ShankS
10-20-2004, 06:42 PM
Went out for a few beers last night, first had to dump my car round a friends house, then we walked and got the bus to the pub.
Met quite a few people and some I hadnt seen in a while, drank a few beers. Actualy most of it was lager, and I regret it now cos lager gives me a stinking headache the next day no mater how small amount I drink. I normally drink beer. Anyway, we split up and a few of us went onto another pub to play pool.
We got kicked out the pub around 11:30 ish and a few of us were going back to a mates house.... I had to anyway to sober up, cos I couldnt drive home. They had weed, and since I quit that stuff a long time ago I wasnt gona smoke it. Then I thought I'm gona be round there, they're gona be getting stoned and I'd have to sit there with this stinking headache getting worse and worse.
So stupidly I said lets get some coke, and since I was merry, not drunk, and hadnt had any for at least 5 or 6 years I had this absolutely goddamn fucking stupid idea to get some. They agreed and wanted some aswell. Someone rang and within 15 minutes we got hold of some.
As you might guess, I didnt get in till 8:45 this morning and ended up sleeping all day and most of the evening, and now it's 3:11am Thursday morning and I'm bloody awake.
I'm regretting it now, spent most of the night and morning playing Xbox, watching a couple of films which was good I guess, and in between talking lots of crap, ......since having this absolutely stupid idea, and the fact that I should have stopped having stupid spontaneous fuckedup ideas years ago...... I guess that idiot within me just cant be tamed, even at my age, and I let it get the better of me sometimes.
And another thing I get annoyed sometimes with myself is the fact that, I have different groups of friends, the younger ones in their 20s are the ones I tend to do stupid things with, and another group of friends, who are similar age or older, I act my age with and If I go out with them, I'd never even dream of doing coke or anything like that, and neither would they
I know to you guys, going by the way I can be here, and my avatar and whatnot, does give the impression that I'm the sort of guy who lives in a bar drinking all day.... For me it's a sort of a release from normality and I can come here and mess about and have some fun with you guys. I know I used to drink quite a bit when I was younger... ended up in casualty/ER 3 or 4 times through drinking too much, but never through taking drugs, I guess I knew my limits with that stuff, but ever since a couple of very serious occassions involving me, a couple of other male and female friends, whome I no longer associate with... I stopped doing 'recreational' drugs and told myself I'd never touch them again about 6 years ago.
It just pisses me off that sometimes on rare occassions now, I get stupid and I change the way I would normally be, and that is reasonably sensible, considering I was brought up well and 'would' say that I have repectable morals. I just hate regret because it makes me feel bad for a while afterwards.
Met quite a few people and some I hadnt seen in a while, drank a few beers. Actualy most of it was lager, and I regret it now cos lager gives me a stinking headache the next day no mater how small amount I drink. I normally drink beer. Anyway, we split up and a few of us went onto another pub to play pool.
We got kicked out the pub around 11:30 ish and a few of us were going back to a mates house.... I had to anyway to sober up, cos I couldnt drive home. They had weed, and since I quit that stuff a long time ago I wasnt gona smoke it. Then I thought I'm gona be round there, they're gona be getting stoned and I'd have to sit there with this stinking headache getting worse and worse.
So stupidly I said lets get some coke, and since I was merry, not drunk, and hadnt had any for at least 5 or 6 years I had this absolutely goddamn fucking stupid idea to get some. They agreed and wanted some aswell. Someone rang and within 15 minutes we got hold of some.
As you might guess, I didnt get in till 8:45 this morning and ended up sleeping all day and most of the evening, and now it's 3:11am Thursday morning and I'm bloody awake.
I'm regretting it now, spent most of the night and morning playing Xbox, watching a couple of films which was good I guess, and in between talking lots of crap, ......since having this absolutely stupid idea, and the fact that I should have stopped having stupid spontaneous fuckedup ideas years ago...... I guess that idiot within me just cant be tamed, even at my age, and I let it get the better of me sometimes.
And another thing I get annoyed sometimes with myself is the fact that, I have different groups of friends, the younger ones in their 20s are the ones I tend to do stupid things with, and another group of friends, who are similar age or older, I act my age with and If I go out with them, I'd never even dream of doing coke or anything like that, and neither would they
I know to you guys, going by the way I can be here, and my avatar and whatnot, does give the impression that I'm the sort of guy who lives in a bar drinking all day.... For me it's a sort of a release from normality and I can come here and mess about and have some fun with you guys. I know I used to drink quite a bit when I was younger... ended up in casualty/ER 3 or 4 times through drinking too much, but never through taking drugs, I guess I knew my limits with that stuff, but ever since a couple of very serious occassions involving me, a couple of other male and female friends, whome I no longer associate with... I stopped doing 'recreational' drugs and told myself I'd never touch them again about 6 years ago.
It just pisses me off that sometimes on rare occassions now, I get stupid and I change the way I would normally be, and that is reasonably sensible, considering I was brought up well and 'would' say that I have repectable morals. I just hate regret because it makes me feel bad for a while afterwards.