Life Just Sucks

[GorePhobia]

well....my life is becoming more like a pile of shit lately.

My apartment complex in FL needs a co-signer for me to lease there. I don't have anyone in my family that has good enough credit to do so. Which also hurts the fact that I can not get a loan for film school without a co-signer. So I am $30k shy from my expenses for living, and schooling.

Another kicker....

This morning my mother woke me up with chest pains and a few minutes later called 911. She had conjestive heart failure. So she is now in the hospital waiting on tests and is hooked up to oxygen.

My life seems to be going in a downward spiral.

I love you all here at HDC and this place helps me vent and talk to the people I love here.

Just letting you all know whats going on in my life.

Some of you hate me and some of you like me. Most prolly don't even know me but I wanted and needed to rant a little.

Anyway, this isn't me looking for attention or being a bullshitter I am just very depressed and need to hear from everyone else.

Thank you for your time.

[ItsAlive75]

I feel for ya man, that's some rough shit. I hope everything turns out alright with your mom.

[Deposable]

When life gives you lemons. Make lemonade and take drugs with it

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[ItsAlive75]

Originally posted by Deposable
When life gives you lemons. Make lemonade and take drugs with it

http://www.metrotimes.com/sb/49798/FP1Vicodin.jpg

When life gives you lemons, make sure how many partners life has had sex with cuz you could wind up with lemonAIDS.

Ehh...... BOOOOOOOOOO

[The STE]

when life gives you lemons...two chicks at the same time...I got nothin...

[MisterSadistro]

when life gives you lemons...two chicks at the same time...I got nothin...
I got one, STE: "We reap what we sow."
CK

[DraculaInDallas]

Originally posted by MisterSadistro
I got one, STE: "We reap what we sow."
CK

Ouch!!!! :eek:

[no mulier]

Hang in there, GorePhobia.
You have little choice but to take it in stride. This -will- pass, and you will be stronger for it.

[The_Return]

Originally posted by no mulier
Hang in there, GorePhobia.
You have little choice but to take it in stride. This -will- pass, and you will be stronger for it.

The words the noob speaks are true. Tough it out, things will clear up.

[Haunted]

I'm sorry, Gore. Life isn't to sweet for me right now, but my problems are miniscule to what you're telling us.

I hope your mom gets better, and I hope that you get better. As everyone is telling you, "this too shall pass."

[Babygurl20]

I know I barely even talk to you, but I just wanted to give you my condolences. I hope that your mother is okay and that she pulls through this. Just be strong for her and pray for the best. I went through this when my brother got shot and beleive me, talking about it helps alot. So, I am here if you need to talk.

As for your Housing and education expenses. You can't apply for financial aid? Thats how I made it through college. And even if you can't get it just rememeber "Life has a way of working itself out."

"Life is what you make it to be"

Just keep your head up and keep on trudging through the difficult times, you will make it. :)

[moonsorrow]

ay, my sympathies to you friend... fate it seams has a sad sence of humour.

[sandy_x]

What more can i say that has not already been said exept i feel for you and a big hug.xxx

[zomb5150]

I hope everything works out for You.

[filmmaker2]

Hope you are doing well. Here are some timeless words of widsom. They actually help me every once in a while.....


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DESIDERATA
by Max Ehrmann




GO PLACIDLY amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. AS FAR as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. SPEAK your truth quietly and clearly, and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story. AVOID loud and aggressive persons; they are vexations to the spirit. IF you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. ENJOY your achievements as well as your plans. KEEP interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. EXERCISE caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. BUT let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism. BE yourself! ESPECIALLY, do not feign affection! NEITHER be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass. TAKE kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth! NURTURE strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. BUT do not distress yourself with imaginings. MANY fears are born of fatique and loniliness. BEYOND a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. YOU are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. AND whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. THEREFORE be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations! IN the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. WITH all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams it is still a beautiful world! BE cheerful! STRIVE TO BE HAPPY!

[GorePhobia]

thank you all I really appreciate it

my mom is again staying in the hospital another night

awaiting tests and results

I am sitting here bored and hoping she is alright I havent seen her since yesterday.

as for Finanical aid i got that about $19k but I need $50k for school and Im not even half way there but I'll figure something out.

[MoonLit Meadow]

Originally posted by GorePhobia
thank you all I really appreciate it

my mom is again staying in the hospital another night

awaiting tests and results

I am sitting here bored and hoping she is alright I havent seen her since yesterday.

as for Finanical aid i got that about $19k but I need $50k for school and Im not even half way there but I'll figure something out.

Not sure if you've checked into it or not yet...but have you applied for Stafford Loans? What about a Pell grant? (you don't have to pay this one back..it's free money). Also....check into scholarships...work study programs at your college...in fact, just try talking to a financial aid counselor at your school...they're there to help you out with things like this.

Furthermore...if you're financially independent from your parents, you'll get more money...however, if you're dependent you'll obviously get less...not sure what your situation is there...hope some of this helps.

[ItsAlive75]

Listen to MM, she's literally an encyclopedia on school loans.:D

[MoonLit Meadow]

Originally posted by ItsAlive75
Listen to MM, she's literally an encyclopedia on school loans.:D

LMAO! Yeah well, I know my stuff when it comes to college that's for sure. I've been to 3 of them, had an off-campus apartment, and filled out more paperwork for loans, scholarships, financial aid, etc. than anyone should ever have to:p Luckily all of my hard work is over with now. But I'm more than happy to help anyone else whose caught up in that mess;)

I swear that filling out various forms/paperwork was the hardest part of college...it just wouldn't end...the rest was a piece of cake:p :D

[GorePhobia]

yeah I got 19,000 in stafford loans and pell grants

i need more money tho

school is 40k

i cant get scholarships right now cause deadlines are way past my time school starts

[AUSTIN316426808]

Originally posted by GorePhobia
yeah I got 19,000 in stafford loans and pell grants

i need more money tho

school is 40k

i cant get scholarships right now cause deadlines are way past my time school starts


You have to pay the entire 40k? There's no payment plan or anything like that?

[ItsAlive75]

I thought it was 50k

[Ritualistic]

Originally posted by GorePhobia
well....my life is becoming more like a pile of shit lately.

My apartment complex in FL needs a co-signer for me to lease there. I don't have anyone in my family that has good enough credit to do so. Which also hurts the fact that I can not get a loan for film school without a co-signer. So I am $30k shy from my expenses for living, and schooling.

Another kicker....

This morning my mother woke me up with chest pains and a few minutes later called 911. She had conjestive heart failure. So she is now in the hospital waiting on tests and is hooked up to oxygen.

My life seems to be going in a downward spiral.

I love you all here at HDC and this place helps me vent and talk to the people I love here.

Just letting you all know whats going on in my life.

Some of you hate me and some of you like me. Most prolly don't even know me but I wanted and needed to rant a little.

Anyway, this isn't me looking for attention or being a bullshitter I am just very depressed and need to hear from everyone else.

Thank you for your time.

Sorry Gore for all that has happend. I hope your mother gets better. Let us know, okay.?

[MoonLit Meadow]

Originally posted by AUSTIN316426808
You have to pay the entire 40k? There's no payment plan or anything like that?

He shouldn't have to...you pay your loans back after you're done with college...

I'm still not quite sure I understand...are you going to need $40K over 4 years? or for ONE YEAR?

Because if it's over 4 years...just worry about paying for your first year right now...you'll have time to figure out the rest.

[scaryminda15]

SORRY TO HEAR THAT YOUR LIFE SUCKS

[newb]

Originally posted by scaryminda15
SORRY TO HEAR THAT YOUR LIFE SUCKS

And you screaming at him ain't helping.

[urgeok]

Originally posted by newb
And you screaming at him ain't helping.


it sucks just that much more now hahahahahahhahahahahaha

[The_Return]

Originally posted by scaryminda15
SORRY TO HEAR THAT YOUR LIFE SUCKS

Dont know about Gore...


But that sure brought a smile to my face:p

[MoonLit Meadow]

Originally posted by The_Return
Dont know about Gore...


But that sure brought a smile to my face:p

LMAO. Mine too....scaryminda is a real treat:p

[Elvis_Christ]

Originally posted by scaryminda15
SORRY TO HEAR THAT YOUR LIFE SUCKS

:rolleyes: :D

[GorePhobia]

the school i am attending is a 2 year course for the assoicates degree but it's crammed into one year....about 13 months of school for an assoicates degree

its 40k for the school but I figured i needed about 10k for housing, food, car insurance and emergency money.

thats where that comes into play

I have about 6k in grants that I dont have to pay back but all the rest will be loans that I have to pay back.

@Ritualistic thanks for the support man I appreciate it.

and that did make me smile cause it was funny :)

ps My mother came home yesterday and she is doing alot better....thank you all for your support.

[The STE]

Heaven and Earth are not humane, and view the people as straw dogs