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Originally posted by Spallalala
uh...sorry haunted. You just dont do it for me.
How about we go back to smacking each other around.. :)
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Yeah, that's probably true, but I'm really not up for the smacking around bit anymore. After that last round I said to m'self, "Heather me girl, you're never too old to lighten up."
I mean, I don't know you. I don't know the things that go on in your daily life. I don't know when your feelings are hurt and you're angry. I can't really judge you, you know.
You don't know me. You don't know that I have a disabling dose of bipolar disorder, one of the five mental disorders that is actual a scientifically shown medical/psychiatric problem that can be detected on various and sundry brain scans. So you wouldn't know whether I'm having a manic episode or a depressive episode.
In summary, fighting about shit that in reality doesn't matter a whole hell of a lot is sorta kinda pointless. I can promise you this: I'm not going to start anything. I'm especially not going to make anymore below the belt comments. If there's an intense interesting discussion going on, and we disagree, I'm probably going to agree to disagree so as not to start any kind of bull poop at all.
Am I becoming a passive? Hell no. Passiveness isn't in my vocabulary. However, I'm learning how to pick and choose my battles. I'm only going to fight for something that benefits a greater good, and a "greater good" does not include my ego.
Allow me to quote a short song by Ani Difranco called "Joyful Girl"
i do it for the joy it brings
because i'm a joyful girl
because the world owes me nothing
and we owe each other the world
i do it because it's the least i can do
i do it because i learned it from you
i do it just because i want to
because I want to
everything i do is judged
and they mostly get it wrong
but oh well
'cuz the bathroom mirror has not budged
and the woman who lives there can tell
the truth from the stuff that they say
and she looks me in the eye
and says would you prefer the easy way?
no, well o.k. then
don't cry
and i wonder if everything i do
i do instead
of something i want to do more
the question fills my head
i know that there's no grand plan here
this is just the way it goes
and when everything else seems unclear
i guess at least i know
i do it for the joy it brings...