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One thing I will say though,
I'm 1 of 4 brothers and this may sound morbid, sad, or horrible, but the thing that bothers me most, is which ones of us are going to be a ripe old age when we come to meet our makers. I want all of my brothers to live long happy lives.
I get quite anxious with anxiety by the fact that if it was me who lived the longest, then I'd have the trauma of going through 3 losses, but If I was to go early because of ill health or natural death. My brothers will have to go through the same loss, but I've never talked about it with them.
When it comes to my death I may have been able to prolong it by leading a better life and not have to put my brothers through sadness of loss before them. I know either way, we are all going to experience the inevitable at some point in the future, I just dont like knowing me or my brothers will have to experience each others loss this way.
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