[Spallalala]

Awwwww....I heard he wrote this and had to see and now im crying ( not just from the pain ha)..

Anyway im home now, not having too much fun cos hard to sit and lay down, just glad to be back with the man and away from the old peeps screaming "help me" at 4am.

What happened was that the horse seem to have been spooked by laser skirmish which was happnin about 100ms away. He kept looking around left and right and just jumped up and I slid off the side of him crash bang into dirt. No dizzyness or pins and needles so thats always a good sign my head is intact.

My 15yrold neice is terrified. She sat with me with and the man in the emergency ward until 2am when I was admitted to hospital. Love the girl so much. Never had the closeness of family around me except for the man and its a nice change.

Haven't cried so much in a long time but its so good to get it out. Hopefully the outcome of this won't be too bad. Long term effects are sharp pains here and there and walking can sometimes be a bit hard. Still scares the hell out of me, just thinking if I lay down wrong with something else fuck up on me.

Right now I feel like an 80yrold trapped in a 25yrold body. I feel so helpless. Having to ask a nurse to do all the things you would do yourself is scary and makes you feel like shit.

I had to come in a say thanks to all you guys, the ones that know me and the ones that don't..I will try and stick around in horror for a bit, its been a while.

I hope I have made some sense and not too many s[pelling mistakes. Drugs are doing weired things and I haven't had any weed in about 5days also so that could be the weridness too.

Thankyou again all. Im glad you guys were around to talk to the man, didn't realize he would be so upset but he did have the whole bad feeling thing which I know now to listen to.

Time to drug myself, talk a little shit and take about 10mins to lay down. Will keep you guys update if anything changes. :)