Ya know what I just realized

[Psycom5k]

How cancer isn't that big of a deal to you, until somebody you know actually has it. Or at least thats what its like for me. So yeah, my grandmother has cancer, I just found out a couple hours ago and now I can't get it out of my head. I didn't realized it until now just how serious it is. I mean, I knew it was serious, and I thought it sucked, but I didn't know just how much it did suck until earlier. She has bowel cancer or whatever you call it. She is going in to the doctors tuesday to find out when she goes in for surgery. I know this isn't a death sentence or anything, but I can't help but fear the worst. She is now 78 years old, and her health has been getting steadily worse and worse. I never really got along with my grandmother when I was younger, she always seemed to favor my sisters more than me. But these past couple of years we had been getting along great, and had become alot closer than we ever were. Now I know just how close I am to losing her, and it scares me. Not only that, but if she dies, I know my grandfather will more than likely also die right after her. He is the same age, and he hasn't cooked a meal for himself ever. I never realized just how much he realize on her until just now that I think about it. And its scary how you don't think of these things until something bad like this comes up. I mean, I've never really even entertained the thought of losing either of them. its just plain scary.

I'm sorry for bothering you guys with this, but I need to vent. I'm going to bed now.

[X¤MurderDoll¤X]

With all the relatives I've had who had the disease and died from it, I would never bet money against cancer.

also 78 years old isn't exactly the prime age to be going in for that kind of surgery, so something else to worry about.

[Disease]

78 isn't such a bad age to get it... I've had people close to me die a lot younger from it even with years of therapy and surgery.... I hope the surgery goes well, but just get the time in while you can because it is an unpredictable disease..

[monalisa]

Wow, I'm really sorry to hear about your Grandma. I hope she beats the fuck out of the cancer. A lot of it depends on what kind of cancer a person has and how early they find it. My mom passed away a couple of years ago from pancreatic cancer. She was 76 and was gone a month and 1/2 after they found it. My dad has prostate cancer, they found it about a year ago. However, it has since reversed and gotten smaller, so he's doing very well with it. So, no it's not an automatic death sentance. Just spend quality time with her when you can, and try not to worry (easier said than done I know). Take care of yourself too.

[Psycom5k]

Thank you everybody. I didn't mean to bother you guys with this, I just needed a way to vent it. I'm going to see her tonight for dinner, So I get to spend some time with her tonight. So thats good. Once again sorry for bothering you guys with this.

[angrymob]

Thank you everybody. I didn't mean to bother you guys with this, I just needed a way to vent it. I'm going to see her tonight for dinner, So I get to spend some time with her tonight. So thats good. Once again sorry for bothering you guys with this.

On the contrary,I am glad you shared this with the forum folks.Most of us have probably been in your position, so we know what it feels like.I hope the best for you,your gram and family.VENT ON,my friend.

[GorePhobia]

John you know even though we joke and stuff I am always here for ya man. Cancer is a shitty thing. My grams had breast cancer and she is doing alot better. Just spend alot of time with her and make sure she knows ya love her and just be there for her.