Thanks.

I was talking to a film critic and I was telling him how terrified I was about turning 20. And he told me, "I'm turning 40 in October. Imagine how horrified I am!"

It's really freaking me out. I can't believe I've been alive for this long. I've just expected to have a short life. I have a disease (which sucks so bad). I just wish I was 17 forever. I had so much fun at 17 :)

My, oh my, if I could turn back time.

these.....

Easy. I'm afraid of ever falling in love again.
CK

im afraid of those kind of people who think they r better than everyone else, actually im not afraid of them, they just piss me off, and stupid people

Gotcha. I'm more afraid of myself then because I know what I'd like to do to them and that's probably more scary than what they'd ever imagine :D People are such dicks.
CK

Yeah, I know that feeling. After high school you're kind of in limbo... I'm going to college, but it's close to home so I don't live in dorms... I screwed up my first few semesters and now I'm trying to get everything back to normal so I don't have the time (or energy or need really) for a job so all I do is study, study and watch indie movies. I'm turning 21 this year which for most people is a thrill, but for me it's more like another excuse not to study anymore.

17 forever sounds like a dream. I guess I'm pretty scared of growing up too.