no problem, i think about this stuff all the time

I just can't even believe how much I miss my mom. Sometimes I just ache, wishing that she never had to go through what she did. At least it went pretty quickly, 6 weeks. And they had her on good drugs to make her comfortable. I was with her when she died and I'm so glad I could be there for her, but it is just so sad to think about. I just miss so much being able to just pick up the phone and talk to her whenever I want. And then I think about what a snot I was in my teenage years and could rip my own head off now for it. Sorry, I'm just having a really hard time with it these last couple days, especially this evening.

I can't imagine what's going to happen to me when my parents go. We don't get along, and I'm fully aware that when they go it's probably going to eat me up, because no reconciliation was possible. I'm sorry you lost your mom.

my mom is all i literally have so once she's gone i'm compleately on my own. this thought bothers me from time to time. most people in my family die from cancer. i'm so not looking forward having to go through that again with a faimly member

Love this song...

http://youtube.com/watch?v=DD0n8xnUW...h=Gary%20Jules

'walks out of this unhappy..morbid thread'

Sorry Stubborn, sometimes we just need to talk about this stuff. For whatever it's worth, it helped me to talk about my classmates and my mom. Sorry if it bummed people out, but hopefully someone else was able to get something off their chest to help them let go it.

OK, I'll lighten up now...

but...why?...:( :confused:

I don't know. I didn't to bum people out.

oh no..its not a morbid thread..
Actually it is good to discuss stuff like this.
My family and i do this all the time..each n every one of us discuss how we want our funerals to be held..
em just in a morbid state of mind right now.


I remember when i was going to college n one of my friends was a bit of a show off..
Picture this...over head bridge...train runs under every hour or so..to pick up.
Dumb ass freind trying to impress new girl at school..jumps off bridge as train is slowing down to land on the roof of the carriage...
foot misses roof of carriage all together n freind slips between the carriages n is dragged down under the wheels..
blood n guts everywhere.
Very frightening experience for all of us to see..
I was the only one telling him not to be a fool..the rest were egging him on.
'shakes her head'..what a waste of life'