Is that what ya were talking bout last night Pinky? ( sorry couldnt resist, if ya don't like "pinky" I won't call ya that again lol)

Yep, thats it!! I dont mind Pinky!!!:)

ok then Pinky it is :D

LPN=Licensed Practical Nurse
and Pink told you the CNA bit.
It can also,depending on where you get certified, Certified Nurse Aide

Gotcha

Cunts. Makes me spit venom. We have a total shithead police force, money and your status gives you a get outta jail free card. Asshole thugs victimising 9 times outta 10 than preventing.

"This could be anywhere, this could be everywhere"

however ..it never once crossed my mind
to ever hurt myself...becos..it wasn't my fault.
I almost died walking the 10 miles to my brothers farm..the amount of blood loss..
ripped..to shreds..however the hell i made it to him.
My brother put it down to sheer determination not to be beaten down ..and he was right..
When my baby was born..it made me even more determined..and only being a child myself..
Also..not once did i feel hatred..only pity
cos at the end of it all ..father dearest lost all of his children and our total respect.
When he got out of prison and tried to contact us...we heard this big man sobbing like a child..
my brother wished him well and hung up..that was our last contact till we heard that he had passed away..
The day they were to bury him..my brothers sent me to Aus ..not for a holiday but to get me out of thier fucking hair cos i kept chasing girly ppl away.
Yes...my big brother is my god and keeper and although he has just turned 50 ..(nov 1st)..he still tells me off and i still go over to his house n just help myself to his wallet..his food..his car..
and all he does is shake his head when i upset his wifey ..the bitch.

'stubborn mumbles'

Hell of a story. People don't even know how far human endurance and will goes. Surviving that kind of darkness, of physical and psychivc violence is really remarkable. And to come out of it as anything but the most reprehensible of people or an utter vegetable is just a miracle. It blows my mind sometimes how weak the excuses for becoming a vicious and antisocial person are in some people, and yet how far people can go and maintain basic human decency. I'd have to say you're the bravest person I've come into any modicum of contact with, stubborn.

aw shux..now em blushing..
thank you for that ..
I don't consider myself anything other than the crazy chick who thinks she knows it all..cos damn straight ..I DO!!
What em truly amazed at are the stories in here ...I truly beleived that I was the only one..how sad is that to find that the if you can't trust the people you wholeheartedly love and respect..then 'who the hell can you ??who else is there to turn to..??
I was lucky to have had my brothers and male relatives..some of these people have
had nobody and for that i feel sorry.

sok..moving on now. ;)

I won't ever go into massive detail about what I went thru,because it doesn't deserve my time or energy.
But Stubborn,we are survivors,most people that went thru stuff like us-become abusers themselves,Multiple Personalities,Crack Whores,Drug addicts...basically the scum of the earth type people.
But I see alot of 'love of life' in you Stubborn.
I consider myself lucky to still be intact somewhat mentally and a person who tries,though my soul is so tired,to keep a pair of rose colored glasses handy.
Because the way I see it-how much worse could it EVER get,and even if it did...we made it through before.
So there's never a question of our strength.
I wouldn't change an ounce of pain or trama, because every experience made me.
The small things matter now,and are never overlooked and always..precious.

And I too:movin on now:)