I thought it might be like LSD ::big grin::

It's a psychedelic but it is completely natural, while acid is man made. DMT trips also only last 5-15 minutes and acid lasts for hours. I want t try this again with the same a better smoking method. I love using psychedelics to expand my mind. Today I am in a great mood. I reccomend it to an experienced tripper only though.

The only time I have ever been high was when they put me on nitrous oxide to remove my wisdom teeth. ::big grin::

yeah... don't do DMT ::big grin::

Yeah and I have enough addictions. I'm a struggling food addict, I'm hypersexual, and I have a problem with overspending money on stuff I don't really need. ::big grin::

I think I might actually have an addictive personality. Lol

You're not alone.

I'm cooking chicken alfredo tonight. I am so sick of dieting on fish or chicken breast every night. I actually need to loose weight because I have a fatty liver but I want real food tonight lol. ::smile::

I live on a budget so I mostly live on Banquet and Miscellaneous tv dinners and other cheap shit but I have also been working out everyday since I have been in Vegas and I am very happy with the results thus far.

I'm from the South so I like to cook. ::smile::

I do TV dinners once in awhile but only when I don't have time to cook. People tell me my baked chicken is really good. I can cook other stuff too but nothing fancy like you would see on a cooking show.

I also like to cook but I don't do it often unless it's a special occasion because it's expensive to make good shit.

I guess I've never had to worry about that which is ironic because my family is flat broke too.

I went to a freak show last night and they had a lot great performers and a lot of vendors with a ton of awesome items you usually can't find anywhere else. I wasn't going to buy anything but then I fell in love with this Ouija pointer pendant.

That's pretty decent.

Freak shows..Ouija boards.. I haven't done those kinda things in some time...That is a nice piece tho...what's it made outta? Silver? Pewter? Die cast?

Pewter, I'm not sure about the chain but I will find one that won't fade.

Back in Virginia we never had anything like the show I went to and to be honest it kind of made me feel like a kid in a candy store ::big grin::

Here I thought I had nothin' to do today....and a client of mine wants me to stack 2 cords of firewood in a shed this afternoon...
The thermometer's gonna hit 95 today too....I'm gonna slam a coupla Rockstars and bang it out.
Gonna watch a horror flick till it's time to go.

I got to go to the flea market yesterday. I bought me a turquoise necklace and a tiger's eye necklace, a penny ring, a couple of resin skulls with celtic symbols, and a weird gothic clown figurine with a sad face and a bouquet of roses and it had heart patches sewn into his costume.

I knew it would be hot in the desert in the summer but fuck... It's almost 7pm here and its 110 degrees outside.

I've never been to a desert.

It's a whole other world out here

*sigh* I really don't want to move back to my small town in Georgia. I hate that place. ::sad::

I hate rednecks, I hate trailer parks, I hate gnats, I hate Baptists, I hate bigots, I hate small town drama queens, and most of all I hate the fact that there is nothing to do in my hometown! ::roll eyes::

That's exactly why I moved out of Virginia and went cross country.. 2200 miles still doesn't seem far away enough

Unfortunately I'm in no position to do anything like that. If I had things my way I'd be moving to Hawaii.

why do you say that? Your mom talking about moving back there? Where do you live now?

I currently live in Florida, and my mom wants to move back to Georgia because my brother is having a baby and because her mother is having a lot of health problems. But I think it's mostly because she's homesick. I mean we don't even know anybody on Florida and we have lived here about 9 years.

But I grew up in Georgia and I hated it. There really is a lot of racism and homophobia that goes on in Georgia among other things. Plus like I said there's nothing to do in the town I grew up in. It's a very boring place. I wish we could move to Atlanta because at least there is fun stuff to do there!

Can you stay in FL without your mother?

Nope. I am completely dependent on her because she is my payee and caretaker. That sucks huh?

I wouldn't say that arrangement sucks at all; obviously in most cases, better family than paying a company caregiver. Still, I would assume you know that is an extremely difficult and potentially treacherous choice you could make. Still, sounds like it would be great to spend more time with your brother's family. What sent you and your mom off to FL in the first place?

I guess it would be nice to spend more time with my family back home (the ones I actually like anyways).

And the reason we originally moved to Florida was to take care of my grandfather who is suffering from Alzheimer's Disease, but he is now living in a nursing home.

I guess there truly are worse people who could be in charge of taking care of me, but you don't understand how degrading it is to be 28 years old and not being able to make your own choices or live life the way you would want to live it. It really eats away at you.

Bloom where your planted.

Change is easy. It's havin' the stones to go thru with it is the tough part.

We all bear chains of limitation...some forged by our own hand, others by circumstances beyond our control. Some chains can be broken, or forge new links for yourself to existing ones.

Bigotry and religious zealotry? Hmmm pretty sure GA. is the only place that kinda thing goes on. ::big grin:: those things are wide spread and deep seated across the whole nation....can't escape that.

All you can do is elevate your own consciousness..or read some Horror Literature as a mood enhancer.

Maybe you're right, but believe me it is really bad in Georgia. ::big grin:: I mean we're talking about the home of the KKK here!

I have a lot of reasons for hating Georgia. You just don't understand what I had to put up with my whole life when I was growing up there. At least here in Florida I have slightly more freedom to just be myself.

But I'll get used to it. I have to because I don't have a choice in the matter.

I'm not suggesting you do this, but you could stay in a group home (in FL or almost anywhere) if you chose to, right? I think it helps our mental/spiritual wellbeing to know we do have a choice. It's choices from limited options, but a choice the same.

I appreciate the suggestion but the last group home I was in was terrible. I will never go back to another group home.

Well on the bright side my new Playstation 4 came in along with one of the two games I ordered (Yakuza 0 and Yakuza Kiwami) and I am having a blast playing it. :-)

You know it's kind of funny, I used to only want to play horror games like Resident Evil and such but these days it's hard to find any good horror games. I guess it forced me into seeking out other games to play and now I have found my new favorite video game franchise being the Yakuza games made by Sega. I don't think I even care about Resident Evil anymore.

I still love my horror movies though, but horror games just aren't what they used to be so now I enjoy a completely different style of games. :-)

Things here at home are not so good...
..Mrs DBT's health has takin' a turn for the worse...
Within these four walls of our home Death waits by my wife's bedside hourglass in hand..
We have discussed at length her end of life care..we will not be going to the ER.
Tomorrow I an going to have her Dr. sign a Do Not Resuscitate order.

I am entering into a state of deep shock and sorrow...
I'm really havin' a rough time..please send love or call if you want..406-826-0015 Josh

Sorry to hear that. Sending love and prayers.

I'm very sorry to hear this, DBT. Sending many prayers your way.

I'm sorry to hear that. :(

Thanks y'all...

What the hell! When did she get sick? You kept this pretty close to your chest. Jesus! Am i correct in thinking you have a son? Is he ok? I dont pray but your family is in my thoughts right now...