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allmykids

05-09-2005, 10:05 AM

I won't go into what all is making me feel this way i would be wrighting all day. but lets say i feel like i have been fighting to survive all the shit that has happened in my life for what feels like every day of my life. and i just got some news that i think has finally brought me to my knees. right now i want the people who have hurt my kids to die(NO I AM NOT THREATNING TO KILL ANYBODY). There's a hand gun sitting about 2 feet from me. I'd like to put it to my head and pull the trigger but I don't have the guts. God I can't take the pain and I can't Excape it. Somebody tell me there is something to fight for. Some way I can Win for once in my life. I consider alot of you my friends. HELP ME PLEASE!!! :(

newb

05-09-2005, 10:13 AM

Please Stacy, don't even think that way. Think of your kids and all of us here who care for you. Call this number and talk to somebody. 1-800-784-2433

urgeok

05-09-2005, 11:05 AM

what happened to your kids ???

taylorsmommy

05-09-2005, 11:46 AM

Don't give up, Stacy. I don't know what's going on with your kids, but please don't give up hope. Yes, you have been through a lot, but the main point is you made it through it all. I know we don't know each other that well, but I'm always here for you if you want to talk. You have my email address.

Angra

05-09-2005, 12:16 PM

Please talk to us, AMK.

What has happened to your kids, sweety?:(

We are all worried now, so please say something!!

massacre man

05-09-2005, 12:23 PM

what happened to your kids?

don't think of doing anything like that

X¤MurderDoll¤X

05-09-2005, 12:52 PM

Get real, professional help?

Dante'sInferno

05-09-2005, 01:06 PM

Its better to get this stuff out in the open Tust Me i felt ton's better when i got all the stuff i kept up inside of me open try that i bet it will work for u since it did for me.

The STE

05-09-2005, 01:09 PM

if you kill yourself you'll be dead. Do you REALLY want to be dead? Of course not.

Deposable

05-09-2005, 01:15 PM

Originally posted by The STE
if you kill yourself you'll be dead. Do you REALLY want to be dead? Of course not.

That is correct.

meetthecreeper

05-09-2005, 04:27 PM

Stacy, check your PM box.

Creeper

urgeok

05-09-2005, 04:32 PM

Originally posted by meetthecreeper
Keep right on making my point. Bitch

Stacy, check your PM box.

Creeper

i'm pretty sure she meant to get help the same way Newb did..
talk to someone who can help immediately .. a professional that knows what they are doing ..

I was thinking the same thing .. although i sent her my phone number ..

Just wasnt sure if i would be saying the right thing..

Haphazard

05-09-2005, 04:35 PM

Originally posted by allmykids
I won't go into what all is making me feel this way i would be wrighting all day. but lets say i feel like i have been fighting to survive all the shit that has happened in my life for what feels like every day of my life. and i just got some news that i think has finally brought me to my knees. right now i want the people who have hurt my kids to die(NO I AM NOT THREATNING TO KILL ANYBODY). There's a hand gun sitting about 2 feet from me. I'd like to put it to my head and pull the trigger but I don't have the guts. God I can't take the pain and I can't Excape it. Somebody tell me there is something to fight for. Some way I can Win for once in my life. I consider alot of you my friends. HELP ME PLEASE!!! :(

We all have moments in our life when we think "Maaan, what is the point of life? Struggling with dissappointment and heartache...what is there to live for."

Well, for you...the answer is easier than for some of us. You have kids that need you in their lives. No matter how down you may get on yourself sometimes...you have to think of all of the other people in your life who need you, and depend on your existence for numerous reasons.

Stay positive, babe.

Life is a big bully. But, you can outsmart it and knock it on its ass!

meetthecreeper

05-09-2005, 04:48 PM

urgeok

05-09-2005, 04:50 PM

no one wants to see anyone suffer ..

i hope someone hears from her soon.

X¤MurderDoll¤X

05-09-2005, 04:57 PM

Originally posted by urgeok
i'm pretty sure she meant to get help the same way Newb did..
talk to someone who can help immediately .. a professional that knows what they are doing ..

Yup

I like how people expect the worst from me though.

newb

05-09-2005, 05:23 PM

Originally posted by urgeok
i'm pretty sure she meant to get help the same way Newb did..
talk to someone who can help immediately .. a professional that knows what they are doing ..

I was thinking the same thing .. although i sent her my phone number ..

Just wasnt sure if i would be saying the right thing..

Just for the record..I've never had to use that number..I looked it up online. I've pretty much been a happy idiot all my life.
Its just when someone sounds so desperate I think its best they talk to someone with experience dealing with sensitive issues.

Stacy, you have a lot of friends here and we are all thinking about you.

urgeok

05-09-2005, 05:25 PM

Originally posted by newb
Its just when someone sounds so desperate I think its best they talk to someone with experience dealing with sensitive issues.

i couldnt agree more .. but we'll help if we can ..

virus five

05-09-2005, 05:30 PM

We've all felt down before. Some of us have even felt a bit suicidal at times. (I know that I, myself, have.)

It's best to remember that we're given one life to live. If you believe otherwise, that's fine, but it's really a gamble if you think about it.

Focus on making your one life a positive one.

last bad move

05-09-2005, 05:56 PM

i wish you were online right now.

i wish you didnt say any of that.

just take the five minutes and go for a walk go cry, go to a park go any where. call someone, it doesnt have to be professional help just call a friend. you need to let this out.

ill pm you

ChEEbA

05-09-2005, 07:46 PM

I'm a bit late to jump in on this one...but all the same, let's assume you're still alive.
You're my friend, but I'm not about to sugar coat this.
You say you care about your kids, and I can see that...but if you do any harm to yourself, not to mention KILLING yourself...it's gonna fuck with their heads BIGTIME, and I think that in the longrun, they'd fucking hate you for it.
Not the best way to go out.
So whatever this is, get over it...sort WHATEVER this thing is out, let your life play out how it's gonna right now, and if there's any bullshit, strive to get around it and you'll be better for it.

- B.

Gren the cake

05-09-2005, 07:49 PM

Originally posted by X¤MurderDoll¤X
Get real, professional help?
i would have to agree. sounds like yuo need a lot more than just some kind words from internet folk. thats why psychologists are here. they dont get Phd's, read all them books and sit in all those session and take workshops for nothing.

Gren the cake

05-09-2005, 07:51 PM

oh. and let me add. get rid of that gun. and dont nobody come in here takling about 'oh wow she needs it to protect her kids' cuz look where its at now?

of all the people with guns in their households, it ends up causing more problems than helping.

that and fact of the matter is, even if you DO want to protect your kids, you know as well as probably many other people know that YOU are NOT at all in your right mind to be having that thing anywhere NEAR you................

lock it up. separate the gun from the ammo.. do SOMETHING......

IDrinkYourBlood

05-09-2005, 07:56 PM

Dont think of things like that AMK jeez you sound like a teenager

jay o2 waster

05-09-2005, 08:52 PM

i never knew your name was stacy

bloodrayne

05-09-2005, 10:08 PM

Anyone heard from Stacy since she posted this?

urgeok

05-09-2005, 10:11 PM

i dont believe so

DraculaInDallas

05-09-2005, 10:14 PM

Originally posted by bloodrayne
Anyone heard from Stacy since she posted this?

I saw she was on the site a few hours ago and sent her a p/m but got no reply......:confused:

Angra

05-09-2005, 10:20 PM

Originally posted by DraculaInDallas
I saw she was on the site a few hours ago and sent her a p/m but got no reply......:confused:

Signs of life, eh? That´s always something..

Deposable

05-09-2005, 10:46 PM

Is it time we get a new mod?

Gren the cake

05-09-2005, 11:00 PM

took the words right from my..........

... fingers?

Marroe

05-09-2005, 11:11 PM

I hope you never do anything as selfish as that. Look at life, no matter how much bad there is, there is always so much more good. Look at your family, and see how much we care about you here. Your friends and family you've made need you to be strong. No matter what there is always someone to turn to. Live your life because it's YOURS, and know that people need you too....keep your chin up sweetie.

I dunno what happened to your kid(s), but whatever it is I know they need you through it

ShankS

05-10-2005, 12:32 AM

Originally posted by allmykids
I won't go into what all is making me feel this way i would be wrighting all day. but lets say i feel like i have been fighting to survive all the shit that has happened in my life for what feels like every day of my life. and i just got some news that i think has finally brought me to my knees. right now i want the people who have hurt my kids to die(NO I AM NOT THREATNING TO KILL ANYBODY). There's a hand gun sitting about 2 feet from me. I'd like to put it to my head and pull the trigger but I don't have the guts. God I can't take the pain and I can't Excape it. Somebody tell me there is something to fight for. Some way I can Win for once in my life. I consider alot of you my friends. HELP ME PLEASE!!! :(

pm me or msn me or I'll give you my email address.... it's good to share all the shit in life, cos you'll always find someone with an ear ready to listen :)

X¤MurderDoll¤X

05-10-2005, 05:32 AM

Originally posted by Deposable
Is it time we get a new mod?

hahahahahaha

meetthecreeper

05-10-2005, 07:10 AM

I have her number somewhere, but I cant locate it.

I sent her an email no reply:(

X¤MurderDoll¤X

05-10-2005, 07:32 AM

I wouldn't worry about it.

taylorsmommy

05-10-2005, 07:38 AM

Originally posted by X¤MurderDoll¤X
I wouldn't worry about it.

Why not? Is there something you know that we don't?

X¤MurderDoll¤X

05-10-2005, 07:58 AM

Originally posted by taylorsmommy
Why not? Is there something you know that we don't?

not sure.

You have two groups of more extreme depressed types. "hopelessly suicidal" and "hopelessly depressed"

I'm pretty sure allmykids falls in the hopelessly depressed category. A hopelessly suicidal person will kill themselves without telling people about it, because they can't talk to anybody. A hopelessly depressed person will cry out for attention for the reassurance that people care. (sorry to break it down like that)

Everybody needs to feel cared about I think, I think she needs professional help so that she can live her life better, I don't think she's the type to kill herself though.

If you want my advice allmykids, which I'm sure you probably don't care about... I'd take a break from anything you have going online/with other people who aren't seriously important to your happiness and seriously focus on making your life enjoyable. Fuck, I'm late. Get well soon, hun.

X¤MurderDoll¤X

05-10-2005, 08:22 AM

hmm I think I was robbed, guess I'm not going anywhere...

My mother gets really depressed too, I used to when I was younger. I remember desperately trying to think of things that would make me happy, and not being able to think of anything. I feel great now with only small bouts of a day or two of depression. I feel bad for you guys who still feel that way, it's a really shitty way to go through life.

Right now, you're fucked in the head. It's pointless to go through live to fucked to enjoy it. Make your life worth living. My mother is better now since she changed medications, maybe you should see a different doctor and tell him your medication isn't working.

allmykids

05-10-2005, 08:35 AM

Thank you guys!! I'm doing a little better today. I felt so alone and hopeless. You guys will never know how much your support means to me. I don't feel so alone. I went back and forth from rage to crying untill I felt I had no tears left to cry. I have been told I need to grow up. That this forum is childish and satanic. But with the Exception of my children I have gotten more support, love and understanding from you guys then anybody else. I will be back on later today and answer all the pm's. Thanks for the love I feel it and am drawing my will to keep fighting from it.

taylorsmommy

05-10-2005, 08:38 AM

Originally posted by allmykids
Thank you guys!! I'm doing a little better today. I felt so alone and hopeless. You guys will never know how much your support means to me. I don't feel so alone. I went back and forth from rage to crying untill I felt I had no tears left to cry. I have been told I need to grow up. That this forum is childish and satanic. But with the Exception of my children I have gotten more support, love and understanding from you guys then anybody else. I will be back on later today and answer all the pm's. Thanks for the love I feel it and am drawing my will to keep fighting from it.

I'm glad you're doing better, hun. Keep fighting!

urgeok

05-10-2005, 08:53 AM

i'm only a little bit satanic.

i mean the orgies are cool and everything - but i could never kill a goat.

Angra

05-10-2005, 09:00 AM

AMK......... You need a group hug.:D

ShankS

05-10-2005, 09:10 AM

meetthecreeper

05-10-2005, 09:55 AM

*Hides bloody goat head behind back*

Whos satanic??? Where??

Dont worry Urgeok you can share mine.

*BAck to smearing blood on entire body*

urgeok

05-10-2005, 10:08 AM

what if we just lop the top off of a blue freezie and ate that ..

and i cant be smearing the juice all over myself because i hate getting sticky ..

(never fear ladies .. i can handle slippery)

i'm a sissy satanist when it comes down to it.

i really only joined for the dental plan.

meetthecreeper

05-10-2005, 10:47 AM

Dental plan???

Theres a dental plan??

I didnt get a dental plan, how come you get a dental plan and I dont??:mad:

urgeok

05-10-2005, 10:50 AM

Originally posted by meetthecreeper
Dental plan???

Theres a dental plan??

I didnt get a dental plan, how come you get a dental plan and I dont??:mad:

i had to crazy glue an enormous pair of curled horns on my head..

i told them it would be bad for the gangs' image if all of us with big curled horns on our heads allowed them to become an unsightly yellow ..

meetthecreeper

05-10-2005, 10:55 AM

Originally posted by urgeok
i had to crazy glue an enormous pair of curled horns on my head..

i told them it would be bad for the gangs' image if all of us with big curled horns on our heads allowed them to become an unsightly yellow ..

LMAO

and to think all this time I have been grinding them down so I would fit in.

Oh well

urgeok

05-10-2005, 11:11 AM

see here's the thing, they have to be curled - like a ram ..

those ones that point straight out - well, they're just a nuisance to everyone.

not only are the curled ones inobtrusive, they are also a great place to dry socks.

just because we worship satan doesnt mean we have to be inconsiderate to others.

meetthecreeper

05-10-2005, 11:20 AM

thats a good idea, I was kind of tired of having the ceiling fan smacking my horn tips.

It puts these little blemishes on them and man are they hard to polish out.

Needless to say I wont get into the neighborhood birds perching themselves.

It really is hard to look all evil and satanic with a couple of songbirds whistling in the end of your horns.

barbra

05-10-2005, 11:30 AM

wait a minute! I think I missed something, so your family is coming down on you for coming to these forums and meeting internet people? and they've don't something with your children?

urgeok

05-10-2005, 11:35 AM

Originally posted by meetthecreeper
thats a good idea, I was kind of tired of having the ceiling fan smacking my horn tips.

It puts these little blemishes on them and man are they hard to polish out.

Needless to say I wont get into the neighborhood birds perching themselves.

It really is hard to look all evil and satanic with a couple of songbirds whistling in the end of your horns.

not to mention birdshit running down your shoulders ..

meetthecreeper

05-10-2005, 11:43 AM

Originally posted by urgeok
not to mention birdshit running down your shoulders ..

my dry cleaning bills for my robes were getting astronomical

The STE

05-10-2005, 01:03 PM

Unfortunately, I'm a Stanist. I filled out the online form so that I could be a Satanist but apparently I made a typo.
<<<Stanist

Haunted

05-10-2005, 01:48 PM

AMK, you're a darling. Don't let anyone tell you any different. Keep up the warrior's path and you won't go astray.

Suicide....no. You can't do that. We love you.

bloodrayne

05-10-2005, 06:59 PM

Originally posted by allmykids
this forum is childish and satanic. Well...DUH....Why else would we BE here? :rolleyes: ...lol...:p

I just love it when people pass judgement about things that they have absolutely no clue about....So, these people that have decided these things about our forum...How much time have they actually spent here?...I mean, it would take at LEAST a week to determine how childish and satanic we are...Okay, maybe 2 weeks, if they're really slow...:rolleyes:

Oh...And about the 'horns' thing...I had to have mine removed...I could never decide whether I wanted them to be white to match my fangs or black to match my claws...It was frustrating, and I just can't do the 'mismatched' thing........lol

Anyway...I hope you're feeling better soon Stacy