I've been depressed since I was around that age too, or younger.

You sound alot like me. I like to be alone...most of the time, and I'm also horrible with people. I have a social anxiety or something...any time I'm around people I don't know too well and/or people I don't WANT to know, I get really nervous and I just feel really weird around people. I often feel like an alien or something because I can't relate to anyone...I'll just never understand people. And I always feel like people don't like me or that people are saying bad things about me or laughing at me or something. I feel more comfortable around animals. I'll never have kids because I'm too impatient. My cats are my children...animals are the only children I'll ever have.

I too had a very miserable childhood--Not childhood as much as my early teen years.
In my case it was too many parents (6).
I would have been really miserable more of the time if it hadn't have been for my dogs. They were my only contact with a happy world.
My senior year of high school I moved from a small, chicken-shit, Country school to one that had over 600 in the senior class. It was like a miracle--If I didn't exactly blossom, life still became a lot better.
I'm old now--but I don't feel old. I've managed to survive alcoholism, addiction, coming out as a homosexual.
And thanks to a couple of 12 step groups I've never been happier in my life.
Good luck to everybody!

hey all these ppl sound like all the ppl when i came onthis post, all of you guys are mean fucks especially Sam.

aww lil miss, i was fat too when i was small (still am a bit chubby but i'm working it off:o :) but i know what you mean...some of the fats just don't wanna let go!! :mad: ) People used to say really hurtful things (some still do but not as often.) I have a short temper as well, but i usually keep it all inside, a quite rage. But, i'm a total ppl person. i get along with almost everyone, probly because I LOVE TO TALK. i don't care about what, i can talk about almost anything :D hope ppl are treating you better

Thanks... I'm sorry you had to go through that too. :(
I'm not a people person at all. :p I hardly ever talk. I'm really antisocial. :p

hmmm...so we are a gahtering of depressive misserable fools with bad childhoods then?

I was thinking the same thing moon lol

hehe, well sorg (moon, preach..whatever) isnt as dumb as he pretends to be

I'm not depressed. Everyone who was mean to me is now a high school dropout, "gangster" wannabe who's probably going to act like a dumbass and get himself shot by some other dumbass. The thought's always good for a laugh

I'm depressed but not because of that, now. I'm just depressed that my life is so boring and that I'm poor and can't afford to do anything I want.
But I try to see things kinda the way you do. Almost all the people I went to school with, who didn't like me(which was everyone. haha) are on drugs now. My ex-best friend(when I was a kid) has even been in jail. :rolleyes: And alot of the people who used to call me fat, are now fatter than me! :D

That's what I was thinking as well....

hehe...for the record i am a depressive fool, i had a shitty childhood, but im far from unhappy, but i can admitt to being pissed of...in general i guess, and at world.

Yeah, I don't really get depressed anymore, I'm just permanently pissed off.

Yeah im thinking im going down that road. I just registered and this one douche bag called me and my friend "dirtballs" i dont know how because i cant stand one day without a shower and brushing my teeth and he was a fat guy with a flat top :rolleyes:

Do whatever you can to avoid this road. Being full of hatred and rage all the time is exhausting and leads to nothing but problems. The only reason I'm like this is because when I was about 14 years old, I decided that I was going to try to turn my depression into anger. At least I'd be more functional that way. I was wrong. It just makes your life 10 times more complicated, and it distances you from the ones you love and any possible romances you may end up having.

Very True. I am usually not an angry guy unless they make fun of or "hit" on someone i love then i go balistic. But other than that i am a very calm guy most of the time. But hell if i have to get into fights, you gotta do what ya gotta do. But no one around here does anything. When they come face to face with you they wont do shit. But when their in a car and can get away they call you names and so fourth. Oh well fuck those fucks.

Let it build up long enough, and you'll be like me. I have homicidal thoughts about my boss, my parents, my grandparents, pretty much everyone I know. Nothing that I would ever act on (I hope), but it makes it hard to work with someone when you're thinking "I want to poke your eyes out with my pen and make you eat them".

Heh... I'm a little fucked up.

Yeah i do have some thoughts like that, but i would never follow through on them. I often day dream of beating the shit outta people with brass knucks. But i have a shitload of protection next year in school :cool:

HAHAH no your not

I have thoughts like that too. Not about my parents or grandparents...I get along great with my parents and all my grandparents except my grandma--the one that's still alive. The other one was really sweet. :( This one can be pretty mean. But for some reason I never think about my family like that...I guess I feel that I have to love my family no matter what. :o I just have thoughts like that about other random stupid people that piss me off...and people I've worked with. Not really any of the ones I work with now...well I have a few times, I guess. haha. But I don't really talk to anyone at work. Nobody likes me at work. haha. I told the people on break "bye" tonight because they were sitting outside and they just ignored me. :rolleyes:
There was one place I worked that I couldn't stand the woman I was working with. She was "training" me...it was a job cleaning a factory. It paid pretty good, so I wish I could have kept it but I couldn't take hearing that woman for more than 2 hours. I quit within 2 hours! :p I was about to shove that broom down her throat if I had to be around her any longer. She was such a bitch! :mad: