[wood_elf_pansy]

Originally posted by Soloman Kane
Sorry that this is happening. Second I hope everything works out for you but it doesn't sound like it's going to anytime soon. Whatever you do don't go rushing into any other relationships right away. It might be a good idea to take some time & think about what to do with your life. I feel for you because it sound like this man was part of your whole world. Anyhow I'am sorry for what your going through.. :(

I don't want to get into ANY relationship at all. I want to worry about what is important, my daughter. I want to give Adam time to realize what he had and get shit done to get it back. I don't want for us to be done for good. He is my world no matter how bad it got. Things will, hopefully, get better and we will eventually get back together. We have broken up many times and got back together everytime obviously. He is my highschool sweetheart and I DO want to spend the rest of my life with him. I just can't be with him right now because of his drinking. It isn't good for my daughter, or mine and his relationship.
When he quit drinking for a while we were really happy. At least I thought we were. Then he thought that he could control his assness when he was drinking and got a six pack, the next day he got a beer at a restaraunt and that night he got a six pack, the next day and the next day, six packs then it started working its way up to 12pks and now he's been drinking rum. He gets mean when he is drinking and my daughter doesn't deserve to live her life in fear of her father like I did. I don't deserve it either. Until he straightens his shit out, we are going to spend time apart. I am pretty sure he will find someone else before I do.