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i just said in another thread a short while ago - that the thought of dying never bothered me until i had my kid .. so now that bothers me enough to make me a much more careful person.
i'm afraid of screwing up... i never liked my parents - i'd be devastated if my kid ever felt that way about me.
i'm afraid of making a bad call or decision that will have a negative impact later on in his life.
i'm afraid of the possibility that i may have already done that without knowing
i'm afraid that he'll ever get hurt. mentally or physically
i'm afraid that he'll grow up to be a bad person (it's in the back of your mind - stirred into conciousness whenever you see another bad kid)
mostly i fear not being around to help him and watch him grow up..
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