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Originally Posted by hammerfan
Maggie, I'm so sorry that all this has happened. This is the last thing you need. Having said that, I agree with Rod in that you need to get control of your temper. Your ex could absolutely use it to take your kids away from you. If you need to talk, I'm here for you.
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I didn't sleep all night thinking about Maggie's situation.
It's all well and good to say control yourself, but I know when I found out my husband was fucking some slut, I went into a blind rage.
You could say I was temporarly insane because there wasn't a thought in my head about the most precious things in my life: my children. I just wanted that bastard and the cunt to hurt as much as I hurt. I would rather have had my arms and legs ripped off with thousands of sharp instruments than feel the betrayal from the love of my life.
I almost went to jail for making threats against the Whore, ( I didn't make any threats that could be construed as harmful to her health, so there was nothing to it. Dumbasses, like I would TELL someone I was going to get 'em:rolleyes: )
Anyway, I ended up in the looney bin because I did something to MYSELF.
This subject is very much hitting all kinda nerves in me and I am trying very hard to get a check on myself right now because it still HURTS and I know EXACTLY what poor Maggie is feeling right now and it ain't pretty.The affair happened 7 years ago, so it heals but leaves a hellava scar.
Sometimes the memories come back without warning and hit me like a boulder that the man I adored and loved with all my heart thought it was ok to stick his dick elsewhere and ruin our life. It will never be the same between us, no matter what he does or says.
That purity, that trust, that unconditional love I felt for him is just not there anymore.
I stayed with him, obviously, and I do love him... truly. I'd give him my spinal fluid ...or a kidney.
I tell you what though...I have no CLUE what I would do if it happened again.
BTW: The bitch is up your neck of the woods, she lives in Del. with her husband (poor bastard- he KNOWS about her affairs too) and might still work at the Chadds Ford Winery for all I know.
The way I found out was a hotel receipt from a Chadds Ford hotel, then found her numbers later that week in his wallet.
I knew something was going on for awhile before I found the proof.
And that's one thing that really fucking kills me to this day, the deviousness of it all.
He fucks her and then comes home to his family that adored him and took CARE of him and he kissed me and fucking SMILED at me, like nothing was wrong. That makes me so fucking sick..you know?:mad:
Her name is Judy (I won't put her last name so I won't be breaching any libel laws... keep your friends that are married away from her...she is a serial husband fucker.
I hope she burns in Hell:)
Anyway, just a long, drawn out 'other side of the coin' experience.
...And I know there are ALOT of really good men in the world, 98% of the men and young men and up and coming men here at HDC are truly wonderful.
My chest hurts.
I'm going to go throw up now.