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It's FEAR.
And you will never understand unless you've been there.
Suicide is a mindstate one gets to when they are at the end of their rope but it still is a scary, scary thing to actually DO.
They wanted to die,and with each other found the way to get around the fear of dying.
Killing yourself is not like what most people think... the person or persons are NOT selfish.
They honestly do not think anyone would give a fig if they died.
It is not easy to take your life,just the only option some people think they have.There Hope is completely gone.
Of course there are exceptions.
There are those that do it purely for the the attention,only to find out too late....there was no one there to stop them.
There are those that do it because they think "see,now I'll show all the people that hurt me"-which in the end is rather silly because the people that hurt them,really could care less if they were dead.
This world is not an easy place to be sometimes and it's CRUEL.
I wish people who were suicidal would get the help they need,but that would be asking too much in a world that cares so little for one another.
They are not BETTER off though,dying is not the way to go.
I wish all these people would live to have a good life,and have the ultimate revenge=LIVING WELL.
I wanted to die for years,I attempted it,I came exceptionally close to succeeding,afterwards I did get help... it didn't happen overnight,I crashed a few more relationships and quit and got fired from jobs but eventually I found my path and I found good friends,a good man,I have 2 beautiful kids,I have a great relationship with my family now....and I could have missed all that,and if you think that doesn't mess with my head from time to time......
Anyway-I can forgive all the people that tried to kill my spirit and destroy my mind because I am LIVING WELL,and I know the people that did me harm would have never thought it possible that I smile and laugh on a daily basis-and they are the pitiful ones living in their own hell.
But some poor ,poor souls do not get the incredible gift like I did and now they are dead.
So,think twice before you are flip about someone else's situation-you NEVER know what horrible things are going on in their heads and how far a kind word or a smile at them will go.
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