Urge, I feel very much the same about this. I feel like who I am has kind of kept me away from shit I shouldn't be doing. I don't drink or smoke at all, but it's not 'cause I'm afraid of getting caught or anything, I really feel like it's better not to. But I feel like horror is my escape. Horror is me, horror is all of you. This is our addiction, and if I'm a horror addict for the rest of my life, I'm goddamn fine with it.

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I don't get depressed as such ... It's more like boredom with me, if there's nothing to keep my brain active, or if things get too mundane.

Dont drink that often now, have wine occasionaly with dinner, and a couple of beers if I go to the pub, but thats it.

I used to do a lot of drugs.

I'm also mentally ill, and not afraid to say it. For those of you who think that psychotropic medication is for the birds, you obviously are not mentally ill, and perhaps have never known anyone that truly was/is.

Psychotropic meds are just like meds for other chronic diseases. Psychiatric illness is like other types of chronic illnesses, in other words, they have to be controlled. If they aren't controlled, bad things begin to happen.

Never judge a girl 'til you've walked a mile in her stilletos.

so what bad things happen when you stop the meds... is it crazy?




geeezz I'm begining to understand urge's theory here, lots of head cases on this forum.

Mental Illness is more common than you think, but because it remains a taboo subject, many folks go untreated.

When I was younger I went thru some therapy, not sure it helped or not, I did most of what I am today on my own.

I have also been to Alcoholics Anynoumous (spelling??) after that I didnt drink much anymore, not because of AAs 12 step program but because one meeting was enough for me to pretty much quit cold turkey. Those people are very sick.

I have my addictions now, but not chemical.

Well, for me, I start hearing voices. I shit you negative.

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1. In the past, I have been on several types of prescribed "Chill-Pills." (dealing with ex-wives tend to do that).

2. I'm not an Alcoholic, but I am willing to learn. I party every now and then. I've done it daily, only on weekends and now, just every now and then - hit and miss.

3. I used to pop any pill I could find... mostly speeders and pain pills, (not a good idea to both together...trust me). now I just take my prescribed meds (for the most part).

4. I live on caffine and nicotine...Diet Coke, Coffee, Cappiccino and two packs of cigarettes daily.

5. I have never been mugged nor have I mugged. I have been in more fights than can be counted on a calculator though. I have been; cut, stabbed, hit with bottles, chairs, one bar bell, thrown down a flight of stairs twice, thrown over a high wall and set on fire (No scarring). And just so you know...I have never lived in a bad neighborhood or anything like that...I just spent alot of time in redneck and biker bars (as a patron and as a bouncer) plus I worked in a Prison. I am a nice guy though.

:D See, I can even smile.

im the same way. Everything you said i am

me cave man me want eat

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You're not a misfit here because you don't have a fucked up life or nothing exceedingly bad as ever happened to you, it's completely normal for different types of people to like the same thing. I'm not you're average Clint Eastwood fan nor would you walk into a theatre and see to many people like me watching Chicago, you don't have to have a specific reason to like something it's just in your personality.

I have serious depression problems because of countless reasons but that's not why I was drawn to horror.

Smoking absolutly disgusts me. Never tried it, never will. Ive had less alcohol than alot of people my age, only a small glass of wine at Christmas and stuff. Never done drugs, never will. I get somewhat depressed often, but nothing major. I just sit down with a can of coke and a good horror movie [Preferably something with Vincent Price] to calm down. Oh ya, that brings us to my two semi-addictions. Coke and horror movies. I drink coke like a madman....and obviously I watch horror as often as possible:p