[novakru]

Thank you MTC and MM.

I didn't think I would revisit this issue again,but I feel I must.

I don't wish any harm on my abusers.
I haven't gotten to the point where I can forgive them,
but one day I will and that is the day I will truly be free of them and their poison will be completely free from my mind and will no longer affect Any of my actions.

I have finally forgiven myself because a therapist finally got it thru to me that I didn't cause this,I didn't bring it-how could I?

The thing is,I have seen remarkable examples of people forgiving murderers that killed their children.
I personally do not think I could ever do that,but I undestand WHY now.
What happens when someone takes something precious from you and you hate them and you become bitter and that hate spreads like a virus and everyone you come into contact experiences it and in turn passes it on?
How is that helpful to you?
To anyone?
A vicious cycle that never ends.
And only forgiveness can end it.

Don't get me wrong though-
People should pay under the law when they have abused children,killed or raped children,killed or raped anyone actually.
I don't think they die though.
Punishment should be a locked room,no TV,no books,no contact with others,not even a window to see the weather.
Locked in a room with only their thoughts is the only way a person who cares so little for life to truly understand the pain they caused.
Because eventually in their mind a Hell of their own creation will start.
That to me would be justice served.

This one is a very thin issue with me though.
Because I know if something happened to my child-I'd want blood and I'd want to be the person that caused that blood.