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yes, I did something for the past year and a half that I regret that makes me feel :( about the situation, that gives me reason to be :mad: with myself....
...a close family friend, through old age was put into care. I visited her quite a few times, but due to being busy and to be truthful, more lazy than busy, I did not find the time to visit her over the past year and a half. The last time I visited her was on Christmas Day morning two years ago, as she always came to stay with the family over Christmas and Boxing Day, when she was able. Also, knowing my parents saw her more often, I think I used this as an excuse not to make the effort.
and now due to my lazyness, I shall not be able to see her in person ever again, and I became annoyed with myself, when I heard of the news....She passed away a week and a half ago. It is her funeral tomorrow, to which the family is going, and I just hope, that when I'm standing during the service, listening to the priest and singing hymn, that if she's looking down on us all and looking at me, I hope she doesn't think I became and uncareing person and reaslise, that I'll probably regret my actions for a very long time to come....Bless her soul a may she rest in peace.
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