hey pink you aint alone ive been through this same thing, lost everything but my family lost all my worldly possesions it got so bad that nothing mattered other than getting my fix . Then the doctor put me on methadone and it works i now lead a happy productive life. You gotta want to do it for yourself, this will not work if you do it for your family (trust me on this)Anyway this was my way out maybe it will work for you