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PS NOVAKRU - VERY well said & Very interesting points

PS HAUNTING - Your breakdown of the subject(although we are totally going into a different direction with this thread) was totally true(although im not too familiar with psychosis). As for the med i was taking..life wasnt any better on it, i wasnt having panic attacks, but i was kinda just dull to everything(when i used to enjoy life ALOT even with my panic attacks)Think tony soprano's panic attacks-i guess something like that..

Also, I tried weed for the first time while on those meds...i then tried coke..etc etc) THESE ARE THINGS I WOULD NEVER DO(why did i start at 21?). The meds made me so"ehh whatever" to everything. So while i was djing at a club, if someone threw some coke down..i did it)..thankfully i snapped out of it a month or 2 later..and never touched any of that crap again...I just like weed and the occasional pain killer. I did Pure mdma (real E) once and it was great, but because of my anxiety, i can never do it again..because the thought of messing with my serotonin levels causes alot of panic...so even though its amazing and safe in moderation, once was enough for the experience. I just wish i didnt give myself the anxiety. For example: if i felt like doing e again, i could do it and just take it as it comes..have fun..and thats it..BUT if i know im going to do it..'ll have panic attakcs thinking about it..if i were to do it randomly-without time to thikn about it-...the next day i would give myself an attack thikning of the depression or after effects it might give me. Thats my one downfall. (the drug example applies to many things in my life...so im just using it as a reference to how i am in certain situations-like i said besides weed, i really dont touch anything)