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Old 12-02-2005, 08:27 AM
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Originally posted by novakru
Thank you MTC and MM.

I didn't think I would revisit this issue again,but I feel I must.

I don't wish any harm on my abusers.
I haven't gotten to the point where I can forgive them,
but one day I will and that is the day I will truly be free of them and their poison will be completely free from my mind and will no longer affect Any of my actions.
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This is what makes people like you better than me.

My father abandoned me when I was a child. He died soon after in a serious car accident. He also took a young girls life in the process. Until my mid twenties, with the help of the Gods, I was very bitter and angry about the way my life had turned out.

I could only think that if my father had not left, to find himself:rolleyes:, the chain of events would have been much different than what it was.

I can only say this, I have come to terms with the misfortunes that I have had and am for the most part no longer filled with angst.

I do have a great deal of apathy towards my father and his family as well as my mother, we donot have a good relationship as hers is mostly connected to Marshall Fields and Niemen Marcus.

What I have done is put all that aside and expressed myself in other ways but I will never forget what has happened to me and I am totally unable to forgive, hopefully the Gods will because I cannot.

Words cannot be put here the things that I would like to do to people that abuse women and especially children. All I can say is that it would be a machine that would never be able to be turned off.
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