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I was probably a member of Bloody Disgusting longer than anywhere and made a lot of friends there and even met the filmmaker Lucifer Valentine through the message board. There are admins there who abused their power though and as everyone knows, in places like these which are usually full of perverted nerdy guys oh, it doesn't take very much influence from women to sway people in whatever Direction they want them to. I honestly hated that kind of shit because I have always been the type of person who won't just sit there saying thank you sir may I have another because I'm not two-dimensional like that. I am narcissistic, yes, but not in the kind of way someone sadistic who uses other people's suffering to improve their self-esteem and Public Image. It's an uncontrollable ego trip which open the floodgates to a superiority complex. It's okay to believe in yourself and freely speak your mind, that is the kind of narcissism that actually attracts people, or one of the main qualities of the alpha male for a lack of a better term, but when people are so full of themselves and are able to easily manipulate people and feed off of their emotions like vampires which makes them stronger individually and socially. Narcissistic nihilists quite frankly scared the hell out of me.
Anyway, yeah, ain't nobody got time for that...
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