missmacabre |
07-19-2009 09:48 AM |
I usually just repeat the same nightmares I had as a kid over and over again. I'm either stuck in a haunted house, being chased around a really old house with lots of secret passage ways. I always get lost, and I grow older in my dream as I get older irl but the scenario stays the same and I'm just as scared as if I were still 10. Most of the time I have to protect my little brother in these dreams too.
Some of the ones I find most disturbing are one where I am in my old church but everything is different and something is very wrong on some profound level. I start out in a Sunday School classroom, when I get the feeling that something isn't right about religion, and I run away through these secret passages to get to the top of the building to confront God about it (cause you know... God is up. This is dream logic) but when I get there I am terrified and always wake up. I've been having this dream as long as I can remember but I know if must have started when I was about 7 and I looked at a picture of Jesus on the wall and asked how we knew he had blonde hair and the like. I got kicked out of Sunday school class more or less for not just believing everything I was fed.
I have other dreams that actually scare me so much, where I am being chased through a winding, confusing sub division. All of a sudden I realize where I am and I cross the street to see this old, run down hotel. It's fenced in with one of those wire fences, and there is an empty pool outside. As I go in, it's like I step into the past. It's the 70s now, and people are in this resort running around and getting ready to play tennis. I'm whisked away to a girls change room to get my bathing suit on but everyone is staring at me and I feel uncomfortable. I remember every detail of this dream. The macrame plant holders, the hems on people's clothing, even colours (and I don't know if you can even dream in colour). It's the mix of the detail, and the fact that I have this dream only when I notice I gain a bit of weight that makes this nightmare so bad.
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