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i sort of get my impression on a 'bum by bum' experience.
In Toronto you see the whole gamut ..
Some are outpatients from the psychiactric hospitals ..
They arent in their right minds .. i feel sorry for them
Some are kids who got felt up by uncle bob one too many times ..
and have no where to go..
Some are drug addicts and winos ...
Some are wannabes who think life on the street (from 9 to 5 until they head back to suburbia) is cool .. but they dont last ..
Some just have no where else to go ..
The ones that piss me off are the ones who wont go to the shelters because they dont want to follow the rules (i'm excluding the psych patients)
I'm mostly talking about the drunks who arent allowed to drink in the homes.
If you'd rather freeze to death because you have such a drinking problem then i guess your life is over anyway.
So - i do have compassion .. and i do find them annoying...
But it helps to understand that maybe they arent there by choice.
And lets face it a couple of more agressive ones .. like the odd one who throws a sandwich back in your face because they really wanted money for drugs ... drain the compassion from us.
I remember one guy who was in the same place every day and it was at a time i really hated my job .. i started to really hate this guy because he bugged me every day for money when i barely had enough to pay rent and here i was working at a job i frigging hated ... so for a while - man i wanted to kill him ...
but that was my pressure at work taking my toll on me ..
I guess my meandering point is .. we dont know what drove them to being there and we cant paint them all with the same brush.
And we're human so of course some times it is going to drive us crazy ... just remember to centre yourself and remember ... its still harder to be them than it is to be us .. no matter how shitty your day is ..
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