[PhilnEdee]

Hello friends..been away since January...my grandad who is like my father was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in Jan of this year, so like most relatives I packed his old ass up and sent him to the nursing home...
Sad how most people do that, but no, what I did was renovate my downstairs w hardwood and wider doors and moved him in with us for 4 fantastic months. I am terribly sad to say he died on 4/15...I am proud to say that I loved tha man, he didn't suffer and when he died, his hands were being held by my wife, my 14yo daughter, and me. We miss him more than you can imagine and his leaving has been very hard, escpcially on my kids 14yo and 7yo.
If anything I just want to say..if you ever encounter a situation similar to this...please take this person in and just fucking show them that you love them. I didn't know if he'd be here 4 months or 4 years..I didn't care and neither did my family...we wish he'd been here longer. You'll take more out of spending time with someone who is dying and loves you than you will out of 5 years on a job that means jack shit to the world.
Anyone out ther who has taken a loved one and put them in the nursing home...visits them 2-3 times a week...then 2-3 times a month...then maybe shows up B-day or something...
FUCK YOU!

Anyways...I am much stronger now...and I was pretty damn strong before...its good to be back. THanks to a few of you who sent me some emails along the way.
Phil