Nevermind, I'm a fucking nutcase.

Yeah, I'm sorry you, and everyone else[who had the same problem], had to go through what you did. Nobody deserves to be treated like that for no reason.
Thanks! I still have some fat on me from when I was a kid...I weighed about 170 lbs. at one point...probably when I was about 12 or 13 years old. And I guess because I used to be fat, I can't lose that extra flab on my body. My arms and legs are still fat. :o I want liposuction.

Yeah, now I have a really bad temper and usually if someone pisses me off, I let them know about it. I just wish I could have done that when I was a kid, because that's when alot of my problems were. Although I still have plenty of rude people talk bad about me now.
I actually don't remember alot of what happened in my young life, but I do remember all the bad stuff. It's weird how I've almost forgotten the good things about being a kid...but I can remember the bad stuff like it happened yesterday.

That's very true...I've seen lots of pretty, overweight women. But I was not pretty. I was a very ugly kid. I definitely don't see myself as "beautiful" now, but at least now I use makeup which helps me look a little better.

im not the first to think it, but im saying it: beauty is from within.
how else would i end up with the woman i have today?

Same here. If I had only stood up for myself, then I wouldn't be the wreck I am today.

I also don't remember very much of my childhood, only the bad things that happened. It's because of those people that I've been clinically depressed since the age of 12.

yeah I can totally relate to you guys/girls. Because of my shitty childhood I have a short fuse too. I'm just worried if I have kids the same thing will happen.


God I hope not.....

I would be worried about that too. I'm afraid that my temper would end up being taken out on them. I spend most of my time alone by my own choice, because I'm horrible with people. I instantly pick out their faults and that is the only thing I see.

I know..I don't want that to happen because it happened to me. But even tho I tell myself...'don't get too angry' it always happens...like it's in my nature to fly off the handle or something. It sucks. I'm trying to learn to walk away. Also you could tell I'm a virgo from a mile away...all I see are people's faults. Virgo to a T. That sucks cause I want to let people do it their way...but I have to put my 2 cents in. I have a hard time keeping my mouth shut...that's what gets me in trouble...

I'm a very odd Scorpio, that's for sure.

I don't say anything to them. Instead, they just get an instant "black mark" in my mind, and I'll probably never like the person.