on this for a short time to jump-start my system so to speak,"Let's see what happens".
I will take the test for Adult ADHD next. Why? I have no fucking clue.
Also they will be giving me a sleep study in the near future.
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