[Steve_Hutchison]

Hey thanks for the interpretation Bloodrayne!
As you guessed, they feel real. They feel so real that I stay in the same mood as my dream until I get to work or start doing something that requires productivity.

They started I think after I got out of the hospital after a psychosis last summer (2003). When you mentioned that, perhaps, people were trying to change my view about something, it rang a bell. I take medication. Everything is almost back to normal now, but I'm constantly aware that I could drop sick again if, for instance, someone I love died. That haunts me. Another thing sort of gave me the chills recently. I was having a religious "debate" with my mother and grandmother, and they are both considered sane. They started telling me they've often heard of dead people coming back as ghosts to see people they used to know, who were really close to them. My grandmother then told me for the first time she actually saw her mother shortly after her death. She would've come and visit her. Before my psychosis, I would've semi-believed it. But the fact that they admit those things exists, after being the ones who constantly repeated to me what I was going through had nothing to do with paranormal while I was being hospitalized makes me confused. At the time, I had foreseen my father (family, you could be right!)’s death shortly before I learned he had a cancer. It’s things like that I’m really not comfortable with I think.

I think my social life is fine, work could be better (all these contracts, no stable job). Elections, well I couldn’t care less (:. I’m Canadian but all this war gets to me, not at the point where it would affect my nightmares tough.

Company policy : I mostly work for my own company so the clients and I make the policies. I’m ok with that.

The people in my dreams are sometimes evil, sometimes victims. Either way, I never want to get involved with them and there’s always a good reason for it. Something I forgot to mention is I do martial arts. In my dreams, I constantly try to find my sword, otherwise I can’t do some required beating. That comes back a lot.

Like I said, I used to believe in the paranormal. It has to exist because it’s the science of tomorrow. I used to believe in prediction but I’m reluctant to even think about it now. So that part of dream analysis that foresees the future is kind of creepy to me (It says that the dream is a warning about impending drastic changes and some difficulties ahead because of it...It also says to steer clear of gossip, don't listen to it, and don't spread it...It could cause you more problems than you realize). I’ll be careful tough.

And “Siamese”, well that’s the closest word I could come up with to describe what they look like. They’re more like human parts stitched together where someone made sure to cut out the right parts so they could still live to suffer. Err. Creepy.

Thanks again for the help. I don’t know what in my lifestyle I should change but I’ll keep working on it!

Oh!! P.S. got anything in your book for those dreams where you constantly try to achieve the same goal all night? You may even wake up, smoke a cigarette, then go back to sleep only to realize it keeps on looping. Trying to find my sword in a chaotic world would be the perfect example.